Dear Diary

I lose my weight a little.I don't have a exact goal but,I won't stop it until I regain the past me.My face got slim a little but not enough at all.I'm going to Philippines on August so until then.I'm not sure if I can achieve this.But I feel I'm regaining a confidence by it.Someday I will revenge to those who bullied me especially my father.I will show him that I'm a respective human being even he did not look at me that way.I will never forget this feeling I'm grossed everything about me!I w...

27 April 2014, 05:21 AM
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My mom tells me that we are going to cinema tomorrow,but unfortunately or always it gone.I'm always looking forward of what we planned but always not done it.I don't know if there is a meaning of planning it always.I told my friend today I'm totally under my mom.I will just give up my life and adopt a children.I love my bf and I don't wanna lose him but,I'm not expecting that he feels the same way.My Japanese friend told me admiring is also a love so I told her not and she just denied it.Ma...

26 April 2014, 04:31 PM
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Dear Diary

Today I have physical test.I got shorter?!!!While I'm running I left my shoe.Since teacher said just once,it can't be helped to run with just one pair of shoes.It hurts and unbalance.I run weirdly and laughed to myself at finish line.Today I searched works.I don't really have goal or dreams for my life.My mom told me to be stewardess,but it is low salary and heavy work in reality.I wanna use my potential as Filipino.I'm not that fluent in English but I wanna teach children. I like child and m...

24 April 2014, 03:14 PM
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Dear Diary

I smiled at school like nothing happened to me.Yesterday I can't talk to anyone about anything.I just listened to their funny stories and little bit relaxed.Today I finally be myself.I talked a lot about nonsense things than normal.I learn that when you fail it doesn't mean end.I'm starting to don't give up on anything.I'm bit proud that I'm not thinking to walk away form anything.I did it once and I got tired of it.Everyone was telling me go to school and I do not really like that idea.But m...

22 April 2014, 03:07 PM
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Dear Diary

I was thinking how to be cute today.But suddenly I felt so sad and remembered about my bully and sexual abuse at past.I feel down and cried loud a lot.I can't stop myself.Remembered the time I planned to suicide,but stopped for my beloved grandmother to don't make her sad.I'm asking god why my life got wrong?I did not do horrible things to other.Do I deserve to have a life like a hell.My chest got some serious pain.I'm again.The feeling you're sinking in deep dark cold sea.I'm falling down.I ...

20 April 2014, 02:04 PM
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Dear Diary

I decided to stop goth make-up.It doesn't suit me but it make me feels free and confident.Look cool in other way.I can be more cuse with doll eye make-up.I have to buy cosmetics that I need for it.Well it is my first time so I should practice for it a lot. But I don't make-up usually.My skin is so sensitive that even I just wear lip gloss it makes me feel itchy.BB cream makes my pimples more and more so,maybe when just a special day.But my cosmetics is such a waste if I don't use it for a yea...

20 April 2014, 07:00 AM
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Dear Diary

Today I have my first date.We have lunch together.I'm not used to eat at hotel's restaurant.So I don't know table manners at all.But all dishes was so good.It was a good experience for me.But most of all,I'm happy because I'm with him.Our first date was success.We walk a lot today,so tired.He walks pretty fast than I thought.Maybe because he is not reading books while walking today.His smile was like an angel,cause it makes me feel that I'm at heaven.Getting corny *hahaha*.

19 April 2014, 09:42 AM
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Dear Diary

I can't sleep.Feeling so drowsy lately.Feeling you bf is more exhausting than I thought.Two nerds in love with each other?!I don't care what other says.Most important is we love each other.

17 April 2014, 03:46 PM
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Dear Diary

My bf is very good person.He don't want me to hide our relationship to my family but,I'm afraid to lose him.Maybe my mom transfer me to other school.I don't know what to do if I lost him.I don't if I can smile.Maybe like the past,I lost my emotion and act to everyone normal.Fake smile and fake laugh.I try to be strong but I thought,I'm not strong enough.Please,just wait two years.I will do anything for you to answer the love your giving to me.

16 April 2014, 02:42 PM
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Dear Diary

I don't feel lonely anymore.I have bf,being with his side comforts me.Love don't need words or anything.I just feel it.I'm so happy with him.I don't need anything cause he is my everything now.All bad memories will be ok with him.I hope this is a true love,because I don't know what I will do when I broke again.

15 April 2014, 02:19 PM
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Dear Diary

I can't believe my dress is gone?!Mom where did you out that.It is my only dress that fits to me now.I bought medium size dress and it is so loose for me.Why my birthday is so unlucky for me?Today I found a restaurant's job.I don't know if it suits to me.My problem is I'm so shy to talk to customers.I have to really overcome shyness.

15 April 2014, 03:31 AM
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Dear Diary

I wanna find job so I can buy my things on my own.Weekends maybe?My friends is totally indoor,I'm bored.Wish I can find it.

14 April 2014, 02:29 PM
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Dear Diary

Today is my birth-day.Lately it is so terrible.Something irritating occurs on it.My grandma died.My mom got mad.Today mom forget where is my dress.Oh my,don't be silly seriously.Only happy thing that happened is I answer my bf today.It will be our anniversary too.

14 April 2014, 07:23 AM
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Dear Diary

I think every unlucky things happened to my life will replace to something more better in future.I will wait until that time.I will enjoy it.I will make sure that all of that will greater than now.It is not end,it is the start that I believe.

13 April 2014, 03:05 AM
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Dear diary

I'm alive again!April 14 will be my happiest day ever. I'm alive again!Good bye to anorexic me.Goodbye to death me.Goodbye to unemotional me.Since the day I die.The day makes me feel I'm sinking to deep,cold,dark,unending sea.Full of hatred to myself.The day I become not me.It has finally ended! My long journey of finding me.

12 April 2014, 01:54 PM
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Dear Diary

I feel I get matured lately.I am facing my problems now.But one thing,not to tell my mom and my sister is about my sex abusement.I don't know what will they react when I tell it.I just keep it a secret.

11 April 2014, 04:35 PM
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Dear Diary

I always lied to some fact I don't want.I always run away of problems,but I got tired of it.I blame lord because of everything that happening to me is horrible.But I faced it now.I just thought lord wants me to get tough.To these many trials.He give this to me because I can overcome it.

11 April 2014, 04:27 PM
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Dear Diary

He tells me that it is not my fault.That was the first time I felt true friendship through him.My big secret is not secret anymore.I was trembling because of fear,everything is getting back to my mind.I hate myself even now,but because him,it gets better.

11 April 2014, 04:22 PM
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Dear Diary

2014 this year is really lucky for me!Even it starts with injury!I met my bestie by a chat.I told him my secret!!!First of all,he is just a stranger that's why I decide to told to him.Honestly I it was a hard decision.I prepared that he will shock on it.But he really was>_<I just realized to keep it a secret because of him,I know what everyone reacts on it.

11 April 2014, 04:16 PM
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My SECRET

I'm just 9 years old when dad did that to me.He tells me to do not tell to anyone.I don't know that it was a sin to god to do such a thing.I'm blaming myself!If I just complain about it.I don't feel miserable about myself now!It is all my fault!

11 April 2014, 04:12 PM
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