THE DIVIDED LOYALTIES?

I often see my life in fragments. Pieces of different puzzles that don't always fit. Ma often says that's just how life is. Otherwise, people wouldn't be well-driven to search for purposes. (Well, sort of.) What about me? What's my purpose? What have I become of them? What will I be later on? Indeed, good questions. Can one ever really live with divided loyalties? Should loyalty even be divided? How does anyone deal with that? Or, have we all actually done that already - practical...

28 May 2013, 02:42 PM
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"FAMILIAR STRANGERS"

We are familiar strangers living together; aware only of the physical existence of one another. Has our blood gone thicker; or does it no longer matter? We are familiar strangers standing on a neutral ground; fearing for the sad truth to be found; keeping secrets for another round, like silent screams or even a muffled sound. We are familiar to each other; yet we've become complete strangers. How did we all end up like this? How come we deny what we actually miss? The distant past has kept...

27 May 2013, 04:06 PM
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"THE DREAM"

It's a perfect sunny day; bright but not piercing. I can't find the words to say; I only feel myself smiling. You're also there, as we walk along the beach. We're quite an odd pair, but I don't really care. "You did the right thing." That's what you keep telling me. But wait. Why does everything start to disappear? What's happening? I still want to be here! In the darkness, I open my eyes. It doesn't take long for me to realize: I'm back to where I am; the all-too fa...

22 May 2013, 02:37 PM
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THE WEEKEND BLUES

It's just one of those moments. You know you can never really get away from it, yet you still wish you could somehow avoid it. You don't mind being alone. You've done this for years. Sometimes you like it; sometimes you don't. It's just the way it is. That's life. Sometimes, it's either in between or a black hole. Empty, hollow. A sense of nothingness... Normally, you're fine. A weekend without a boyfriend has never been a tragedy for you. If your friends are too busy, you can alw...

20 May 2013, 02:51 PM
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"ANOTHER PRIMADONNA COMPLEX"

Your mirror is your only closest friend. Too bad,you still can't see through it. Your conscience is clouded over by your pretenses. Your hardly realize,even a bit. How do I break this news? Is that even of any use? You're not the most charming man in the world. I'm not one of those gullible girls. In silence,I watch what you do. The walls of this crowded house has spoken to me too. To you,I may be insignificant - even I appear nonchalant. Do you think I'm harmless? That's f...

20 May 2013, 09:41 AM
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TROUBLE SLEEPING...

Yes, I've had trouble sleeping lately. No, it's not because I'm falling in love. Don't even tell me that. Hehe, I've been listening to Corrine Bailey Rae. It's not that I don't sleep. I still can, but it's just like this: It's difficult when I want to. But once I do, I often fall into deep-but-restless sleep. Some of them have heard me snore. (No joke!) Some have heard me mumble or talk in my sleep. Even one cab driver had to shake me awake once, because I'd practically been screa...

18 May 2013, 07:02 PM
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"RESTLESS"

Like Sysyphus trying to complete the never-ending task; constantly pressured by the gods' wrath. There's no break from you. Do what you've got to do. Who cares if you're black and blue? No one's really got your back. Another domino-effect will only show them what you lack. It doesn't matter if they keep screwing up. You're the cleaning lady, the unwilling sub. You're the responsible and reliable for the job. No wonder their demands never stop. What's next? Why do they keep t...

11 May 2013, 02:11 PM
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FROM THE CROWDED HOUSE

Honestly, I don't know how to call the place where my basic family lives in. The Crowded House? No, that's a band. (Or was a band, since they'd broken up long ago.) Still, the name fits. Three families live in it: my own, my sister The First Princess', and the maid's. Complex? Oh, yeah. Want to hear more? Dad The Great King is still sick. Stroke for over three years already. He can still function okay (as in, not having to stay in bed with IV and other medical life-supports). Other than s...

11 May 2013, 06:43 AM
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"THESE HARD TIMES"

These are the hard times, my friend. Day in, day out - all the same. I wish we could all ignore the loose ends, yet we're already way too tired to pretend. These are the hard times, my friend. Every month always feels like a long way. There are always bills to pay. When will this ever end? These are the hard times, my friend. I'm also sick to death of dealing with this pain. Sometimes it feels so damn permanent. All my sweat, blood, and tears have been well-spent. These are ...

09 May 2013, 10:08 AM
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THE BALLAD OF THE STORYTELLER

I've always loved writing since I was a kid. At first I thought it had something to do with my love for books and stories. Most people I know (who also know me back, of course) say it's related to my unusually creative mind - which often leads to having somewhat, vivid imagination. I know I've never been a whiz, like I never was an ace student. In fact, my ADD (Attention-Deficit Disorder) had never been properly diagnosed until about two or three years ago. No joke. I came across this book ab...

08 May 2013, 03:38 PM
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"THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE"

I've heard tales about you, whenever he speaks your name. Do you know that he's remained true? His feelings for you are still the same. There are always problems; arguments and disagreements between loved ones. He may try to act cool, but I'm not some gullible child easily fooled. He still loves you. Everyone can see that. His broken heart has turned him blue. It's killing me to see him so sad. Is it true that you're coming over? This time, are you willing to fight him back again? It's not...

06 May 2013, 11:03 AM
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A REALISTIC SOAP FOR THE ROMANTICALLY-CHALLENGED

If this life were a soap opera, I probably wouldn't be playing one of the starring roles. I don't know why, but one thing's for sure: Being on the spotlight isn't always grand. There are blind fanatics who expect constant miracles from you. There are those who expect you to start making mistakes, slip, and fall. That's just life. You can't please everybody. There's a lot at stake once you're on top of your game. Let's just say that I'm pretty much okay with where I am now. Under the rad...

06 May 2013, 07:23 AM
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"THE WORKAHOLIC BLUES"

A stroll on the side of the street; friends to meet. It was a rare Sunday when she could just have it her way. When was the last time she had something like this? It's one of too many to miss. She wishes she didn't have to be so busy. Why does she have to work so hard for more money? She may give you her biggest smile. That usually lasts her for quite a while. Only a very few see it in her eyes; everyday she tries her hardest to cover the real lies. She deserves her break, because she's ti...

01 May 2013, 04:08 PM
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A RARE, CHICK-LIT/CHICK-FLICK MOMENT...

Once in a while, the life of an everyday, regular person can turn a bit extraordinary. As usual, I'd like to call this "a rare, chick-lit/chick-flick moment". You know, a typical scene or event that usually reminds you of one of those cliches in a story. A girl meets a guy and the rest is history. Predictable. Well, one can daydream to spice up their boring life..even just a little bit. Hehe. Even when it's rare, I've had a moment like this before. So long ago, one night in 7-11. Sti...

01 May 2013, 11:17 AM
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"A BLUE MOON IN THE AFTERNOON"

One boring afternoon, he came along just like a blue moon. She'd thought it was just another ordinary day. She never thought she'd end up feeling this way. He was the face on the cover of the magazine. That face was often on the TV screen. He was the sweetest eye-candy she'd ever seen. She felt like walking into a living dream. So she enjoyed the moment while she still could. The spark of his brilliance and enthusiasm in life had made her feel good. Not all stories like this would forever l...

25 April 2013, 12:53 PM
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"LOVE: HELLO AND GOODBYE"

Love was the day when we first met; that incredible feeling I'd thought I'd never get. It was our first exchange of 'hellos' and how my heart had been taken by your glow. Love was when I could still hold your hands; when I never had to pretend, in your arms I would safely land, back to the times you were still my man. Love was the aching of our hearts. You'd wondered why we often had to be so far apart. The distance had been our common, mortal enemy. Still, I would've fought an...

23 April 2013, 12:44 PM
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"TRADING LIVES"

Dear Mister, Can I have your life for a day? I wonder if it's much better in every way, since mine's been kind of grey. Dear Mister, I don't mean to sound like a pain, but I keep hearing your constant complaints, when I see that your life isn't all that plain. I've heard fun tales about your trips, when I know for me it isn't cheap. Silently, I must bury my envy so deep. Dear Mister, Aren't you so lucky? You've always got more money, while I have to survive with all of me....

23 April 2013, 11:47 AM
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AT THE CROSSROAD...

I know this is normal. Everyone goes through this phase once in a while. I went through this a year ago, when I decided to move to another company. It was difficult at first, because I'd worked there for 3.5 years. The management was not that ideal, but working there had been fun. No regrets. It was a valuable learning process and experience for me.:) I will never forget any of it. Plus, the staff had been like my second family. We'd been through a lot as a team. That's why it was diffi...

19 April 2013, 06:31 PM
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"THAT GIRL UNDER DROPS OF RAIN"

The night sky was crying its silent tears. Alone, she was staring down at the face of fear, letting it draw near. To her, only one of them must remain standing here. "I don't want you around." Her calm, quiet whisper travelled like the wind across the town. "You've had enough sick pleasure of pushing me down." For the first time she forgot when, she gratefully embraced the rain as the drops of water cleansed and chased away her pain... (Jakarta, 16/4/2013 - 1:50 am)

19 April 2013, 08:08 AM
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"LOVELORN 2"

Didn't you know? The day you came into his life had changed his world around. You were the reason for his smile that had chased away his frown. He was wondering if true love what he'd finally found. Didn't you know? I wish you'd been able to see his eyes sparkle. He talked about you like you were the glorious wonder. I could swear to you that I'd never seen him happier. Don't you know? The day you chose to be with someone else was the day his hopes collapsed. Once again, you tur...

15 April 2013, 06:51 AM
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