"THIS CRAZY WORLD"

The world is going crazy What else can surprise me? More drama and disasters strike More trauma and compassion that lacks Where do we go from here? Is The Hour already near? Do we share the same fear? A lot of things are growing unclear What's my role for today? Can I still save anyone anyway? Will there be a solution? Can we avoid more destruction? Hopefully, we don't give up now There's got to be a way somehow! R. (Jakarta, 26/8/2016 - 2:42 pm)

01 September 2016, 07:31 AM
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"BETTER IN SEPTEMBER?"

So far, these are the things that have been on my mind, even before September is here: 1. Writing deadlines - all at once! 2. Hazel Eyes' departure on September 23. Yay for one and tears for two. R.

31 August 2016, 07:12 PM
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"A LOVE TAKEN FOR GRANTED?"

We took each other for granted Back then, every thing felt jaded We were too busy with our own chaotic minds, not even to find a little time to assess the whole situation No room for real talk; just scrambling around for solutions anything to reduce and slow the pace of the ongoing problems We've taken each other for granted either grown numb, apart, or exhausted Sadness feels more like a distraction We've kept quiet over what really needs to be mentioned "It's okay," we'd tell each other an...

27 August 2016, 11:21 AM
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"A NEW MONTH, A NEW PLACE, AND FRIENDS WHO COME AND GO"

Alright, August is almost over. September is approaching soon. I'm getting even busier and unsure whether I'll still have the time to write in here. Wait, scratch the last part, please. I have to make the time. There's a difference between writing for the job with doing that out of love. I'm moving to a new place. After the raise of the rent, I realised that I couldn't stay here anymore. I couldn't afford it. Plus, I've got more work involving going from one far place to another. The transp...

27 August 2016, 10:13 AM
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"THE SAME OLD CALM BEFORE THE FAMILIAR STORM"

The ghost of your past has delivered the news, giving you a heads-up What's that all about? What does he want this time? For long, you've drawn the line said your last goodbye No more those useless tears in your eyes This time, never let him make you cry Hopefully, he won't stay long No more second chances gone wrong You've been strong Without him, you still carry on Fear him no more Don't open that door If he ever dares barge in, do yourself a favour: shut the door right to his face, befo...

17 August 2016, 11:50 AM
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"IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY...AND I AM HAPPY!"

My dear sweet Hazel Eyes, I remember when you first asked me about what I’d like to do for my birthday, about two years ago. I shrugged, telling you that I didn’t feel like it. You frowned and wondered why, so I told you this: “I’ve been asking for the same gift for the past four years and God hasn’t given me that yet.” You’d looked so sad that I instantly felt bad. I didn’t mean to; I’m sorry. You said that there was nothing wrong about celebrating my birthday, no matter what. I st...

17 August 2016, 12:46 AM
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"I WAS AN ONLINE BULLY"

It is not something easy to bring up again, even after about four years or so. Looking back, I am not proud of what I did and I still have regrets. I have to admit this, though: I was an online bully. How did that happen? You might be wondering or scoffing: “Who has never been one since the internet era, even for just once in their lives?” Well, even if it is true, this does not make me feel any better. Looking at how most people have been trolling @Awkarin online ...

05 August 2016, 05:33 AM
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"HUMANS OF THIS EARTH"

I am not a chase I am not your conquest I don't need to impress Being me is what I know best I'm not putting you on a test by playing hard to get, making you second guess I shouldn't be obligated to put your mind to rest Never expect me to be flawless Sit down Treat me like an equal human Don't just talk; listen You're not always right, like I'm not always wrong Stop acting like you're always on a hunt, so we can start having a more decent conversation despite being different R. (Jakarta...

04 August 2016, 05:19 AM
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"THE LIT SQUAD"

Alright, you might be wondering what I'm talking about. The Lit Squad? Well, this is nothing like what Taylor Swift owns. (Not like I care, though.) I've come up with it and some of my friends in that same club seem to like it too. The Lit Squad, or The Literature Squad, is originally named The Couchsurfing Writers' Club. It's already got quite plenty of branches, like the one in Jakarta and Bandung here. What do we do? We gather once a week. We discuss writing topics and throw writing cha...

03 August 2016, 04:29 PM
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"FROM THE WORDPLAY WARRIOR"

If you ask me, I'm not really sure how I've got to nickname myself The Wordplay Warrior. I'm a poet, a fiction writer, a freelance translator, and a part-time English teacher. How do I manage my time? That's always interesting. Sometimes I can, sometimes it's hard. However, I'm not going to give up. R.

03 August 2016, 12:05 PM
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“LIVING SINGLE: BETWEEN WORK, SOCIAL LIFE, (VISITING) FAMILY, AND SOLITUDE”

It’s been a while, as usual. I’ve been busy, poorly juggling portions of my life and trying to work on a proper balance. A lot has been going on lately. Hazel Eyes and L have officially moved to the same old apartment he’d been in years ago. What about me? I’m still the same, probably working even harder and becoming busier than before. Work, work, work – that’s all I do. A writer, a teacher, a translator – all in one go. The only social life I have is t...

06 September 2015, 08:42 AM
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#RIP AYLAN KURDI

This world has gone too cruel So many have played the fools by avoiding bad news like a plague There's too much that no one can take Yes, this world is much too cruel especially for pure, innocent souls like yours What if humanity has been cursed? No one else had wanted to put you first You looked like you were asleep as you were cast away from the ocean's deep You were more than just a tiny blob of red and blue If only we'd known better and more what to do Will there be more like you? I k...

06 September 2015, 06:24 AM
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"THE LAST SUNRISE WITH YOU"

"I'm bored," you complained that night. It wasn't the very first time you'd said that. "I wanna do something outside. I've been in this room for too damn long!" I sighed. I'd just returned from a long, hard day at work. I was really exhausted. I didn't feel like having any argument that night. "Alright," I finally gave in. I sat on your bedside and stared at your pale, haggard face. "What do you wanna do tomorrow?" "Just go outside," you said and shrugged. Your deep eyes seemed hollower by...

06 September 2015, 06:08 AM
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"A BROKEN PHONE"

A broken phone is ONLY acceptable when: 1. You have another phone...with another number. 2. You have a spare phone. 3. You have a budget ready to buy another phone...right away. 4. You have a friend or more, willing to lend you one of their phones...until you get a new one for yourself. 5. You have a family member or more, willing to do the same as stated in no.4. 6. You win a new phone through a quiz. 7. You still have people you need (and want) to stay in touch with. 8. There are peo...

03 September 2015, 07:09 AM
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"A QUESTION OF HONESTY AND COURTESY"

They say honesty is the best policy True, even when some associate that with cruelty Sometimes one has to be cruel to be kind, but when can one tell that they've crossed the line? Some also question,is courtesy always related to hypocrisy? Hey, what's wrong with kindness and sincerity? Sometimes it's not about being right, if one's vile tongue tends to cause an unnecessary fight Watch your mouth They might see through you and what you're all about Don't keep trying to fix others, just becau...

03 September 2015, 03:14 AM
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"A CONTINUOUS STROLL TO ALL MY FAVOURITE PLACES"

“Where’s your most favourite place in the world?” That’s one tough question if you ask me. The answers may vary, depending on how I feel. The situations may change. My room is where I want to be when I’m most vulnerable. (I guess that’s just how most people are like.) No one needs to ask me why. You can only be your 100% self when you’re all alone. Let only God know. Spare others your most vicious demons within. Not everything needs to be shown. They say home is where the heart is. But wha...

30 August 2015, 10:14 AM
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"AS YOU SLOWLY DRIFT OFF TO SLEEP..."

Sleep tonight, my love, my light My grief deepens that you’re not alright If only I could chase your pain away with all my might Sweet dreams, ‘though they don’t easily come, it seems Will you remember any when you wake up? I know these days seem to drag you down a lot Fear no more, for I am here like I’ve never been before... R. (Jakarta, 29/8/2015 – 10:00 pm)

29 August 2015, 05:20 PM
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"CHAOS!"

I’ve been unwell lately. Then again, I’m not the only one. Poor Hazel Eyes has been sick too. In fact, he got sick first. Here’s what happened last week: Tuesday: Hazel Eyes got sick first. I took him to the clinic. The poor guy was feverish. Thursday: During the writers’ club gathering that night, I started coming down with it. Damietta and Nuri told me to go home. We had to cut the gathering short. Then my phone broke. L has kindly lent me his for a while, only so that I’d be contacta...

29 August 2015, 04:11 PM
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"THE RANDOM SURVEY QUESTIONS (THE ANSWERS)"

So, what are my real answers to all the previous eight (8) questions: 1. What makes you happy? GETTING PAID Who’s not happy with this? Especially if you get paid from doing what you really love. 2. What depresses you? DEATH OF LOVED ONES This is not about the inability of letting go and moving on. It’s also not about being unable to see them again while you’re still here on earth. It’s the thought of whether you’d treated them right...and whether they’d already forgiven you for all the ...

27 August 2015, 03:46 AM
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"THE RANDOM SURVEY QUESTIONS"

I sometimes get writing ideas in class. Once we were discussing and reviewing gerunds and nouns, where we used these eight (8) feeling-related questions out of the book we used that day: 1. What makes you happy?2. What depresses you?3. What creeps you out?4. What annoys / angers you?5. What stresses you out?6. What helps you to relax?7. What scares you?8. What makes you giggle? We ended up playing the guessing game, where each of us would have to write a list of our own answers based on tho...

19 August 2015, 08:14 AM
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