AFTER THE RAIN...

Some people say there is always a rainbow after the rain. We can just look up and spot it in the sky, especially if there is enough light from the sun or if it is not too polluted. What if the clouds are still much too dark, too thick? What if the rain has not really stopped yet? What if it keeps coming back because it is just the weather we have to deal with now? People deal with things in life differently. For those who call it 'a bad luck', they believe that their fate has been seale...

20 January 2013, 09:33 AM
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"THE DEMONS IN THE GOVERNMENT"

The demons in the government; wanting to recruit one of their own. Some 'fit-and-proper' tests required, to see if he were perfect for hire. They were laughing out loud, belittling death sentence for the rapists in this country, questioning: "Should we?" The demons in the government; they believe the victims deserve the rape. What's wrong with them? Have they all turned into senseless apes? Their laughter still rings in my ears; a sign of dead empathy. They've simply promote...

19 January 2013, 03:38 AM
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JAKARTA: A FUTURE 'ATLANTIS' IN THE MAKING?

I was supposed to go to work last Thursday. Although this Friday seemed fine, I had no teaching schedule. I'm also not working tomorrow, because the school is closed to avoid the possibility of people having to deal with the second wave of massive flood. There isn't much that I can do now. The nature has once again warned us; another serious wake-up call way too many times. Haven't we all learned, or have we chosen to succumb to apathy or ignorance - or even both? I'm not going to talk ...

18 January 2013, 03:17 PM
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"TOO BAD, SO SAD"

"She's a little bit childish," you used to tell everyone as you introduced me. Back then, I only had one wish: I'd wanted to ruin your fun, because you were such a bully! I understand you were on top of your game; a pretty,popular girl surrounded by countless of fans. Everyone knew your name. You'd lived in such a perfect world. I knew how you'd always looked at me; a little girl who knew nothing, a freak who couldn't fit in. To you, I was always silly. You never really gav...

14 January 2013, 05:23 AM
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NOT MUCH...

Not much to say about me.I know that sounds like half a lie,because I actually have quite a lot to tell.I just can't think much of anything at the moment.Seriously. For those who have just popped by,welcome to my reality soap of life.I'm just an ordinary thirty-something from Big Durian,with a family,a job,and friends.I'm a teacher,a freelance translator,a freelance writer,and also Ms.Independent.I'm into singing and acting as well,but unfortunately I've never really got a chance to make n...

14 January 2013, 04:44 AM
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"UNDER THE GLOOMY SKY"

I am standing under the gloomy sky. Some say it can make you cry. I wonder why. For me, for a while, all I have to do is close my eyes. I just picture you, standing tall beside me. You always look good in blue, and we've been so happy. Under the gloomy sky, you'd smile at the raindrops; enjoying the soft, cool breeze as we paced. I could see the glow in your face. I open my eyes. Look, I still have my smile. Worry not, my dear friend. Someday soon, may we have those beautiful days again. A...

12 January 2013, 06:33 AM
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THE REALISTIC SOAP

As strange as it sounds, I see life as the realistic soap. Why? How come? Good questions. First of all, I grew up reading a lot of stories and listening to a lot of music. I also grew up watching a lot of movies and TV series, so I guess that's why I've got such vivid imaginations. There's nothing wrong with that. I enjoy it. So why 'the realistic soap'? Eventhough this is my journal and I'm (mostly) telling the stories from my point of view, I hardly feel like the main character ...

11 January 2013, 09:32 PM
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"ON BEHALF OF ALL-INDONESIAN FEMALE BIKERS"

"I am the man," you proudly claim. "I am doing this because I can." It is not the first that I hear such a silly statement to me. Your words inspire hatred instead of fear. "I am the man," you senselessly reason. "I have my weaknesses, don't you understand?" I see. Your eyes often go against your will. Although a woman is fully covered, you still can't help staring at her body. "I am the man," you raise your voice with obvious contempt. "I am also the leader, so yo...

09 January 2013, 06:06 PM
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A SHORT ADVENTURE IN BOGOR

I haven't been to Bogor in a very long time. That's why I was glad when I got the chance to do that with Gigi last Sunday. We were meeting our friends Lisa there. It was a wonderful day, despite the fact that I had a sprained waist. Why? How come? Good questions. Perhaps I'd woken up on the wrong side of the bed. (I didn't believe in such terms before this.) Anyway, Gigi and I took AgraMas bus from Lebak Bulus to Baranangsiang Terminal. It was an easy, comfortable bus ride. We had...

09 January 2013, 05:08 PM
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"FROM THAT GIRL WITH THE CHILDLIKE SMILE"

I was the shadow from the past, lurking silently in the dark, watching you from behind your back. I am the friend from the present, side-by-side with you, sometimes hand-in-hand. My loyalty cannot be masked. Don't ask me to pretend otherwise. I am the little sister, only wanting to make you feel better. I know at times I can be annoying as hell. Now you've known me too well. I am also the one with the hero-complex, a so-called, stupid Cupid without an arrow and a bow. I kn...

03 January 2013, 02:31 PM
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REASONS TO BE

"I'm learning to walk again...I believe I've waited long enough...Where do I begin?" ("The Walk" by.Foo Fighters) Believe it or not, I sometimes can go totally random. One early morning after I listened to that song I've mentioned above, I decided to do something out of the ordinary. I put on my trainers and started my very first light workout in years. It was barely six in the morning anyway, and I was still on holiday. I returned home when I was sweaty enough. It didn't take long...

03 January 2013, 11:55 AM
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CHANGES:THE PAST,THE PRESENT,AND THE FUTURE

We all go through changes everyday.At times those changes feel so small they're almost insignificant.We hardly feel them that we almost - or even mostly - take them for granted.Still,those changes exist. Other times,changes are so big that they affect our lives...sometimes dramatically.They alter our decisions and our attitude toward everything.They're unavoidable.Some even call them 'major transformations'.Good or bad?You decide. Are we still stuck in the past that we somehow refuse ...

01 January 2013, 06:37 PM
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"BEHIND YOUR SILENCE"

I never knew what was behind your silence. Was it about the painful truth? You hardly said a word. When you spoke, you also did the opposite. Was it still about something I did? I still can't tell what's behind your silence. It just feels cold in this frozen, wishing well. They say I should not dwell. I guess I've never really known; thanks to these solid walls that have formed a fortress, and I'm just a stranger who must never trespass. I suppose I'll never know anything be...

30 December 2012, 07:36 PM
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"THE TROUBLE WITH THE MAD BIKERS"

Perhaps I need to be a bit more careful here, since some of my friends, family members, and neighbours ride motorcycles. I don't want to end up generalizing people. However, with the reality around me, it's hard not to - especially if you happen to be on the more at disadvantage here. I believe I'm not the first and the only with this issue. Others have written similar stuff out of their similar experiences to mine. It's difficult when you have a hate/love relationship with the bikers...

30 December 2012, 06:12 PM
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"THE SILENCED SCREAM"

Something's wrong with us. It's been nagging for too long, much heavier than a pile of dust. The feeling's way too strong. Something's wrong with this relationship. Can't you feel it? This has gone way too deep. Don't tell me I'm just throwing a fit! When was the last we ever really talked? Do you think I'm making this up? Why is it so hard for you to listen to me, while they can understand me easily? Something's definitely wrong with us, and I'm just tired of making you...

26 December 2012, 04:40 PM
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"LAUGHING AT 'THE HOBBIT' "

No, it's not that I'm making fun of that movie. In fact, that was a good sign. That means I actually enjoyed it. I'm glad I had a chance to watch "The Hobbit", despite the ending that still leaves me hanging...with curiousity. From the looks of it, there's definitely a sequel coming. Hopefully soon, because I can't hardly wait! How was it? Simply enjoyable. It's a suitable holiday movie. Full of real talents like Sir Ian McKellen, Martin Freeman, Richard Armitage, Ian Holms, Lee Pace, Aid...

26 December 2012, 03:47 PM
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"FOR THE QUEEN BEE (AFTER HER PARTY)"

Isn't life peachy, if you never take it seriously? You waltz in like a (so-called) diva, expecting all to gaze at you in awe. Wouldn't it be amazing if you could remain a queen? You could keep the throne, even if you had to stand alone. Who are your friends? How long can they all pretend? Before you know it, you'll end up lonely once you're hit by reality. Life isn't always a party. Nothing is really free. You've gone so far just to be a star. You have to stay in the spotlight, even if it ...

24 December 2012, 04:10 PM
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"THE YEAR-END HOLIDAY"

Well, after we've passed that nonsense about December 21, 2012 - here we are again. Most Indonesians have also celebrated December 22 as Mothers' Day (although I also prefer to celebrate it as Women's Day - according to the original history.) After that, we still have Christmas - which is tomorrow - December 25. Who's up for presents? I'm not celebrating it, but I hope you guys are having fun. And of course, New Year's Eve on December 31. So, what are you doing this long holiday? I hope all...

24 December 2012, 02:52 PM
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"FROM THAT GIRL AT THE CORNER"

Little Miss Ordinary, who on earth is she? Her girlish giggle in the background has made you wonder on the phone. Little Miss Smiley, how happy can she actually be? Why is she so friendly? Her short, plump arms reach out as you take a step back. Little Miss 'No Idea', does she even have a real personality? To you, she's just a right hand a faithful puppy to her best friend whom you'll never want to see again. Little Miss Nosy, why can't she sense your insecurity? Hey, don't worry. She actu...

17 December 2012, 09:58 AM
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'ROGUE' OF THE DAY

When I was a teenager, some school friends wanted to dye or bleach their hair. Red, brown, blond, blue...you name it. They said it was a trend. (Some couldn't understand why I just didn't care about trends and didn't even want to follow any - at least just to look 'cool'.) They also said it was boring to have jet-black hair all the time. (You know, being Southeast Asians.) They just wanted to know how it felt, at least once in a while. The results varied. Some didn't like it and regretted t...

16 December 2012, 04:36 PM
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