Dad

His definition to me is that he is an oblivious hypocritical man. My worst fear is that I am becoming him.

14 July 2014, 12:30 AM
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Done.

I hate working with my father. He is the type of man who "knows everything" therefore you are a pile of shit if you haven't had the chance to obtain the knowledge of every single fucking thing on this earth. Yet, he will not fire me. Just give me less hours and admit the cause is to give me a break. I mean it's not like I was saving for college or anything. (Sarcasm) He hasn't even paid me, even though I have worked with him for 5 months. What I have supposed to have earned goes into my colle...

07 July 2014, 12:18 AM
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Right now I am packing for my Niagara Falls trip tommarrow. At the moment I just feel anxious. Vacations are suppose to be fun, but in reality I am going to be stuck in a car with my little sister for 6 hours as she yammers on trying to suck up all the love from my parents. It seems that she isn't even a real person. Just puts on this superficial front to make me seem like a shitty daughter. In other words, I am not looking forward to this vacation.

24 June 2014, 01:49 AM
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The theory of pain indulgence.

I am currently at my desk writing this with my cat looking over my shoulders. I wanted to write this concerning this ever growing conspiracy among society. The theory that if one has no right to be hurt/depressed or find oneself worthless...That the individual has no right to feel any pain because there are people out there who have it worse. We all endure pain. That does not make any type of situation any less real or monumental depending on their personal advantages and or disadvantages. So...

15 June 2014, 09:51 PM
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Sunday night..

How is it that I feel so completely and utterly alone? I have friends who are all there, who all call me their silly friend. I know they could never fully understand the weights I bear. There are those who purely do not understand and assume I am a person who does not deserve to exist. I'm afraid I agree with them.

26 May 2014, 04:44 AM
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I'm not sure what to do.

I thought I was over my depression. I've been religiously taking my medication. My heart is heavy, and I would very much like to swan dive off of a fucking building.

22 May 2014, 07:57 PM
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I admit it.

I have suffered from depression since 7th grade. It was the most awkward point in my life. I didn't know what the hell I was wearing back then, but by the amount of 7th grade gentlemen I was getting, obviously I wasn't dressing "right." I always felt left out and too old for my age group. Which left this heavy lingering feeling on my heart. And it is still here as I write this. The friends I have now are very kind and are there for me, but there is this part of me that remembers that there wi...

22 May 2014, 07:55 PM
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Hello Diary

This is my first post. I've decided to make all of these entries "public." Because honestly, I've always hated the idea of a diary. What's the point in expressing my feelings if there is no one reading them. It made me feel even more alone than I have always felt.

22 May 2014, 07:52 PM
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