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"THE EID HOMECOMING"

He returned home this Eid holiday. The hometown still looked the same as always. Not much had changed for the past couple of years. He hesitated at first. Should he go straight home or book a cheap motel room first? He should’ve thought this through. Besides, he wasn’t ready for their reaction. Some people here might also have recognised him. He hadn’t gone away that long. They could surely tell in just a glance. They might call home or not. He didn’t want to risk it. He went to the cheapest ...

29 June 2019, 10:04 AM
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"IT'S NOT ME, IT'S YOU!"

Some people try to deny the fact that they’re actually the real problem. You’ve probably experienced this before. You can sense that there’s something off about them, yet you can’t exactly pinpoint what it is. This is not about those who are openly and rudely against you. In fact, most of them are pretty smooth. Most of the time, they act all polite and nice. Many others hardly notice or suspect anything about them. One of the subtlest signs is from the jokes they make. They can be corny or s...

24 June 2019, 03:35 PM
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"I...ALONE..."

Thirty-seven years of my mortal life so far and I don’t think I’m that easily surprised anymore. Maybe I’ve already lowered some of my expectations on many things, including people. That is one way to avoid disappointment, like literally. Is it bitterness – or just the fact that I’ve finally resigned to becoming more at peace, accepting reality as it is? Have I gone too cold and cynical for my own good? The thing is, I haven’t given up on my personal dream just yet. No, I will not do so. I’ve...

15 June 2019, 06:00 AM
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"ALL APOLOGIES..."

We’ve just gone through the annual tradition of Eid-ul-Fitr. Eid Mubarak, everyone! It’s also called Lebaran in Indonesia. I don’t know if it’s the same thing in other countries that also celebrate it. Sorry, I haven’t checked yet. I only remember vaguely that in Saudi Arabia, Eid-ul-Adh/Hajj is more widely celebrate than this Eid. Then again, correct me if I’m wrong. The annual Eid tradition I’m talking about here is the exchange of apologies and forgiveness. If you have lived here long enou...

11 June 2019, 12:23 PM
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"POINTS OF VIEW"

How does it feel to write a journal from different angles or perspectives? I’ve never really tried it. I’m not sure how. Even if I have, I may not realise it. This idea simply popped out of mind at random. I don’t know how this will work out, but I think I’m going to give this a try. See how this will work. Most writers use either the first or the third person narrative. You know, the ‘I’ or the ‘he/she’. I sometimes use both when I see fit. Me, I also use the second person narrative. I know ...

31 May 2019, 05:00 AM
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"THE BAD BLOOD BEFORE THE BLOOD BATH?"

The bitch-fest seems to drag on and on No wonder the soap operas’ ratings are down Each finds ways to stab their opponents perhaps until all is completely gone What’s with the bad blood? To them, you’re just the big, fat jokes pawns to crash against each other to pieces while they take your leftovers for sale if still valuable They care not of the possible bloodbath as long as they escape the massive wrath and even its aftermath You’ll be just remains, stepped on their walking path Please,...

21 May 2019, 04:44 PM
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"FACES OF YOU"

This could be about one’s hypocrisy – or merely survival in this society. Most of the time, it’s both. Sometimes it’s by choice, other times it’s out of necessity. Sometimes it can be both. Some people say that honesty is still the best policy. (Oh, really?) Say whatever you think or feel at the moment. It doesn’t matter how they might react. If they’re hurt or offended by the truth (according to you), then it’s not your problem. They’re the ones who need to grow up and just deal with it. Rig...

20 May 2019, 10:04 PM
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"YOUR TOXICITY"

It’s the environment I’d rather not be in full of such impossible demands and scolding remarks for my lack of perfection This is not my weakness I’ve regained my strength and courage to walk away from your toxicity Good luck in trying to find a substitute to fill the space I’m leaving behind... R. (Jakarta, April 14, 2019)

18 May 2019, 10:06 AM
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"THE LADIES' NIGHT: Albens and The Redhead"

I wasn’t looking for romance. I wasn’t into that sort of fun anyway. So, what was I doing that Wednesday night at McG’s – the pub downstairs from where I work? I accepted a kind invitation from Ashanti, this girl at work. “You know what it is.” She winked at me before she strolled away. “It’s the ladies’ night.” Yeah, I do. Free drinks – or should I say, booze. No foods. Not too appealing for the broke and the hungry, but... Oh, well. What the hell. I was too bored and angry with the world. I...

18 May 2019, 04:14 AM
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"QUIET"

Sssh... Hear the silence. Listen. You may not have before Too busy talking delivering demands ignoring the signs... ...worst of all, exercising your childish tantrum. Sssh... Don’t talk too much Your ego is too bloated and loud You’re out of touch You’ve asked a lot even with so little they’ve got Sssh... Watch their micro-expressions. Can you feel the tension? Blame them for not speaking? Perhaps you haven’t been listening. This boat is slowly sinking. Sssh... Why is it so hard for you t...

12 May 2019, 10:34 PM
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"CURIOUSITY SCARES THE CAUTIOUS"

On my last commute between places on this island, I suddenly had my own train of thoughts. As I stared outside the train window, my mind drifed back to my childhood. Specifically, my kindergarten years. I’ve told this story to some people already. Readers, be prepared. Just don’t blame my parents or the school after this, okay? It was all on me. So, it was the celebration of Indonesia’s Independence Day on August 17. The school was crowded and noisy with an afterschool festival. It was sunny ...

12 May 2019, 10:36 AM
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"THE BLUFF"

I’d like to call your bluff after you’ve implied I wasn’t good enough even after all I’ve done Everybody’s replacable at some point, inevitable I’ve made you believe I’m gullible I wasn’t born yesterday I know what you’re doing I’m familiar with exploitation It’s your grave mistake to think I can always be your mean machine with your tiny supply of power operating on the witching hour Sorry, I’ve run out of my midnight oil not that sorry I’ve caused your rage to boil For too long, I’ve tr...

11 May 2019, 06:11 AM
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"THAT LASTING IMPRESSION"

Sometimes, some people just leave that lasting impression on you. Even if they’re gone, you still remember them. You still talk about them once in a while. What kind of a ‘lasting impression’ we’re talking about here? It depends. There are different lasting impressions anyone can leave behind. Of course, the great ones are always easy to remember. You keep things they leave behind. Occasionally, you speak of them with such fondness. Most importantly, you miss them. It would be nice if they co...

11 May 2019, 03:45 AM
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"THE VISIT"

The world is growing older I still keep coming back for more every year, as a reminder hopefully, to turn you better How have you been? I hope there’s progress Let’s keep trying to be the best The Mercy’s still there You know He Still Cares Pray this won’t be my last visit You still need me even for just a month in a year I hope you can still feel me near For now, once again, I am here... Yours truly, Ramadan R.

10 May 2019, 05:55 AM
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"5 NOT-SO-SUBTLE HABITS THAT YOU'RE ACTUALLY RACIST"

Racism is difficult and almost impossible to tackle. I’m not being acutely pessimistic about it, just realistic. You’re welcome to believe me or not, as usual. Well, even if you don’t believe that you are, there may be some things that you say or do that show the exact opposite. The bad news is, here are the five (5) not-so-subtle habits that you’re actually racist: 1. You are overly-reliant to common stereotypes and generalisations regarding certain races. Don’t get me wrong; it’s important ...

10 May 2019, 01:37 AM
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"THE LEAST INTERESTING"

How do you know you’re not missed? Try to walk away and disappear Who’s going to reach out to you? Seriously, who? You’re probably offended after being ignored It’s always easy to blame others for putting you to shame Have you ever thought of what you did before, countless times and more? What if it had been you first? What if you had done worse? Perhaps you’ve become the least interesting Has it been your only way to gain attention? Do yourself a favour; stop playing the victim Your bloat...

04 May 2019, 08:00 AM
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"WHY MOVIE SPOILERS DON'T AFFECT ME MUCH"

Call me weird, but this is true. When it comes to movie spoilers, I’m not easily affected. Yep, even the movies I’m eager to watch. This doesn’t mean I don’t try to understand both sides in this matter, though. You may consider my position is like a swing-voter in politics, while both sides besides me are against each other. In short, those who love spreading spoilers have their reasons. I get it, they’re so happy that they have finally watched that movie first. Through their joy, they feel l...

04 May 2019, 04:23 AM
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"YOUR SELF-WORTH?"

Never judge anyome ‘though I couldn’t help when you decided to ridicule me for being surrounded by boys I chose to call friends I know my self-worth not defined by the number of admirers but how I carry me around With or without anyone no difference Look in the mirror. What’s your worth? Do you only feel pretty everytime a guy says you’re lovely just so you don’t feel lonely? Not me. I don’t need to prove you or anybody. When love is meant to be, I’ll leave enough room for it out of my per...

01 May 2019, 03:14 AM
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"THE UNDERDOGS AND THE DARK HORSES"

I don’t admire all winners. Not all of them are true champions. Even if they play fair, some of them are not that humble. They tend to brag to the world everytime they conquer. Honestly, that attitude makes me sick. Some others don’t play fair when achieving victory. Sometimes the evidence is in plain sight, other times it’s hidden. How does anyone know? Either way, eventually it shows. No one can hide their shame forever. God sees everything. The humble winners are rare. Perhaps that’s what ...

30 April 2019, 07:10 AM
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"THE BEAST REVEALED"

Someday, all will be discovered He’ll be caught persecuted, like he’s always deserved Someday, his fake smile won’t work anymore All his fans and audience will get bored Not all people are stupid not when they’re willing to learn to look beyond Someday, all his masks will fall off At the sight of him, they will scoff There have been a number who have seen the real him up...close...and personal Better? Nope Someday, his sweet words will turn bitter his ugliness will take over The real beast...

27 April 2019, 03:25 PM
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