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"THE MONSTER'S CHILD"

“Come on, we’re getting married anyway. My parents would like to see your mother.” Cold sweat started on her skin. He looked concerned and upset at the same time. She drew in a sharp breath before responding in panic: “No, forget it. Bad idea.” “What do you mean?” He was now exasperated. “Hon, she’s your own mother.” “You won’t get it.” “Then, help me to understand.” “You can’t!” With that, she burst in tears and ran away. She was relieved that he wasn’t chasing after her – demanding an answe...

11 January 2019, 04:18 PM
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"SPOILED"

I’m surprised with how long you’re still alive, despite being sluggish a king in an imaginary castle That’s quite a jigsaw puzzle It’s not all about you You know damn well it’s true Others have stuff to do Why don’t you do something too? A spoiled old brat Laziness has turned you bad Stop being everybody’s burden Grow up and work your own, even if you have to scrape your fingers all the way to the bones... R.

03 January 2019, 11:44 AM
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"SPOILED"

I’m surprised with how long you’re still alive, despite being sluggish a king in an imaginary castle That’s quite a jigsaw puzzle It’s not all about you You know damn well it’s true Others have stuff to do Why don’t you do something too? A spoiled old brat Laziness has turned you bad Stop being everybody’s burden Grow up and work your own, even if you have to scrape your fingers all the way to the bones... R.

03 January 2019, 11:44 AM
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"NOTES ABOUT AND TO ANYONE OR NO ONE IN PARTICULAR"

What do I normally do when my mind starts wandering around? I try to trap some of my thoughts – especially those I find most important – in my writing. Of course, you won’t be too surprised. I did have my “Dear Diary” moments as a teenage girl. Some people may still assume that writing a journal is just a girl thing, but we all know it’s not true. Just like me, some people do feel the need to document their thoughts and feelings this way. It’s just as simple as that. I’m probably just one of ...

31 December 2018, 03:22 AM
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"WHAT I'LL LEAVE IN 2018"

Ask me not about the bastard who’d made this heart nothing but a toy my emotions, his sickest joy Don’t you seriously dare say I’m just playing the victim because I’m still here rising from humiliation From you nor anyone, I need no judgment Pray that from me, the creep shall stay away in 2019 I want to be free from such forsaken memories about that prick in 2018... R.

29 December 2018, 11:07 AM
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"TO THE LAST BIT OF 2018"

Wow. Time flies before your eyes. As cliche as that sounds, what are you going to do about that, huh? Not much, sadly. You can’t stop time. All you’ve got to do is roll with it. There are plenty you can still do for the last bit of 2018 here. For starters, your unfinished business. The bad news is, you’ll always have them somehow – whether you like it or not. They could be your unrealised goals or plans this year. They could also be your long-term projects gone overdue. Then suddenly, you sta...

29 December 2018, 12:17 AM
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"TO THE LAST BIT OF 2018"

Wow. Time flies before your eyes. As cliche as that sounds, what are you going to do about that, huh? Not much, sadly. You can’t stop time. All you’ve got to do is roll with it. There are plenty you can still do for the last bit of 2018 here. For starters, your unfinished business. The bad news is, you’ll always have them somehow – whether you like it or not. They could be your unrealised goals or plans this year. They could also be your long-term projects gone overdue. Then suddenly, you sta...

29 December 2018, 12:17 AM
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"THE KILLJOY"

Being the first in line doesn’t mean it’s always fine You’re not always the priority left to just wait and see I’m not bitter yet I know better what you choose to ignore I’d better be out the door R.

25 December 2018, 03:56 AM
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"THE KILLJOY"

Being the first in line doesn’t mean it’s always fine You’re not always the priority left to just wait and see I’m not bitter yet I know better what you choose to ignore I’d better be out the door R.

25 December 2018, 03:56 AM
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Journal_pane_8526191545640324

"THE WAKE-UP CALL FOR THE WORKAHOLICS"

What makes one workaholic? The reasons may vary. Some just love the work itself. It’s what makes them feel alive. To some others, they love the money more. They may not always like the job and other types of work they do, though. What keeps them on the job is the thought (and perhaps the possibility) of earning more. Some others become workaholics to escape their current agony. Whether it’s a heartbreak, the death of someone they love, or even the loss of money. (No, I’m not kidding on the la...

24 December 2018, 08:32 AM
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"THE WAKE-UP CALL FOR THE WORKAHOLICS"

What makes one workaholic? The reasons may vary. Some just love the work itself. It’s what makes them feel alive. To some others, they love the money more. They may not always like the job and other types of work they do, though. What keeps them on the job is the thought (and perhaps the possibility) of earning more. Some others become workaholics to escape their current agony. Whether it’s a heartbreak, the death of someone they love, or even the loss of money. (No, I’m not kidding on the la...

24 December 2018, 08:32 AM
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"BUSY"

The grip of reality slowly taking over me away from my real hobbies all in the name of making more money I know I’m busy There’s got to be a way to do what I love to be who I am write what I know Still struggling for the space for my own creativity before it’s slowly erased by this busy reality... R.

22 December 2018, 03:14 PM
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"THE BRUTAL HONESTY VERSUS STEREOTYPING"

Let’s just admit it; stereotyping is hard to tackle. Generalising is always there, whether we’d like to admit it or not. Trying to fight it off is as difficult as forcing a lion to go vegan. We experience this everywhere – every day of our lives. It doesn’t matter which gender, race, creed, religion, nation, or else. Some are simply mean-spirited, literally trying to bring you (and your kind?) down. Some are just upset with what some certain people do and simplify the matter, categorising t...

21 December 2018, 12:11 PM
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"COME BACK TO US, PLEASE"

Come... Come back... Come back to us... Come back to use, please... Every line’s a trigger for the memories when you’ve suffered angry voices loss of choices violence in the air smell of blood everywhere Monsters looking human yet they loved causing torment (and damn, they still do!) You were forced to flee leaving your home country... Come... Come back... Come back to us... Come back to use, please... You think your life’s a dead end but you’re deadly wrong, my friend There’s a reason yo...

15 December 2018, 06:38 AM
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"COME BACK TO US, PLEASE"

Come... Come back... Come back to us... Come back to use, please... Every line’s a trigger for the memories when you’ve suffered angry voices loss of choices violence in the air smell of blood everywhere Monsters looking human yet they loved causing torment (and damn, they still do!) You were forced to flee leaving your home country... Come... Come back... Come back to us... Come back to use, please... You think your life’s a dead end but you’re deadly wrong, my friend There’s a reason yo...

15 December 2018, 06:37 AM
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"THE LANGUAGE OF SILENCE"

HER: We speak the same language. We talk everyday. Yet we still don’t get each other. Most of the time, it’s you who talk, talk, talk and want me to listen and understand. No arguments. When it’s my turn to say something, you always have reasons not to listen. You say I’m too demanding. You say I’m not like I used to be. The truth is, you’ve been so comfortable with how things are. You’ve grown selfish. You think I’ll always obey you. You think I’ll always be there. Watch me walk away. You’ll...

13 December 2018, 11:50 AM
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"THE CAFFEINE-FUELLED WORKAHOLIC"

Stay awake Tons of work that always wait No time to waste Not many choices anyway Ask me not to relax I need to catch up with all I’ve lost Thanks to you-know-who ‘though they refuse to accept it’s true One more cup of that black coffee, please? Pray this old heart won’t pop after so many punches and stabs Convince friends: “It’s all good” ‘though you can’t always pretend You’re tired You’re bloody exhausted Oh-so-fed-up Wait, what romance? It’s probably been dead for ages My two left-fee...

11 December 2018, 09:57 AM
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"THE CAFFEINE-FUELLED WORKAHOLIC"

Stay awake Tons of work that always wait No time to waste Not many choices anyway Ask me not to relax I need to catch up with all I’ve lost Thanks to you-know-who ‘though they refuse to accept it’s true One more cup of that black coffee, please? Pray this old heart won’t pop after so many punches and stabs Convince friends: “It’s all good” ‘though you can’t always pretend You’re tired You’re bloody exhausted Oh-so-fed-up Wait, what romance? It’s probably been dead for ages My two left-fee...

11 December 2018, 09:56 AM
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"THE 37-YEAR-OLD ME"

I didn’t want to write this at first. I thought it would be a waste of time. Well, here it is: So I finally turned 37 last month. Big deal. Three years before 40. So what? It’s just a reminder of the day you were born, year after year. “It’s three years before your retirement,” said a friend one day. However, writers never really retire. It’s more than a job for some of us. It’s a calling. If you live in Indonesia as a single, 37-year-old woman, always be ready for more scrutiny. It’s always ...

10 December 2018, 09:36 AM
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"THE 37-YEAR-OLD ME"

I didn’t want to write this at first. I thought it would be a waste of time. Well, here it is: So I finally turned 37 last month. Big deal. Three years before 40. So what? It’s just a reminder of the day you were born, year after year. “It’s three years before your retirement,” said a friend one day. However, writers never really retire. It’s more than a job for some of us. It’s a calling. If you live in Indonesia as a single, 37-year-old woman, always be ready for more scrutiny. It’s always ...

10 December 2018, 09:36 AM
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