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March 31, 2014 - April Showers

For the past four days it has been raining. Not a drop of sunshine hits me. It seem that nothing could be worst than dreary days until you release that 'April Showers' does not always refer to the rain, rather it applies fairly well to the pain you feel on those dreary days. When you feel betrayed and abused. When someone you trusted gutted you and left you lying there, slowly bleeding out. When someone brightens your day and rips that from you, that is when you feel April Showers. When y...

31 March 2014, 02:55 PM
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March 14, 2014 - Pi Phrustration

How many more weeks will you cry? How many more days will you let out the frustration breath by breath, the weight of your words making you hunch over? How many more hours before you break, fall onto those knees of yours and realize this isn't worth it? How many more minutes will you waste staying up at night thinking about him? How many seconds left before you can sleep peacefully at night, unperturbed by the nightmares lurking in the crevices? I hate watching you like this. We talk and ta...

15 March 2014, 02:05 AM
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March 5, 2014 - Feelings of Anger

Dear roommate, You suck. You set your alarm for 7 AM, but don't actually leave your bed until 11AM. I, on the other hand, have to listen to your various alarms ring all morning. Selfish you. You leave the library early to work in the room for a little while, meaning 2 hours. You ask me to stay up with you even though I am tired too so that you do not fall asleep while studying. You say there is no where else to eat at 10:30 except for the room when both you and I know that you could have wo...

05 March 2014, 02:17 PM
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March 4, 2014 - Feeling Grateful

I will always be appreciative to the friends that have walked alongside my side. To the first friend who ever accepted me quirks and flaws. To the friends who have never left my side even as we become separated by miles. To the best friends and worst enemies I am thankful to have met you all. To have learned from you and to experience life through a different perspective. I am who I am because of the rough patches on my skin and the dirt under my fingernails as well as the permanent marks of ...

04 March 2014, 05:17 PM
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Currently (Re)Reading: The Fault in Our Stars

By John Green "Some people don't understand the promise they're making when they make them. But you keep the promise anyway. That's what love is. Love is keeping the promise anyway."

04 March 2014, 04:20 AM
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TRL: Cha-Ching (Till We Grow Older)

By Imagine Dragons "You've got to live your life While your blood is boiling. These doors won't open While you stand and watch them."

04 March 2014, 04:13 AM
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March 3, 2014 - Dear Friend...

Dear friend, You are amazing. You are loved. You are courageous. You are magnificent. You bring light into my dark days. To you I am a mere shadow walking beside you. To me you walk alongside me in shades of gray. There is no competition, no overshadowing, instead we are just two people trying to figure out this crazy mess called the world and adulthood. Friend, I am amazed by your strength. To come out of the closet to anyone: your friends, family, strangers is amazing. It takes courage ...

03 March 2014, 08:15 PM
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TRL: Say Something

By A Great Big World "I will swallow my pride You're the one I love..."

02 March 2014, 11:19 PM
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March 2, 2014 - Letting It Go

I cannot, could not, will not write everyday. I started out writing voluntarily, as a way to liberate myself of my teenage angst and the difficult thoughts/feelings I was too afraid to let loose from my lips. Afraid that the fears would come true once I breathed life into them. That they would break free from me and become something dark and monstrous. I much prefer leaving them trapped within my mind and here where I can control it. The past week has been tumultuous. Secrets have been let l...

02 March 2014, 11:14 PM
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January 18, 2014 - Dreaming of You

Today I had a dream in which I held hands with my best friend. Even in the dream it was realistic. I felt the awkward clash of our knuckles when our fingers interlaced. To me, it is more romantic for love to be awkward than smooth. Awkward moments are memorable, smooth are easily forgettable. Life is about the struggle and getting over the struggles, therefore love should be the same. It shouldn't just be smooth sailing. It should be a combination of awkward moments, funny times, and even sad...

02 February 2014, 04:40 PM
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TRL: Set Fire to the Third Bar

By Snow Patrol "I lay down on the cold ground. I pray that something picks me up and sets me down in your warm arms."

23 January 2014, 06:37 AM
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January 17, 2014 - TGIF

Beats dropping. Bass vibrating my entire body. My heart speeds along to the beat of the music. Feels like a heart attack. If I were to go, I die happily among my friends. Survived the first week of school. Now I have a long ass break. Three days to be exact. Since we have all this free time my friends and I decided to go to an 18+ club. We decided on Machine, a notoriously outrageous club for LGBT teens and straights alike.

23 January 2014, 06:31 AM
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January 16, 2014 - Thirsty Thursday

"Thirsty Thursday" is not a thing where I am, considering that everyone here is pretty studious. In fact Thursday is just another day in the library. Yeah, we're pretty nerdy. Speaking of nerds and geeks, I can't help but marvel at the changes the world is making. Geeks and nerds are not necessarily the "cool" or "popular" kids but compared to a decade ago, are kind of accepted. The Big Bang Theory is extremely popular, helping with the nerd popularity. But more importantly, it seems that i...

23 January 2014, 06:25 AM
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Untitled #2

I guess it's a little unrealistic to write about every detail or everyday, considering I go to college. I am not traveling around the world or working in a company. My interactions are the same everyday. I can't make my life more interesting than it is. I don't know. I'll fight through this lag I am currently experiencing in order to reach my goal.

23 January 2014, 06:20 AM
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January 15, 2014 - Nothing Nothing

Third day: settling in well. I cannot help wondering what it is like to feel isolated and alone on a campus thriving and bustling with people. People walking, laughing and smiling in their groups while others walk a similar path alone without a sound. It must truly be the worst feeling in the world to feel invisible and ignored, while others are happily sharing inner jokes. I hope to never feel that way.

21 January 2014, 01:50 AM
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January 14, 2014 - Bitches Begone

Managed to avoid meeting Thing 1 and Thing 2 on the same day. Thing 1 and Thing 2 are the past. The suffering and backstabbing that splattered the bright days of last semester. Vacation doesn't end until you see the two. And today my vacation ended. But it's okay because everyday is a vacation with my friends. We are young. We are free. We have many dreams and we'll be there for each other, one way or another.

21 January 2014, 01:43 AM
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TRL: Hurry Hurry

By Air Traffic Controller "A year goes by you wonder why not much is done. You blew right past your precious time with everyone. You've run too much in parallel. Now hurry hurry is your hell."

20 January 2014, 05:50 PM
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January 14, 2014 - Taking a Page Out of a Book

Today I am taking a page out of my friend's book... I am shopping for classes. I don't appreciate racism and it concerns me that some of my friends are so quick to judge. A name is a name. It denotes the love a parent has for their child and to judge someone by their name is unjust. No one has the right to judge love, not even God or the gods. I am glad I decided to do this rather than be prejudice because this guy is amazing. He is from China but his English is solid and he is a Ph.D. stud...

20 January 2014, 05:44 PM
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January 13, 2014 - First Day

Today is the first day of the new semester. The cliche: new faces, new teachers, a chance to bring out a new side of myself. The not so cliche: my best friend is incredibly fierce at the height of barely 5 feet. She is amazing amazing amazing and everyone should know it. She decided to change majors and has spent all day shopping for classes. Talk about dedication. I am grateful I met her and all my friends. They support me whenever I fall down. When I feel like I am collapsing at the seams, ...

20 January 2014, 05:40 PM
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January 12, 2014 - 1 Day

As the deadline approaches, I become more restless. I spend increasingly more time with my family at night. At night our facade and masks can fall off. We can reveal the truth that we are not as strong as we pretend to be. I'll never be able to feel the depth of love my dad must have for my brother and me. Having to drop off one kid is tough but two is devastating...

15 January 2014, 04:13 AM
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