"STARVING AUTHORS"

Chasing deadlines fishing for scraps of coins Every thing's still fine even after working until you hurt your joints Letters, words, lines until they become proper paragraphs Let your feelings run Let those words speak your mind Who knows? You might get lucky by earning more money R. (Jakarta, 5/1/2017 - 2:15 pm)

12 January 2017, 08:28 PM
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"DEAR PUMPKIN"

Dear Pumpkin, After what feels more like ages, I can't believe that I ended up writing for you again. I know it's been almost a decade since your funeral. I'd planned to stay in touch with your family, no matter what, but then you know how it usually goes. I've gotten busy. I know that's a very lousy excuse and you'd be sad if I said that to your face while you were still alive. I should make the time. I should've made it sooner. Perhaps some people have been right about me: I can be suc...

04 January 2017, 05:43 PM
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"THE TALK YOU'RE NEVER READY FOR"

Let's get it out in the open For too long we've been hiding Say what you mean but I'm also entitled to the same damn thing You want my honest opinions, but you're never really ready You want me to say what you only want to hear My long, overdue, and pent-up rage is your biggest fear Get it out in the open Is that what you're really saying? It's too late, I think I've been way outside your little comfort zone You don't want my honesty It's too brutal for you to see You just want me to keep ...

01 January 2017, 10:05 PM
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"WRITER@WORK DURING HOLIDAY"

While I've got plenty of time today, I think I'm just going to keep this entry short: If you're celebrating Christmas with your friends and family, have fun. Stay safe. If you don't, let the celebrators do so in peace. Leave them alone, will you? Please. In the meantime, I'm just going to continue working from my room. I know how to have my own fun. It's been almost three years and I'm still good. Call me a workaholic, but this is me. Next year? MY friends' wedding and - hopefully - more i...

25 December 2016, 03:55 AM
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"FRIENDSHIP AND PEACE"

It was one of those many nights out in this city another long walk for you and me your hazel eyes and my brown ones the cross necklace hanging around your neck me, quietly reciting prayers in Arabic What would they have thought at the sight of us that night? How I miss those simple days when we walked side by side An unlikely friendship, they might say Still, I wouldn't have it any other way Lately, I've been in need of something like this Should I beg them please? Peace is all I want even...

21 December 2016, 09:55 AM
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"BEING 35, SINGLE, AND BRAVE TO THE WORLD"

BEING 35: It's inevitable. We all grow old. There's no need to freak out about it. It's useless anyway. All you've got to do is deal with it as it is. Whether you're single, in a relationship, married, or "else" (which is widely defined as you please), you're bound to face this. Back when I was still in my early 30's, some people had been shallow enough to try to scare me. "Ooh, Old Girl. Soon you'll be way too old for anyone to marry." Guess what? Looking back, I realised that what they...

19 December 2016, 08:41 AM
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"THE END OF 2016 WITH #ALEPPO"

How do we end this year with hope and joy? Where they are, human lives are being destroyed Here, we will hear the sound of crackling fireworks but they've been having it worse More dropping bombs then it's done and they're gone How do we face the end of this year with them still living in fear? Their lives are hanging on the line as we continue to dine with meals so fine The roofs are above our heads while the polluted sky leaves theirs with dread How could we when they're one step closer e...

17 December 2016, 11:41 PM
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"ABOUT POETRY AND ME"

How much do I love poetry? It didn't start as a love at a first sight...or line. In fact, I had quite a misconception about it. I'd thought it was all lame and always oh-so-serious. I'd thought only love-struck beings and cheesy romance lovers wrote them. Well, I was half right, but then there are other poems too. I have to admit that heartbreak was my first reason to start writing poetry more frequently again. However, most of them were dark and rather sinister. I'd tried not to sound to...

17 December 2016, 11:44 AM
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"THE GASLIGHTING TYPE"

You say it's because of me who see me as someone so ugly that no sane guys would ever see all the good that I could be You think you know all about me just another whiner with a victim mentality an annoying bitch who doesn't deserve you Giving women compliments is all you do Why can't I see this through? Go ahead Say whatever the hell you like You're just another gaslighting type I know you won't stop badgering me with taunts, threats, and curses until I finally give up and tell you that yo...

16 December 2016, 11:12 AM
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“IF YOU WERE US FOR A DAY...” (From Women Who Receive Daily Catcalls)

You may think this is a selfish request. Although it is impossible in real life (unless through a ‘certain procedure’), would you like to know how we feel every day? Just once, a day in your life if it is too much to ask. Let’s start in the morning, when you – as one of ‘us’ – decide what to wear for the day. Is this too sexy? Is that too plain? Will you look beautiful? Will it be modest enough? Let’s say, you decide to follow the demands of this patriarchal society on you – in terms of attir...

09 December 2016, 10:03 AM
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"FROM THE RESTLESS"

I'd like to close my eyes even when I'm not asleep There are so many lies A lot have cut in too deep I'd like to cover my ears blocking the noise from ruining my brain There are things I'd rather not hear Sometimes those voices are a pain I'd like to keep my mouth shut It's not that I'm afraid to speak my mind up So many talk a lot, but do they really do much? Oh, I'd rather not give in to this on-going bitch-fest Don't we all have better things to do instead of making such hatred last? R...

05 December 2016, 05:12 PM
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"WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?"

I'm not singing like Adam Lambert** 'though you probably haven't heard I can't get you out of my head if you plan to keep on coming back What do you want from me? I've already set you free Are you trying to drive me crazy? 'Cause you've succeeded, almost flawlessly No, your chances have already passed It is for the best Don't you dare show up again at my door 'cause you ain't getting some more What do you want from me? I'm done with you; can't you see? I've always known I'm not the one and...

29 November 2016, 06:11 PM
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"A FULL PLATE"

Hello, sleepless nights Allow me to walk in as my return Many will say it's not alright, but sometimes it's the only way to learn What's up, restless days? You demand my every morning full of glory Come what may, interesting stories They say I should never back down even when time limits what I can make so I'll keep working without making a sound and sometimes take a little break Do I still have more room for more people? Sure, as long as they don't bring too much trouble R. (Jakarta, 29...

27 November 2016, 12:19 PM
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"THE MASH-UP MEMORIES"

Time flies before your eyes. There's always a lot that you leave behind. As you grow older, you realise that life has always been so short. Small numbers of one's age has given you the illusion that you still have a long way to go, many things to do and goals to accomplish. In the end, all you have is mash-up memories, between good and bad in one. The death of a dear friend last year may still be fresh in your heart and mind. You still remember it like it was yesterday. On a day like that...

27 November 2016, 10:26 AM
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"DON'T (SAY IT AIN'T SO)"

Don't tell me. Please, at least just this one. Don't tell me it's for the good cause. Don't tell me it's for any religion for that matter. Don't tell me you do what you do in the name of God. Don't tell me that. I refuse to be associated with murderers. I believe in God. I just don't believe in you. People like you just make it worse. Thank you very much. Once again, you've ruined more chances for a peaceful, harmonious life here. This ain't no holy war. No, not when you kill those who ha...

18 November 2016, 01:09 AM
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"THE PROMISE"

Hey, you! Yeah, you're the one standing on that podium talking loud and acting tough as if the riot in the world isn't already more than enough We're not afraid of you You and the nasty things you do Your words are poison full of hatred over what you think as different You may think you're on top of the world but wait until the table is turned You'll crash and burn... R. (Jakarta, 14/11/2016 - 8:05 am)

17 November 2016, 03:13 AM
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"CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE: THE ART OF NOT TAKING ANY SIDES"

Perhaps you're a pacifist. Perhaps you simply mind your own business. You're probably this type of person during an argument, especially the most heated kind. Then how do people see you? A coward? A selfish brat? Someone who simply can't make up their mind and just need more time? An observer who sees a much bigger picture out of the matter itself? Anyway, it doesn't matter what they say. They can think about you all they like. They don't have to understand everything, because they just wo...

16 November 2016, 11:14 AM
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"MY SILENCE"

Silence is not always the trait of a coward You shut up You don't know what you're talking about Silence doesn't mean that I'm scared Even if I am, I'm more afraid of being unfair Hatred is toxic - here, there, and everywhere Silence means I've had it Everybody's been throwing a fit They just won't quit calling names as if it would fix every bit That's it, I'm done Please, just leave me alone We've all got to move on I can't think, not with all your nonstop bickering So stuffing words int...

09 November 2016, 11:14 AM
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"SHORT FUSES"

I know how I look like when I'm angry. I know how I am and there's no doubt about it. I'm not going to lie and I believe I'm not the only one. I'm not the easiest person to talk to when I'm at that stage. It doesn't matter who's right or wrong. If you think you're right and demand that I agree, then you're just pushing me further away. (Yes, I know. I am stubborn, but make sure you're not the same before you say that to my face. Otherwise, hush.) If I think you're wrong and you still push m...

08 November 2016, 03:22 PM
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"A PHILOPHOBE'S CHOICE"

I'm way too old and bitter Those stupid fairy tales make me want to say: "Whatever." My old man used to say: "Never waste a day away, 'cause damsels-in-distress are as good as dead." So being overly helpless and dependent is what I dread. I choose to take care of me. Prince charming? Knight in a shining armour? Please! You're like talking about ancient creatures of some dead-centuries-old mythology. How do I know that there is still at least one, left behind, or at least somewhere in this dy...

03 November 2016, 02:55 AM
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