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"MY BODYGUARD"

Aidan. That’s how I call him – a six-foot-tall, handsome-looking droid, created by my late father. Yes, he was a mad scientist. Slightly mad? Maybe. So cliche. Somehow, Dad had left Aidan to be automatically activated by the time I turned 18. A surprise birthday present for me. “Hello. My name is Aidan. I have just been automatically activated by your father, Professor D, as your birthday present. I am here to serve as your bodyguard. Happy birthday, Darla.” “Uh, thanks. I guess.” I didn’t kn...

04 March 2019, 03:32 PM
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"TO THE ATTENTION-SEEKER(S)"

Make sure you have something worth watching for because you demand your audience’s attention, taking up their time absorbing their energy just to notice you You could be an entertainment a source of real education or just an annoying distraction Take your pick? I’m afraid not You don’t get to decide how the world should respond to you Why don’t you just ditch your expectations before you face another moment of painful embarrassment? But hey, at least you get noticed Shouldn’t that be your ...

02 March 2019, 03:31 PM
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"THE SEVERE TRUST ISSUES AND MORE UNANSWERED QUESTIONS"

How do you believe in someone who makes you have severe trust issues with them? It’s not always about you being paranoid and perfectionist at the same time. You don’t just have your reasons – whether they are yours or else. You have your valid proofs. How do you believe in someone who answers your questions with more questions? Unless we’re in Philosophy 101 or we would like to keep our personal matters our own (from nosy, judgmental people), it is a serious issue. Why do you answer a questio...

02 March 2019, 08:29 AM
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"NO (REAL) BREAK FOR NOW"

No break for you now, ‘though it seems unfair somehow You have to keep on working, no matter how exhausting Others with less or zero effort seem to earn more including those open doors lots on silver platters For you, no break It doesn’t matter your heart aches Hunger can drive you crazy Anger might turn you into a killing spree Somebody’s taken away your rights You’ve had it with the same old fight They’ve moved on with something new as if they’ve never harmed you It doesn’t matter No, n...

25 February 2019, 11:27 AM
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“MY DIGITAL COMPANION(S) – An Ode To ASMR* Audio-Video Listeners”

That night – just like most nights – I returned to my room, feeling completely exhausted. I dropped my backpack on the foot of my bed. I started charging my phone and turned the TV on. Same old shows. Same old life. While my phone was still charging, I turned it on. I know it’s a bad habit. I just can’t seem to stop. I mindlessly made a selection there. That night, I just wanted to escape the silence. I brushed my teeth in the bathroom and washed my face. Then I changed into my PJs and sat do...

18 February 2019, 11:51 AM
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"KEEP HIM (BUT STOP COMPLAINING!)"

Love is weird Sometimes it ignites my fear Maybe it’s often mistaken confused with a sad obsession You think he’s the one even when he keeps fooling around Still, you insist on staying in order to keep him What’s so good about always getting hurt? He’ll never feel enough with just one girl He needs more die-hard fans He does so, just because he thinks he can So you love him despite everything It’s the life you choose even with a lot to lose Your friends have grown tired He’ll always be a ...

09 February 2019, 07:46 AM
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"(MORE BRUTAL) HONESTY IN FICTION"

Sometimes, especially these days, some people are more open and honest in the world of fiction. How come? Does that always mean they’re such filthy liars? Does that mean they’re tricksters that must never be trusted? Some people are like that, indulging themselves in the world of fiction. If it still just involves reading and writing, then it’s all cool. There’s nothing wrong with doing such. It’s all in the name of pure, harmless entertainment. Obviously, I do that too sometimes. If some p...

06 February 2019, 05:22 PM
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"THE BLISSFULLY, IGNORANT YOU"

It’s true, I guess Ignorance is bliss Your life is perfect How come they don’t get that? Why is it always bad? So you’ve found the love of your life Your oh-so-perfect little wife You think the whole world has always been beautiful The complainers are nothing but ungrateful, such annoying fools There’s no empathy for the unlucky You flaunt your fortunes yet you give the wrong impression too proud but ignorant Through your eyes, you barely realise life isn’t just unicorns and rainbows There...

02 February 2019, 10:38 AM
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"7 PEOPLE I'D RATHER DISMISS AND IGNORE FOR GOOD INSTEAD OF ARGUING WITH IN 2019"

I have to admit; I’m not too crazy about debates. I used to and I’d do a whole lot more to fight for what I believe in. It wouldn’t matter if people hated my guts for it. Well, I still don’t care if they still do. I just choose my battles wisely. Instead of wasting my precious time and energy arguing with people who are not even worth it, I prefer dismissing and ignoring them completely. I know that sounds cold, though. However, for the sake of my own mental health, I know that sometimes I ...

02 February 2019, 05:07 AM
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"I'LL NEVER BE YOU"

I’m not sorry for keeping my distance from the very beginning You’ve already showed me your false courtesy your later cold hostility You may be the life of the party Many guys might find you sexy Perhaps I do have the slight envy However, I’ll never be you I don’t even want to I ain’t got nothing to prove You may interrupt rudely the conversation between him and me running your fingers through his hair and jaw disregarding my whole existence as you demand for his attention I know he’s no...

24 January 2019, 12:19 PM
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"THANK YOU, BUDDY!"

Hi, I never thought you’d suddenly greet me on social media. We haven't talked in like, ages. You're busy there, and so am I here. "Do you know something?" you suddenly asked, cheerfully. "We have been friends for 12 years, you know. Never expected this, huh? " True, I thought. I still remember when we first met. We met in one of the community sites for students around the world. At that time, I was a 25-year-old freelance blogger and writer who was still looking for a permanent job in Jaka...

22 January 2019, 08:40 AM
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"THANK YOU, BUDDY!"

Hi, I never thought you’d suddenly greet me on social media. We haven't talked in like, ages. You're busy there, and so am I here. "Do you know something?" you suddenly asked, cheerfully. "We have been friends for 12 years, you know. Never expected this, huh? " True, I thought. I still remember when we first met. We met in one of the community sites for students around the world. At that time, I was a 25-year-old freelance blogger and writer who was still looking for a permanent job in Jaka...

22 January 2019, 08:40 AM
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"I'M NOT HER"

You’ll probably see me an offbeat character at this party a plain, simple girl-next-door wondering what she could possibly offer What? Who?? No, no way I’m wondering if you do see me like I see you too the one who’s not really into this crowd a phone in your hand, so distracted I love how we talk ‘cause I’d love to interact Perhaps we both stand out slightly detached from this current crowd Still, I’m not her I’m not insecure nor a slut-shamer I’m just not into being flirtatious not even t...

20 January 2019, 05:41 AM
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"I'M NOT HER"

You’ll probably see me an offbeat character at this party a plain, simple girl-next-door wondering what she could possibly offer What? Who?? No, no way I’m wondering if you do see me like I see you too the one who’s not really into this crowd a phone in your hand, so distracted I love how we talk ‘cause I’d love to interact Perhaps we both stand out slightly detached from this current crowd Still, I’m not her I’m not insecure nor a slut-shamer I’m just not into being flirtatious not even t...

20 January 2019, 05:41 AM
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"THE EX-GUARDIAN OF THE ISOLATED CASTLE AND THE HANDSOME SCHOLAR"

The Ex-Guardian of The Isolated Castle had had a second thought about attending a party in town that Sunday evening. Not only she was penniless (which had been her financial state lately), but she was also tired. She had a lot of work to catch up with (including her freelance stuff, slightly lagging behind.) However, when her friend Lady Love notified her by an electronic message that she’d pick her up at seven, The Ex-Guardian agreed and thought: This will be interesting. Apparently, it had ...

19 January 2019, 01:16 PM
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"THE MONSTER'S CHILD"

“Come on, we’re getting married anyway. My parents would like to see your mother.” Cold sweat started on her skin. He looked concerned and upset at the same time. She drew in a sharp breath before responding in panic: “No, forget it. Bad idea.” “What do you mean?” He was now exasperated. “Hon, she’s your own mother.” “You won’t get it.” “Then, help me to understand.” “You can’t!” With that, she burst in tears and ran away. She was relieved that he wasn’t chasing after her – demanding an answe...

11 January 2019, 04:18 PM
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"SPOILED"

I’m surprised with how long you’re still alive, despite being sluggish a king in an imaginary castle That’s quite a jigsaw puzzle It’s not all about you You know damn well it’s true Others have stuff to do Why don’t you do something too? A spoiled old brat Laziness has turned you bad Stop being everybody’s burden Grow up and work your own, even if you have to scrape your fingers all the way to the bones... R.

03 January 2019, 11:44 AM
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"SPOILED"

I’m surprised with how long you’re still alive, despite being sluggish a king in an imaginary castle That’s quite a jigsaw puzzle It’s not all about you You know damn well it’s true Others have stuff to do Why don’t you do something too? A spoiled old brat Laziness has turned you bad Stop being everybody’s burden Grow up and work your own, even if you have to scrape your fingers all the way to the bones... R.

03 January 2019, 11:44 AM
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"NOTES ABOUT AND TO ANYONE OR NO ONE IN PARTICULAR"

What do I normally do when my mind starts wandering around? I try to trap some of my thoughts – especially those I find most important – in my writing. Of course, you won’t be too surprised. I did have my “Dear Diary” moments as a teenage girl. Some people may still assume that writing a journal is just a girl thing, but we all know it’s not true. Just like me, some people do feel the need to document their thoughts and feelings this way. It’s just as simple as that. I’m probably just one of ...

31 December 2018, 03:22 AM
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"WHAT I'LL LEAVE IN 2018"

Ask me not about the bastard who’d made this heart nothing but a toy my emotions, his sickest joy Don’t you seriously dare say I’m just playing the victim because I’m still here rising from humiliation From you nor anyone, I need no judgment Pray that from me, the creep shall stay away in 2019 I want to be free from such forsaken memories about that prick in 2018... R.

29 December 2018, 11:07 AM
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