Is it bad?

Is it bad that i don't find myself good enough to be in a relationship with the boy i like. He asked me out today but he's so above me. Im so worn and depressed but he always makes me smile. I don't deserve him. He deserves someone better than me.

09 October 2014, 06:24 AM
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makeup

This can't be covered with makeup. Why'd i disagree with her. Why was i dumb enough to fight. I know she hits harder when i argue. This cut won't cover. Its on my face too. Shell call me in sick tomorrow. Shell put on her fake "I'm a perfect parent thats stricken with worry and could do no wrong" voice and say i have the flu. Then shell yell and say its my fault. So much for that project due in chem. I tried so hard on it too. Its a lesson to help me hold my tongue.Because theres no way i can...

06 October 2014, 10:30 PM
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I deserve it

What did i do to deserve it? No matter what she finds some reason to call me names…today she did something new.she compared me to a cockroach. Im so used to ugly,stupid,bitchy,and useless it kind of threw me... I cry myself to sleep every night. What did i do to deserve it? What did i do to deserve her as my mother.

06 October 2014, 10:19 PM
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bite my tongue

Today has been one of the worst in a while. She called me a coward when i raised my arm to shield my face from her slap. She said to stop acting like an idiot and a coward. I had so many words i wanted to say in that moment and for a split second i stopped bitting my tongue. But i didn't make it count and it ended up being more of a jumbled whimper of words. But than i regained my strength and i bit my tongue until it bled. People believe bitting your tongue is a metaphor, to me its not,I hav...

06 October 2014, 10:18 PM
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Yes ma'am

No one should ever have to say "yes ma'am" after being called a bitchy two faced slut. No one should ever have to agree with someone who's putting them down. No one should say "yes ma'am" to a woman they felt protected by after she putts them down. I do it every day. My mom says its disrespectful to say anything else. Yet her putdowns aren't disrespectful….ofcourse i can't say that. Instead i say yes ma'am and act like am not about to go to my room and cry my eyes and think "why haven't i kil...

06 October 2014, 10:17 PM
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