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"TIGRESS" (A Book Review)

How’s life through the eyes of the 'Tigress'? Luckily I was introduced to the works of this writer, Ayu Meutia. Of the 52 poems on her anthology debut, "Tigress", it's rather difficult to choose the poem that I really like. "Travel-Post Blues" is one of them. The majority of poems in "Tigress" are written in English. However, there are also those in Indonesian. The language style is honest, tends to be outspoken - but still subtle and plays well with images. For those who like the old literar...

31 March 2019, 10:42 PM
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"NO MORE LOVE POEMS?"

Go ahead and ask me to write you something happy as I stare at a page so empty I can write something trivial mundane, daily activities but what’s the difference with my regular schedule? There’s no artistic soul Just me, on an autopilot You may ask me to write you a love story Probably, yours is so much better while mine’s like, whatever I can write something true but perhaps it’ll turn you blue What can I do? Do you want me to pretend and lie to you? Perhaps you need to stop asking me in...

31 March 2019, 05:46 AM
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"THE DOMINO EFFECTS"

It takes one massive tragedy to create a domino effect. Just one push on one block at the corner. The rest of the file then collapses. Just like that. The domino effect can last a while, depending on the number of blocks. It also depends on the length of the file. The damage is usually badly-done. Even when almost everything is in ruins, it can take forever to rebuild. You can’t control everything and everybody. They will come up with different opinions, some even more extreme than the others...

30 March 2019, 01:51 PM
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"THE PRICE FOR MY LOYALTY"

(Note: This is not about me. I accepted a poetry challenge from a friend through someone else’s story. The one given to me is about a young woman who grew up in poverty and with lack of (or limited) educational opportunities. She grew up and married a man who turned out to be a drug-dealer. When he fled, she was left with his stash and got arrested by the police – pregnant with her third child. Her other two had to be taken care of by grandparents. The husband had been a fugitive for a while,...

26 March 2019, 11:53 PM
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"SLEEPLESS NIGHTS"

How do you cope with your sleepless nights? Do you force yourself by closing your eyes? Do you try to control your breathing, while clearing your mind? Do you pray to God at night? What if you still cannot sleep? You probably try to keep yourself busy until you’re finally too tired to stay awake. You read or write. You watch TV, surfing the channels to find the most boring program that can possibly put you to sleep. Some of you may prefer listening to music. Does that help you? I hope so too,...

25 March 2019, 11:54 AM
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"THE LAST WORD AND SILENCE"

There’s the child and the adult a heated argument involved You think the child’s always being told but not all adults are the grown-ups It’s funny when you see how some define victory by having the last word to say while others are forced into silence nothing new to this form of violence You confuse silence with agreement You assume you have won the argument Others are much smarter than you think No point in pushing when you’re all about winning instead of focusing on finding the solution ...

20 March 2019, 12:39 PM
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"THE LAST WORD AND SILENCE"

There’s the child and the adult a heated argument involved You think the child’s always being told but not all adults are the grown-ups It’s funny when you see how some define victory by having the last word to say while others are forced into silence nothing new to this form of violence You confuse silence with agreement You assume you have won the argument Others are much smarter than you think No point in pushing when you’re all about winning instead of focusing on finding the solution ...

20 March 2019, 12:39 PM
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"5 LAME WAYS TO APOLOGISE"

When we realise we have made mistakes – either big or small – we apologise. That’s what all real, sensible grown-ups (should) do. Only narcissists don’t, because they don’t care about offending other people. Or, do they? Even if they do, is that for real? Do they really mean it? Do they do that because they realise they’ve done wrong – or is it just to save their own faces? “But at least they apologise. Doesn’t that count for something?” Sure, they do. Still, you have to watch out for some – ...

20 March 2019, 08:28 AM
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"SAFE?"

Have I told you that comfort zone is temporary? Go ahead, call me crazy. Have I told you that a safe space is an illusion? It’s our own creation. It’s just like us. It doesn’t really last. You claim that women are safest at home, but many are assaulted in their private rooms by family who should be protecting them and these women are forced into silence in the name of family honour? Don’t you get their horror? The houses of worship have been tainted by blood prayers taken by bullets Nobody ...

17 March 2019, 08:28 AM
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"A FEW SMALL CIRCLES"

You know what they say. The older you get, the fewer friends you (tend to) have. It’s just how it is. Keep your circle small. All smart people (should) do that. I’ve heard this so many times before. In a way, there’s some truth in it. It’s not just about allocating your time and energy wisely. It’s also about choosing to stick with people who won’t ruin your life too much with their drama and toxicity. It’s nothing like when you’re still in your teens and twenty-somethings. You still have it ...

17 March 2019, 07:31 AM
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"HOW TO IDENTIFY MONSTERS IN THE CROWD"

Is this paranoia – or are you simply being realistic? Last year has taught you really damn well. Not only that, unfortunately. You look around you and realise the world is getting crazier. The monsters are out. In fact, they have been all along. The problem? It’s getting harder to spot them and tell the difference. Most of them look completely human. Some seem harmless from the outside. It’s their dangerous minds. It’s what’s inside you can’t really find. It’s the teachings and the shared – a...

10 March 2019, 05:33 AM
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"I FOUND YOUR OLD LETTER"

I found your old letter while removing some clutters I read it again and felt a slight jab of pain You said you were sorry when we agreed we could no longer be You’d even thanked me for all I’d done for what we’d had back then even for a short time It took me a while to gather all I wish I’d said back then, before it was all too late: I’m sorry too Have I given up on you a little way too soon? You said I knew how to reach you A part of me wanted to, yet I paused like a statue What should ...

05 March 2019, 03:08 PM
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"MY BODYGUARD"

Aidan. That’s how I call him – a six-foot-tall, handsome-looking droid, created by my late father. Yes, he was a mad scientist. Slightly mad? Maybe. So cliche. Somehow, Dad had left Aidan to be automatically activated by the time I turned 18. A surprise birthday present for me. “Hello. My name is Aidan. I have just been automatically activated by your father, Professor D, as your birthday present. I am here to serve as your bodyguard. Happy birthday, Darla.” “Uh, thanks. I guess.” I didn’t kn...

04 March 2019, 03:32 PM
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"TO THE ATTENTION-SEEKER(S)"

Make sure you have something worth watching for because you demand your audience’s attention, taking up their time absorbing their energy just to notice you You could be an entertainment a source of real education or just an annoying distraction Take your pick? I’m afraid not You don’t get to decide how the world should respond to you Why don’t you just ditch your expectations before you face another moment of painful embarrassment? But hey, at least you get noticed Shouldn’t that be your ...

02 March 2019, 03:31 PM
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"THE SEVERE TRUST ISSUES AND MORE UNANSWERED QUESTIONS"

How do you believe in someone who makes you have severe trust issues with them? It’s not always about you being paranoid and perfectionist at the same time. You don’t just have your reasons – whether they are yours or else. You have your valid proofs. How do you believe in someone who answers your questions with more questions? Unless we’re in Philosophy 101 or we would like to keep our personal matters our own (from nosy, judgmental people), it is a serious issue. Why do you answer a questio...

02 March 2019, 08:29 AM
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"NO (REAL) BREAK FOR NOW"

No break for you now, ‘though it seems unfair somehow You have to keep on working, no matter how exhausting Others with less or zero effort seem to earn more including those open doors lots on silver platters For you, no break It doesn’t matter your heart aches Hunger can drive you crazy Anger might turn you into a killing spree Somebody’s taken away your rights You’ve had it with the same old fight They’ve moved on with something new as if they’ve never harmed you It doesn’t matter No, n...

25 February 2019, 11:27 AM
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“MY DIGITAL COMPANION(S) – An Ode To ASMR* Audio-Video Listeners”

That night – just like most nights – I returned to my room, feeling completely exhausted. I dropped my backpack on the foot of my bed. I started charging my phone and turned the TV on. Same old shows. Same old life. While my phone was still charging, I turned it on. I know it’s a bad habit. I just can’t seem to stop. I mindlessly made a selection there. That night, I just wanted to escape the silence. I brushed my teeth in the bathroom and washed my face. Then I changed into my PJs and sat do...

18 February 2019, 11:51 AM
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"KEEP HIM (BUT STOP COMPLAINING!)"

Love is weird Sometimes it ignites my fear Maybe it’s often mistaken confused with a sad obsession You think he’s the one even when he keeps fooling around Still, you insist on staying in order to keep him What’s so good about always getting hurt? He’ll never feel enough with just one girl He needs more die-hard fans He does so, just because he thinks he can So you love him despite everything It’s the life you choose even with a lot to lose Your friends have grown tired He’ll always be a ...

09 February 2019, 07:46 AM
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"(MORE BRUTAL) HONESTY IN FICTION"

Sometimes, especially these days, some people are more open and honest in the world of fiction. How come? Does that always mean they’re such filthy liars? Does that mean they’re tricksters that must never be trusted? Some people are like that, indulging themselves in the world of fiction. If it still just involves reading and writing, then it’s all cool. There’s nothing wrong with doing such. It’s all in the name of pure, harmless entertainment. Obviously, I do that too sometimes. If some p...

06 February 2019, 05:22 PM
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"THE BLISSFULLY, IGNORANT YOU"

It’s true, I guess Ignorance is bliss Your life is perfect How come they don’t get that? Why is it always bad? So you’ve found the love of your life Your oh-so-perfect little wife You think the whole world has always been beautiful The complainers are nothing but ungrateful, such annoying fools There’s no empathy for the unlucky You flaunt your fortunes yet you give the wrong impression too proud but ignorant Through your eyes, you barely realise life isn’t just unicorns and rainbows There...

02 February 2019, 10:38 AM
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