SOME THINGS YOU MAY NEVER REALLY KNOW ABOUT ME...

Hey, you! Yeah, I’m talking about you. Do you know who you are to me? I can say quite a lot about you – even if we’d only got to work together for just four months. Believe it or not, sometimes it doesn’t take long for one to notice how good you really are. Don’t be too surprised, since I’m not the only one feeling this about you. It doesn’t need one to hang out all the time with you to discover what a good friend you are. You’re simply being the genuine you. ...

16 December 2013, 11:05 AM
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"LEAVE YOUR BROKEN HEART HOME"

Wake up to the same reality. Be as strong as you can be. You’re still alive and breathing, you see? You’re also free! Some feelings should be left behind. Some things should be out of your mind. I know it’s easier said than done, but do it soon before your sanity’s gone! Face the world as it is. Solitude can give you the coldest kiss. For now, you shouldn’t ask for more than this. Maybe next time you’ll catch up with the bliss. Leave your broken heart home. Nobody needs to see it. Perhaps ...

16 December 2013, 10:25 AM
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THE FAREWELL SPEECH

I can't believe that I've finally decided to take your challenge seriously. Like I've already said: I'm not good with goodbyes. For me, sometimes it doesn't take a while to know whether someone is a really good friend. One doesn't always have to hang out with that particular person to know such things. When Tony B. first told you that I was also a freelance writer, you'd gazed at me as if I were J.K. Rowling or Stephen King. I wish I were, but I'm still not even close yet. Please pray that ...

10 December 2013, 06:27 AM
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COUNTING DOWN...

No, I'm not talking about counting down to New Year's Eve. It's still a long way and I don't really celebrate it anyway. It's counting down...to the day he's leaving. I'm still coping with the whole thing. I'd seen him briefly on Thursday and Friday. We traded jokes and laughed together. He winked his beautiful blue-green eyes at me and I could only smile back at him, feeling sad and helpless on the inside. Don't cry, I silently ordered myself. Please, don't cry. Everything's going to be a...

09 December 2013, 08:15 AM
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"FROM THE TEXT"

http://referenceforwriters.tumblr.com/post/68828015140/30-day-poetry-challenge Day 2- Who was the last person you texted? Write a five line poem to that person. (For T.) Pardon my goldfish-like memory when it comes to this four-hour gap. Just a bit of your time to talk to me before you go to sleep. Sorry - and goodnight! Love, R. (Jakarta, 8/12/2013 - 9:20 am)

08 December 2013, 04:19 PM
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"R.U.B.Y."

http://referenceforwriters.tumblr.com/post/68828015140/30-day-poetry-challenge Day 1- Write a poem where each line starts with a letter from your first name (an acrostic). It can be about anything, but it should not be about you or your name. Roads traveled in search for what's pure, under the same old social pressure. Being you often means fighting to the last stand. You're sick to death of their constant demands. R. (Jakarta, 7/12/2013 - 6:00 pm)

07 December 2013, 12:17 PM
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"JUST ANOTHER BALLAD..."

This is a ballad of a storyteller, watching a real-life, moving pictures in front of her. Can she be a part of it? Can she get a role, even just a tiny bit? There are tales she can tell. This one she can do well. Even when she can't find the (right?) words to say. this is still the game she has to play. This is the story about love, so unrequited it scares her enough. 'Though many have told her to shout it out loud, she still knows what she'll end up without. This is the ballad of a storyt...

02 December 2013, 08:43 AM
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(LESS THAN) 14 DAYS...

Someone suggested that I let him know how I truly feel for him. (Doesn't that sound familiar or what?) At least I could get this off my chest and just work my way to move on after that. That sounds like an idea, but here's the situation: He's engaged. They're getting married soon. He loves her. She's a nice girl. He's leaving soon. Most importantly, he thinks I'm an amazingly sweet friend. We don't sit next to each other or talk everyday, but when we do talk - it's always something meaning...

02 December 2013, 07:39 AM
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"THE HESITATION"

When a heart gets broken by the oblivion and impossibility, one must survive with their head and what's left of their faith. Sometimes that's the only way to be. What if you're dying to tell them how you feel, while at the same time wishing it weren't real? Would you be ready for the consequences? Would keeping quiet be one of your biggest regrets? Your head and heart are at one of their familiar wars, while a tiny voice somewhere in there is loaded with words you're aching to share: "Do y...

30 November 2013, 06:00 AM
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CRY ME A RIVER...

I am thankful for today. In fact, I can still be thankful for a lot of things that you should be proud of me, hehe. I am thankful for life. I am thankful that God still lets me live, despite the bad things that I've done in the past and those I somehow keep on doing. (Yikes!) Once again, I don't know why I deserve this - but I'm glad that He still wants to give me another chance to live and repent. I saw him briefly. We still grinned at each other, traded jokes and laughter. We also gave ea...

30 November 2013, 05:35 AM
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"FOR THE GIRL IN THE MIRROR"

To the girl in the mirror: How could you let yourself suffer from the same, old 'crash and burn'? I thought you'd already learned. What has gotten to you? Why are you making me sing the blues? I've already told you I didn't want this. You know damn well this ain't no bliss! Are you sure this is love? Well, haven't you done enough? All we need these days is some decent, personal space. How dare you put us in such disgrace! Hey, why are you now so quiet? Has your mind been filled with riot? ...

28 November 2013, 09:34 AM
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BROKEN...

Sorry I start this entry with such a sappy title. I'll try to sound a bit more cheerful next time, but...let's just face reality, shall we? The world is full of lies - and they're just growing more and more unbearable by the day. People say one thing and do another. That's how we are at times, isn't that? I'm not going to be holier-than-thou here; I sometimes lie too. Well, what can I say? I'm only human. I'm not perfect, although - unfortunately - there are always people out there demanding...

28 November 2013, 08:59 AM
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"HER SILENT THOUGHTS"

It was the highlight. You were smiling at the love of your life that night, while she was trying to look alright. For your sake, she's willing to pretend as if her heart will never break. She no longer cares if anyone thinks she's a fake. Will this always be this way? Will there ever be better days? No wonder she's gone skeptical, romantically-challenged and dull. If love is (always?) that beautiful, then how come this doesn't feel cool? Fate, this is beyond cruel. R. (Jakarta, 20/11/2013 ...

27 November 2013, 09:36 AM
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REALISTICALLY-SPEAKING: I AM ROMANTICALLY-CHALLENGED

"REALISTICALLY-SPEAKING: I AM ROMANTICALLY-CHALLENGED" I am romantically-challenged. That's nothing new and also for sure. I've been that way for too damn long, since I can't even remember when. One of my old college friends came up with another more sophisticated term about people with my (mental? psychological?) condition - and posted it on her Facebook wall. It's called 'philophobe' - someone with the phobia for romance - or the fear of falling in love. She told me that she and I were on...

27 November 2013, 06:52 AM
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"STANDING STILL..."

I stand still. I keep quiet, letting the silence fill. Perhaps it can calm this riot, before insanity might kill. I remain very still. You know where I am. You can’t make me go against my will, or there’ll be a mental jam - and I’ll be way too tired to even give a damn. Yes, I’m still the same. Your efforts have been kind of lame. ‘Ignorance’ may be my new middle name. Don’t you think we’re already too old for this game? I’m not just tired. I’m even more than exhausted. Well, I’m fed up. W...

26 November 2013, 08:26 AM
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"SLEEP TONIGHT"

Sleep tonight oh, restless mind. Rest awhile, dear anxious heart. May you wake up feeling fine and nothing will be much too hard. Let darkness swallow your conscience. Give your wretched body a chance to restore its lost energy. Soon you’ll be feeling better again, you see? Worry not about their constant, endless demands. Remember, you’re only human. Do the best you can, even when they think you won’t have the last stand... R. (Jakarta, 15/11/2013 – 00:00 am)

23 November 2013, 05:08 AM
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EVERYTHING CHANGES...

I hate having to do this to you. You know I really, really do. I have no choice, though. Everything changes. Not all stays the same. I wish it could, but we all know the truth. It’s been over a year. I remember those good old days, when I started to get to know him – and later had grown closer with him. I was aware that I’d been a new kid in your circle of friends back then. He was the one who had invited me in. It’s hard to explain. A lot had happened last year, and along the way after th...

23 November 2013, 04:39 AM
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"WE ARE NOT A TEAM"

We are not a team. Who are we kidding? It’s always been like that, it seems. Why are we still pretending? We are not a team. Mr.Reliable is often out of steam. The broken artist is reviving her dying dreams. Their suffocating demands make her want to scream! We are not a team. Who are we kidding? Some people are just playing, caring about nothing. We are not a team. It’s always been like that, it seems. The light in some spirits are growing dim, while a chance to escape feels remarkably sl...

18 November 2013, 06:05 AM
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WHAT'S NEXT?

Sometimes I hate that question. Sometimes I even hate asking myself that: What’s next? It’s like I’m dreading the future or something. But still, sometimes I just can’t help it. It goes as naturally as the air that I breathe. So, what’s next?? After T left, things have gone back to...normal. Rather flat and dull, but still tolerable. It’s okay, I guess. How are things at home lately? It’s still the same, I’m afraid. The Great King is still somewhere in ‘the realm of the unknown’. The Mi...

18 November 2013, 02:24 AM
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"SOMEDAY SOON"

Someday soon, she'll feel free. She'll be whatever she wants to be. This is just the world where she doesn't fit in. Pretending is a pain. What can she possibly gain? Try, they constantly urge. Try to like where you are. Some believe you'll never get that far. This world likes you better, when you're one of them. But they don't know her. She's not always their version of a 'sweet, precious gem'. Perhaps she's never really been. She's been hiding her true sparks within, until she gets all ...

13 November 2013, 11:17 AM
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