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"THE YELLOW LIGHT"

a pause a question for a cause a bouquet of flowers a colour represents a message that says: “let’s just be friends” warm enough not too hot like red maybe it isn’t so bad not too cold like blue even when it’s chilly but true what else can you do? if this were a traffic light, would there still be any fight? a hesitation: should I stay or go? will I ever really know? not green, so no speed just take it slow a subtle warning sign a smile from a troubled mind eyes so cautious at the complim...

17 April 2019, 05:46 PM
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“TO SOME, EXPERIENCES AND MEMORIES ARE MORE PRECIOUS THAN MATERIAL THINGS”

You probably wonder about this sometimes. You see some people loaded with money and stuff. They buy a lot of fancy stuff and manage to look impressive. They do want to impress others, while some just want to feel good about themselves that way. (Others want to do both altogether.) Well, as long as you can really afford it, then that’s cool. That’s your personal choice and responsibility. Meanwhile, there are others who choose differently regarding money. To spend or invest? You decide. The mo...

16 April 2019, 02:00 PM
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"THE DYING SPIRIT"

Like a vehicle with a quarter of petrol in your tank or the last 50 in your bank account Like a tired athlete after a marathon, groaning at another round Like an endless conversation with a narcissist who demands that you agree with them Like a weary street fighter noticing enemies at every corner when all they want is to just go home How do you explain best about the state you’re still in? The smile you fake, despite this restlessness Perhaps you need another vacation Should you carry on,...

13 April 2019, 04:40 AM
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"THE DYING SPIRIT"

Like a vehicle with a quarter of petrol in your tank or the last 50 in your bank account Like a tired athlete after a marathon, groaning at another round Like an endless conversation with a narcissist who demands that you agree with them Like a weary street fighter noticing enemies at every corner when all they want is to just go home How do you explain best about the state you’re still in? The smile you fake, despite this restlessness Perhaps you need another vacation Should you carry on,...

13 April 2019, 04:39 AM
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"BEING SINGLE AMONG YOUR MARRIED FRIENDS"

Perhaps this is not much of an issue if you live somewhere else besides Indonesia. As usual, correct me if I’m wrong. If you have valid data to support your opinions and personal experiences, then that’s even better. To a plenty of people in Indonesia, this can be seen as ‘problematic’. They are also more critical towards single women, especially in their 30s. Many are still shameless when asking such intrusive, rude questions: “All of your friends are already married. What about you? When i...

12 April 2019, 01:56 AM
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"DE-VALUED"

“Oh, but I respect you.” While at the same time, you turn us blue keep us homebound, while you’re free to roam around. What humanity? We’re treated more like properties only seen at face-value though we have thoughts, feelings, and opinions too “Oh, but I do respect you.” Then why aren’t you listening? Why do you keep second-guessing whatever we say? You don’t really care anyway questioning our ‘rationality’ yet you demand that we do as you please We’re sick to death of your superiority. “O...

06 April 2019, 05:08 PM
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"THE TRUTH REVEALED"

My mother is one of the most patient ones I know. I’m not being biased about this. I have plenty of proofs. For starters, she can put up with a tomboyish, rebellious daughter like me. (I’m not being proud about this either; it’s just the way it is.) I’m like the female version of my father, always with a quick temper when it comes to injustice. It is no secret that I truly despise bullies and manipulators. (It’s even worse if they happen to be both!) Bullies, cheaters, and liars always refuse...

06 April 2019, 09:03 AM
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"QUESTIONS WITH QUESTIONS"

Questions with questions That’s how you answer Not much you mention, ‘though you’re such talkers How to expect you to understand, when faith has become a marketable item? Just big words in conversations, more polemics than solutions You’ve liberated more question marks up in the air, but they’re no stars no sparks, just more potential future scars Questions with questions...and more questions Trust issues are here Oh, so severe! Why can’t you just answer them, like common people do? Damn!...

02 April 2019, 01:21 PM
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"TIGRESS" (A Book Review)

How’s life through the eyes of the 'Tigress'? Luckily I was introduced to the works of this writer, Ayu Meutia. Of the 52 poems on her anthology debut, "Tigress", it's rather difficult to choose the poem that I really like. "Travel-Post Blues" is one of them. The majority of poems in "Tigress" are written in English. However, there are also those in Indonesian. The language style is honest, tends to be outspoken - but still subtle and plays well with images. For those who like the old literar...

31 March 2019, 10:42 PM
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"NO MORE LOVE POEMS?"

Go ahead and ask me to write you something happy as I stare at a page so empty I can write something trivial mundane, daily activities but what’s the difference with my regular schedule? There’s no artistic soul Just me, on an autopilot You may ask me to write you a love story Probably, yours is so much better while mine’s like, whatever I can write something true but perhaps it’ll turn you blue What can I do? Do you want me to pretend and lie to you? Perhaps you need to stop asking me in...

31 March 2019, 05:46 AM
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"THE DOMINO EFFECTS"

It takes one massive tragedy to create a domino effect. Just one push on one block at the corner. The rest of the file then collapses. Just like that. The domino effect can last a while, depending on the number of blocks. It also depends on the length of the file. The damage is usually badly-done. Even when almost everything is in ruins, it can take forever to rebuild. You can’t control everything and everybody. They will come up with different opinions, some even more extreme than the others...

30 March 2019, 01:51 PM
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"THE PRICE FOR MY LOYALTY"

(Note: This is not about me. I accepted a poetry challenge from a friend through someone else’s story. The one given to me is about a young woman who grew up in poverty and with lack of (or limited) educational opportunities. She grew up and married a man who turned out to be a drug-dealer. When he fled, she was left with his stash and got arrested by the police – pregnant with her third child. Her other two had to be taken care of by grandparents. The husband had been a fugitive for a while,...

26 March 2019, 11:53 PM
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"SLEEPLESS NIGHTS"

How do you cope with your sleepless nights? Do you force yourself by closing your eyes? Do you try to control your breathing, while clearing your mind? Do you pray to God at night? What if you still cannot sleep? You probably try to keep yourself busy until you’re finally too tired to stay awake. You read or write. You watch TV, surfing the channels to find the most boring program that can possibly put you to sleep. Some of you may prefer listening to music. Does that help you? I hope so too,...

25 March 2019, 11:54 AM
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"THE LAST WORD AND SILENCE"

There’s the child and the adult a heated argument involved You think the child’s always being told but not all adults are the grown-ups It’s funny when you see how some define victory by having the last word to say while others are forced into silence nothing new to this form of violence You confuse silence with agreement You assume you have won the argument Others are much smarter than you think No point in pushing when you’re all about winning instead of focusing on finding the solution ...

20 March 2019, 12:39 PM
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"THE LAST WORD AND SILENCE"

There’s the child and the adult a heated argument involved You think the child’s always being told but not all adults are the grown-ups It’s funny when you see how some define victory by having the last word to say while others are forced into silence nothing new to this form of violence You confuse silence with agreement You assume you have won the argument Others are much smarter than you think No point in pushing when you’re all about winning instead of focusing on finding the solution ...

20 March 2019, 12:39 PM
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"5 LAME WAYS TO APOLOGISE"

When we realise we have made mistakes – either big or small – we apologise. That’s what all real, sensible grown-ups (should) do. Only narcissists don’t, because they don’t care about offending other people. Or, do they? Even if they do, is that for real? Do they really mean it? Do they do that because they realise they’ve done wrong – or is it just to save their own faces? “But at least they apologise. Doesn’t that count for something?” Sure, they do. Still, you have to watch out for some – ...

20 March 2019, 08:28 AM
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"SAFE?"

Have I told you that comfort zone is temporary? Go ahead, call me crazy. Have I told you that a safe space is an illusion? It’s our own creation. It’s just like us. It doesn’t really last. You claim that women are safest at home, but many are assaulted in their private rooms by family who should be protecting them and these women are forced into silence in the name of family honour? Don’t you get their horror? The houses of worship have been tainted by blood prayers taken by bullets Nobody ...

17 March 2019, 08:28 AM
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"A FEW SMALL CIRCLES"

You know what they say. The older you get, the fewer friends you (tend to) have. It’s just how it is. Keep your circle small. All smart people (should) do that. I’ve heard this so many times before. In a way, there’s some truth in it. It’s not just about allocating your time and energy wisely. It’s also about choosing to stick with people who won’t ruin your life too much with their drama and toxicity. It’s nothing like when you’re still in your teens and twenty-somethings. You still have it ...

17 March 2019, 07:31 AM
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"HOW TO IDENTIFY MONSTERS IN THE CROWD"

Is this paranoia – or are you simply being realistic? Last year has taught you really damn well. Not only that, unfortunately. You look around you and realise the world is getting crazier. The monsters are out. In fact, they have been all along. The problem? It’s getting harder to spot them and tell the difference. Most of them look completely human. Some seem harmless from the outside. It’s their dangerous minds. It’s what’s inside you can’t really find. It’s the teachings and the shared – a...

10 March 2019, 05:33 AM
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"I FOUND YOUR OLD LETTER"

I found your old letter while removing some clutters I read it again and felt a slight jab of pain You said you were sorry when we agreed we could no longer be You’d even thanked me for all I’d done for what we’d had back then even for a short time It took me a while to gather all I wish I’d said back then, before it was all too late: I’m sorry too Have I given up on you a little way too soon? You said I knew how to reach you A part of me wanted to, yet I paused like a statue What should ...

05 March 2019, 03:08 PM
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