REASONS TO BE

"I'm learning to walk again...I believe I've waited long enough...Where do I begin?" ("The Walk" by.Foo Fighters) Believe it or not, I sometimes can go totally random. One early morning after I listened to that song I've mentioned above, I decided to do something out of the ordinary. I put on my trainers and started my very first light workout in years. It was barely six in the morning anyway, and I was still on holiday. I returned home when I was sweaty enough. It didn't take long...

03 January 2013, 11:55 AM
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CHANGES:THE PAST,THE PRESENT,AND THE FUTURE

We all go through changes everyday.At times those changes feel so small they're almost insignificant.We hardly feel them that we almost - or even mostly - take them for granted.Still,those changes exist. Other times,changes are so big that they affect our lives...sometimes dramatically.They alter our decisions and our attitude toward everything.They're unavoidable.Some even call them 'major transformations'.Good or bad?You decide. Are we still stuck in the past that we somehow refuse ...

01 January 2013, 06:37 PM
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"BEHIND YOUR SILENCE"

I never knew what was behind your silence. Was it about the painful truth? You hardly said a word. When you spoke, you also did the opposite. Was it still about something I did? I still can't tell what's behind your silence. It just feels cold in this frozen, wishing well. They say I should not dwell. I guess I've never really known; thanks to these solid walls that have formed a fortress, and I'm just a stranger who must never trespass. I suppose I'll never know anything be...

30 December 2012, 07:36 PM
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"THE TROUBLE WITH THE MAD BIKERS"

Perhaps I need to be a bit more careful here, since some of my friends, family members, and neighbours ride motorcycles. I don't want to end up generalizing people. However, with the reality around me, it's hard not to - especially if you happen to be on the more at disadvantage here. I believe I'm not the first and the only with this issue. Others have written similar stuff out of their similar experiences to mine. It's difficult when you have a hate/love relationship with the bikers...

30 December 2012, 06:12 PM
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"THE SILENCED SCREAM"

Something's wrong with us. It's been nagging for too long, much heavier than a pile of dust. The feeling's way too strong. Something's wrong with this relationship. Can't you feel it? This has gone way too deep. Don't tell me I'm just throwing a fit! When was the last we ever really talked? Do you think I'm making this up? Why is it so hard for you to listen to me, while they can understand me easily? Something's definitely wrong with us, and I'm just tired of making you...

26 December 2012, 04:40 PM
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"LAUGHING AT 'THE HOBBIT' "

No, it's not that I'm making fun of that movie. In fact, that was a good sign. That means I actually enjoyed it. I'm glad I had a chance to watch "The Hobbit", despite the ending that still leaves me hanging...with curiousity. From the looks of it, there's definitely a sequel coming. Hopefully soon, because I can't hardly wait! How was it? Simply enjoyable. It's a suitable holiday movie. Full of real talents like Sir Ian McKellen, Martin Freeman, Richard Armitage, Ian Holms, Lee Pace, Aid...

26 December 2012, 03:47 PM
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"FOR THE QUEEN BEE (AFTER HER PARTY)"

Isn't life peachy, if you never take it seriously? You waltz in like a (so-called) diva, expecting all to gaze at you in awe. Wouldn't it be amazing if you could remain a queen? You could keep the throne, even if you had to stand alone. Who are your friends? How long can they all pretend? Before you know it, you'll end up lonely once you're hit by reality. Life isn't always a party. Nothing is really free. You've gone so far just to be a star. You have to stay in the spotlight, even if it ...

24 December 2012, 04:10 PM
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"THE YEAR-END HOLIDAY"

Well, after we've passed that nonsense about December 21, 2012 - here we are again. Most Indonesians have also celebrated December 22 as Mothers' Day (although I also prefer to celebrate it as Women's Day - according to the original history.) After that, we still have Christmas - which is tomorrow - December 25. Who's up for presents? I'm not celebrating it, but I hope you guys are having fun. And of course, New Year's Eve on December 31. So, what are you doing this long holiday? I hope all...

24 December 2012, 02:52 PM
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"FROM THAT GIRL AT THE CORNER"

Little Miss Ordinary, who on earth is she? Her girlish giggle in the background has made you wonder on the phone. Little Miss Smiley, how happy can she actually be? Why is she so friendly? Her short, plump arms reach out as you take a step back. Little Miss 'No Idea', does she even have a real personality? To you, she's just a right hand a faithful puppy to her best friend whom you'll never want to see again. Little Miss Nosy, why can't she sense your insecurity? Hey, don't worry. She actu...

17 December 2012, 09:58 AM
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'ROGUE' OF THE DAY

When I was a teenager, some school friends wanted to dye or bleach their hair. Red, brown, blond, blue...you name it. They said it was a trend. (Some couldn't understand why I just didn't care about trends and didn't even want to follow any - at least just to look 'cool'.) They also said it was boring to have jet-black hair all the time. (You know, being Southeast Asians.) They just wanted to know how it felt, at least once in a while. The results varied. Some didn't like it and regretted t...

16 December 2012, 04:36 PM
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"DONE PRETENDING"

All cats have jumped out of the bags. The lies have escaped through these cracks. What else is there? Nothing more is left to share. Well, what do you think? Now I'm done pretending. You've played all your cards. I'm afraid this time, your old tricks won't get you very far. Now it's way too hard. You mess with me, and you're asking for an open war. Do I look like I'm joking? No, I'm just done pretending. You think you can always bully me. Now you're trying that on my family. Your nice mas...

10 December 2012, 09:22 AM
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"IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT YOU!"

"HEARD BUT NOT LISTENED - SEEN BUT NOT ACKNOWLEDGED?" Have you ever experienced a situation as described above? (I know it's also a pretty long title, eh?) Before I carry on, let me tell you how I've come up with that. This may sound rather mean-spirited, but I've come across someone's profile in a social media site and read the person's bio. After having scrolled down several postings, my decision was made up. Not. Adding. That. Person. Nothing personal, at least not so much now. I just d...

08 December 2012, 06:07 AM
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"YOUR BURNING EARS"

You remind me of that old song; sung by Carly Simon; straining your ears as close as can be, listening very carefully. What do you hear? Is it what you truly fear? What makes you think I've been talking about you? Do I even have any reasons to? I don't really mention your name, so you can quit your spying game. Your prying eyes glare suspiciously at everything you can find out about me. Has it all confirmed your accusations? All I sense is your own desperation. What do you see? Has it all...

06 December 2012, 10:34 AM
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"ONE NIGHT OF JAKARTA'S CRAZY TRAFFIC"

I admit that I am crazy sometimes. Besides headbanging for thirty seconds straight in public for a free laptop,I've also done other stuff. I'm not sure if it was crazy enough, so I'll just let you all decide. Jakarta is almost always full of heavy traffic. Overpopulated, overly swarmed with malls as the main entertainment for the citizens? No surprise. It's getting worse day by day. It's always the worst during rainy season, or when some groups of people decide it's a fine day for a demonstr...

05 December 2012, 09:42 AM
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"JUST ANOTHER"

I tried to reach out to you again, after what had seemed like ages. I know I've caused you so much pain, but I was ready to make amends. I understand it's not easy, and I could tell that you weren't ready. Will you ever be? Maybe never, since you'd chosen to ignore me. Am I still being punished? Now all my hopes on you have vanished. So I decided to walk away and set you free. It's the only I had to do to accept reality. Long after that, you turned around and started looking for me. Well, ...

03 December 2012, 12:06 PM
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"THE TROUBLE WITH THE ALL-TIME 'VICIOUS' HAIR"

I used to hate watching shampoo commercials on TV...so much. They're not being fair! I remember only once I saw a shampoo commercial where the model had long, curly hair. That happened back in my childhood. It took me quite a while to have finally accepted my hair the way it is. It wasn't easy at first, because I grew up a minority in the family. None of my parents and my two siblings have curly hair. Some kids in school - especially boys - used to tease me a lot about my hair. (And n...

30 November 2012, 07:41 PM
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"NO,I'M NOT BRIDGET JONES!"

At last, I turned 31 last November 4. Yay! Happy birthday to me. How does it feel for me to be this...uh,'old'? Hmm, nothing special. In fact, it's not as bad as I dreaded earlier. I mean, up to now, I'm still single. So what? Does that mean I should start feeling all lonely and miserable? Should I start freaking out with the fact that my love-life is just nonexistent at the moment? No husband, not even a boyfriend - while most women my age in Jakarta are either strolling with their little o...

11 November 2012, 05:35 PM
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"THE THIRD ARTHUR'S DAY (3/11/2012)"

I was fortunate enough to have attended the third "Arthur's Day" concert on November 3, 2012 in Gandaria City, South Jakarta. Before that, they had Lifehouse in 2010 and The Script in 2011. This time, they had Creed from United States. Before their performance, there were other bands too, like Saint Clarity and a local indie rock band called 'Efek Rumah Kaca' (The Green House Effect). Local indie fans among the audience that night were having fun as they sang along to their hit singles l...

09 November 2012, 09:25 AM
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THE REALITY SOAP FOR THE ROMANTICALLY-CHALLENGED

I am the romantically-challenged skeptic. For way too damn long, the subject of romance and all that jazz has been my worst enemy. Love has made so much fun of me. Just my luck, eh?:p Call me a quitter or a coward, but I won't start giving a damn about it until it starts giving a damn about me. Enough is enough. Still, that doesn't stop me from having fun with my life.:) I mean, why not? After all, we only live once - so we'd better make the most of it... yours truly, R.

05 November 2012, 10:17 AM
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