"ADDICTED TO HEARTBREAK?"

I think I'm addicted to heartbreak just another old routine probably to help me become lean and mean far away from where I've been I suppose it's what I can still take since it's always been the same such a familiar game with none or all to blame Have I risked too much at stake? Love's gone twisted Faith's been gradually eroded Soon I'll be too jaded Maybe I'm addicted to heartbreak at least the ending is predictable like welcoming the same old trouble before rising again from the rubble ...

06 March 2017, 03:30 AM
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"I'LL NEVER LOVE ANYONE ELSE LIKE I LOVED YOU"

Surely, you often hear this line in cheesy/sappy romantic movies. Perhaps someone you broke up with said that too as a last resort to keep you from leaving. Maybe it was you telling them that. "I'll never love anyone else like I loved you." What had crossed your mind when you said those words? What did you feel? Did you really mean what you said or was there that famous motive behind it? Most importantly, did you believe that? Would you? Honestly? I would. Well, even when I refuse to say ...

03 March 2017, 05:10 AM
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"I'LL NEVER LOVE ANYONE ELSE LIKE I LOVED YOU"

Surely, you often hear this line in cheesy/sappy romantic movies. Perhaps someone you broke up with said that too as a last resort to keep you from leaving. Maybe it was you telling them that. "I'll never love anyone else like I loved you." What had crossed your mind when you said those words? What did you feel? Did you really mean what you said or was there that famous motive behind it? Most importantly, did you believe that? Would you? Honestly? I would. Well, even when I refuse to say ...

03 March 2017, 05:10 AM
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"THE PRISONERS OF JEALOUSY"

Love is what I feel What we have is real With you, I want this to be as long as eternity If love is what you feel then you should have no fear Soon we will seal the deal and I'll be nowhere but always near This is love This should be enough even when things are tough and trials are rough How do I get to keep that smile on your face? Your constant wrath leaves a painful trace You often stare me down in disgust suffocating me with your distrust Another...who? There's only you Why so blue? L...

27 February 2017, 05:09 PM
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"THE OLDER WE GET..."

You may add anything you find more sensible after this sentence: "The older we get..." What would you add? The more sensitive we become? The closer we are to death? For me, at least, it's 'the longer it takes for anything to heal'. Yes, more or less the same like 'the more sensitive we become' part. It's not just something physical. It's the whole nine yards. Your spirit may still feel young. You have to keep it that way if you want to continue learning. That's how you roll in life. How...

27 February 2017, 12:19 PM
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"NOTHING BUT A CULTURE OF SILENCE IN THE TWILIGHT ZONE"

I’ve been transported back in time something familiar yet also bizarre the same old Twilight Zone with the same old Culture of Silence Oh, what a pain Here we go again The same old policy still reigns opening mouths, typing fingers loud voices, empty messages Nothing, nothing, nothing... Am I still one of them? I have no say, because they don’t give a damn My voice is always cut off with reprimands “Just follow The Culture of Silence” That’s always been their best defense “Sssh...it’s onl...

22 February 2017, 04:14 AM
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THE EX-GUARDIAN OF THE ISOLATED CASTLE AND THE CHARMING WARLOCK"

Should this tale begin with “once upon a time”, although not that long ago? When it comes to romance, The Ex-Guardian of The Isolated Castle is mostly a skeptic instead of being the more hopeful one...deep down inside. If love or whatever it is those sick puppies refer to these days were a god, then she’d be an agnostic. Then The Charming Warlock came into her life, treating her like a princess. The Ex-Guardian had no recollection on how to feel and act like a princess. She didn’t even have a...

21 February 2017, 07:55 AM
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"HEARTLESS: TO BE WITH YOU"

To be with you Do I really want to? It means being cold if possible, inside and out To be with you It means being ready for what's painfully true It means trying to be content even when it's not permanent That's okay I guess it doesn't really matter anyway At least you're honest You don't pretend to be the best of all choices To be with you It means changing what I am acting like I don't give a damn but following you around like there's nothing better to do If that's what it takes in orde...

13 February 2017, 06:58 PM
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"THE STRAIGHT-AND-NARROW VERSUS THE CURVATURES"

Alright, so here's the straight-and-narrow path that everyone in Indonesia is expected to go through (especially if you're a woman): Born and raised ---> going to school ---> getting a job (at least in your early twenties or younger) ---> getting married (hopefully before thirty) ---> having kids, and so on. Oftentimes, external factors (in this case: family, friends, and society in general) also push the whole agenda to fall into place. Yes, that includes practising the religion your paren...

09 February 2017, 09:04 AM
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"INSECURITY SOMETIMES"

Sometimes insecurity feels like a giant shadow lurking in the darkness waiting for a chance to strike or a monster struggling to get free so it can roam anywhere it goes turning a soul restless from the same bad dream every night or even worse A little girl in a woman's eyes dreading the truth in every possible lie Does he really love her, or is he still looking for another? A small man pretending to be big his pompous behaviour making everybody sick luring every girl he could, just to war...

04 February 2017, 02:16 PM
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"GUYS LIKE YOU"

Guys like you make girls like her wonder why you're into her Have you sensed her insecurity? Many have called her 'fat' making her feel ugly Guys like you get her attention but is your interest genuine? Still, she's wary cautious of how you might be Are you for real or is she just crazy? Guys like you try to trick her with compliments to make her feel prettier For a while, she's almost fallen unaware of your true intentions as if she's one in a million Guys like you act like you own her th...

22 January 2017, 04:44 PM
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"ANOTHER DEADLY ROUND FOR ORDER VERSUS CHAOS"

#HIM: I know you're still there Perhaps we can still meet You know I've been almost everywhere always quick on my feet What are you afraid of? What we have is now For me, this is enough I can't promise you tomorrow Don't be too serious Holding back is torture Stay curious even when you don't know for sure Your silence keeps me guessing Are you trying to stay polite? You're a challenge to keep me thinking How do I keep you for a night? #HER: "Let him in again," urges the monster in my he...

15 January 2017, 09:09 AM
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"THE END IS THE BEGINNING OF ANOTHER THING"

We all want to leave bad things behind. I've heard from many who said that 2016 has been full of cuts and bruises - and perhaps a whole lot more to some. Of course, nobody wants to take them here today. Perhaps you began this year with unexpected things. You've just let go of your loved one(s)...and realise that you don't get to share another year with them anymore. Perhaps you've also decided to stop caring, stop expecting so much from those who actually still mean so much to you but no lon...

14 January 2017, 04:35 PM
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"STARVING AUTHORS"

Chasing deadlines fishing for scraps of coins Every thing's still fine even after working until you hurt your joints Letters, words, lines until they become proper paragraphs Let your feelings run Let those words speak your mind Who knows? You might get lucky by earning more money R. (Jakarta, 5/1/2017 - 2:15 pm)

12 January 2017, 08:28 PM
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"DEAR PUMPKIN"

Dear Pumpkin, After what feels more like ages, I can't believe that I ended up writing for you again. I know it's been almost a decade since your funeral. I'd planned to stay in touch with your family, no matter what, but then you know how it usually goes. I've gotten busy. I know that's a very lousy excuse and you'd be sad if I said that to your face while you were still alive. I should make the time. I should've made it sooner. Perhaps some people have been right about me: I can be suc...

04 January 2017, 05:43 PM
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"THE TALK YOU'RE NEVER READY FOR"

Let's get it out in the open For too long we've been hiding Say what you mean but I'm also entitled to the same damn thing You want my honest opinions, but you're never really ready You want me to say what you only want to hear My long, overdue, and pent-up rage is your biggest fear Get it out in the open Is that what you're really saying? It's too late, I think I've been way outside your little comfort zone You don't want my honesty It's too brutal for you to see You just want me to keep ...

01 January 2017, 10:05 PM
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"WRITER@WORK DURING HOLIDAY"

While I've got plenty of time today, I think I'm just going to keep this entry short: If you're celebrating Christmas with your friends and family, have fun. Stay safe. If you don't, let the celebrators do so in peace. Leave them alone, will you? Please. In the meantime, I'm just going to continue working from my room. I know how to have my own fun. It's been almost three years and I'm still good. Call me a workaholic, but this is me. Next year? MY friends' wedding and - hopefully - more i...

25 December 2016, 03:55 AM
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"FRIENDSHIP AND PEACE"

It was one of those many nights out in this city another long walk for you and me your hazel eyes and my brown ones the cross necklace hanging around your neck me, quietly reciting prayers in Arabic What would they have thought at the sight of us that night? How I miss those simple days when we walked side by side An unlikely friendship, they might say Still, I wouldn't have it any other way Lately, I've been in need of something like this Should I beg them please? Peace is all I want even...

21 December 2016, 09:55 AM
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"BEING 35, SINGLE, AND BRAVE TO THE WORLD"

BEING 35: It's inevitable. We all grow old. There's no need to freak out about it. It's useless anyway. All you've got to do is deal with it as it is. Whether you're single, in a relationship, married, or "else" (which is widely defined as you please), you're bound to face this. Back when I was still in my early 30's, some people had been shallow enough to try to scare me. "Ooh, Old Girl. Soon you'll be way too old for anyone to marry." Guess what? Looking back, I realised that what they...

19 December 2016, 08:41 AM
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"THE END OF 2016 WITH #ALEPPO"

How do we end this year with hope and joy? Where they are, human lives are being destroyed Here, we will hear the sound of crackling fireworks but they've been having it worse More dropping bombs then it's done and they're gone How do we face the end of this year with them still living in fear? Their lives are hanging on the line as we continue to dine with meals so fine The roofs are above our heads while the polluted sky leaves theirs with dread How could we when they're one step closer e...

17 December 2016, 11:41 PM
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