Living in the Past

It's almost two months since you told me you love me and when we were just so close to each other. I was hesitant about what you were telling me before. But now that I fully trust you. I fully believed in you, I was too late. I lost my place in your heart already. Someone replaced me. Someone took my place so quick that I'm not even aware of it. I still remember the things we talk about before. How sweet you were. You treated me really really special. But now it was all gone. I keep hoping ...

13 October 2013, 08:20 AM
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Empty.

We got back together (my ex and I) but why am I still looking for someone else's attention. I know that that someone else (yes, there is another one - the reason we broke up) doesn't deserve it (or maybe he does) because he kept flirting with other girls. :( I want his attention. I badly want it. Why do I still want it? I don't know. I don't know. :(

09 October 2013, 10:41 AM
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He noticed me!

I went online on Skype just to keep it standby with the hopes that this someone will send me an IM ANDDDDD lucky me he did! :) He Pm-ed me just to tell me that I was so pretty in our class tonight. :) I'm really really happy! :) I'm really happy that he still notices me even though we are drifting apart. And I also think he has some girl he fancies right now. :( Nevertheless, I'm still happy that he still have eyes for me. :)

07 October 2013, 01:55 PM
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Childish

I just heard tons and tons of sermon from my "partner" in my special problem (a 'lighter' undergraduate thesis) because I can't figure out what to do with it. I'm really worried about it because if I can't propose a topic I can't graduate next semester and I'm still really on the process of figuring how things work in my topic. I'm still confused about it and I need serious help. :( He told me I am childish and all of those sorts. Yes I actually am. I should admit it but seriously, I'm tire...

05 October 2013, 06:57 PM
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Jealousy

I told myself over and over that I won't care about him anymore. Over and over. :( But just because of a simple status like on facebook... It hurts so much inside. My heart seems to break into tiny pieces. Does this mean that I am in love with him? :(

02 October 2013, 05:12 PM
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Conflicting emotions

He told me before that he loves me. That he can see his future with me. That days pass so slowly when he's not talking to me. That it's difficult to not talk to me. BUT now that we're slowly drifting away from each other. We haven't talked much unlike before. We haven't even went for dinner for ages. It's making me sad that he quickly forgot about me. About the times we spent together. Those times that he loves me. Just yesterday, he told me he misses me. Yes I miss him too but there is thi...

01 October 2013, 05:26 PM
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He's talking to me! He's talking to meeee! :D I'm so happy last Friday night because of all a sudden I have a missed call from my ex. Anddd it was almost an hour after I saw it (since my phone's been always in silent mode for ages already) then I texted him saying, "Yes?" Then he replied telling me that I call! :D I was soooo damn happy that night like really really really happy! :D And yes it's been a couple of days already when he started talking to me and chatting me on FB. :3

30 September 2013, 02:22 PM
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And sooo...I messed up again. :< Yeah I talked to that freakin' son of a bitch. It lightened my feelings a bit yes. BUT I should not talk to him like I like him or what. Now that my ex and I is talking already. I mean, well, he contacted me. ;)

30 September 2013, 02:07 PM
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Why is it that when I want to talk to you, you don't want to? And then when I'm not interested in talking to you anymore, it's when you always look for ways to talk to me. Oh come on. Talk about bad timing. Haha! But really, NO. I won't be talking to you for a long time. I'll make sure that I'd do what I'm saying now. :)

27 September 2013, 05:51 PM
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I wonderrrr. These two people went online at exactly the same time right now. Hahaha! I do believe they're together now or at least they've been together tonight. Maybe went out, dated or whatever. Haha! It can be a coincidence but this event happened twice already. Soooo, it's either I'm right or it's really just a coincidence. ;) #assuming :))

27 September 2013, 04:58 PM
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“The one thing you can’t take away from me is the way I choose to respond to what you do to me. The last of one’s freedoms is to choose one’s attitude in any given circumstance.” ― Viktor E. Frankl

27 September 2013, 06:07 AM
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Some people avoid you so it would be easy for you to move on with your life -without them.

27 September 2013, 06:01 AM
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No one should ever be taken for granted.

27 September 2013, 05:49 AM
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Be with people who not only make you happy but also brings out the best in you.

27 September 2013, 05:47 AM
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It's better that you learn to stand alone BUT don't make yourself look pathetic in front of those people who hurt you. It would only give them the satisfaction that you are still affected by them. Show them that you don't care even if it's just a pretense. Tell yourself that you don't care each time you feel you do, believe me, it'll work and one day when you wake up you can feel that you actually don't care anymore.

27 September 2013, 05:40 AM
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I believed you. I trusted you. I thought you were really telling me the truth. But why? You ruined my relationship and yet I still looked up to you. I still respected you. And this is what I get? You wouldn't even explain anything to me. You just acknowledged that I am having doubts about you. What? Why? What am I to you? A favorite pastime? Wow. Just wow. Go flirt with that bitch all you want.

26 September 2013, 09:26 PM
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Think it's easy?

When you know you can do something easily or at least you think you can do it easily, you tend to slack off. Then afterwards cram. Cram. And cram. :<

23 September 2013, 09:32 PM
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Are you...?

Did I just get myself used? Are you just using me? Are you just talking to me to pass time? Are you really into me? Are you just there telling me sweet things because I'm the only one around? Are you just taking advantage of me? Are you? Are you? Am I just making myself believe in the dream that you love me?

22 September 2013, 05:51 PM
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Glow with happiness!

It's important to make yourself happy. Find reasons why you should be happy by yourself than to wait for others to do it for you because they would love to be with a happy person than with a person who only pities herself.

21 September 2013, 05:17 AM
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Stardust ✴ ✴ ✴

Flying high in the sky oh~~ with the beautiful stars.. Living in the movie now, kissing under raindrops (wanna go~) Let's see a whole brand new world, oh take my hand and you'll know~ oh~ You're in this movie too, oh~ you're in this movie too, hmm~

20 September 2013, 01:07 PM
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