"HOW PARANOID ARE YOU?" (Part 1)

The generation gap: “They’re just little kids, so young and still stupid. How could they talk to you like that? You deserve more respect! You’ve lived longer so you know better.” “Are they trying to control you by telling you what to do? It takes more than the digits of their age to get you to be on the same page but to them, it’s privilege. Do what they say or you might get lynched.” How paranoid are you? Such serious trust issues. Either they’re too critical or greedy ...

01 February 2018, 10:26 AM
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“7 RIDICULOUS THINGS INDONESIAN SINGLE-SHAMERS MAY HAVE TOLD YOU”

Okay, I am not whining about this. In fact, I have decided to just compile all the ridiculous things I have heard so far as a single woman up to my 36th birthday on November last year. Let’s see how many of you have heard any of these. So, go. 1. “You’re not trying hard enough.” In a way, this is sort of true. I have been told a lot about this. Go out, put yourself out there. How can you find a guy if you are being such a hermit like that? To single-shamers: I go out when I want or need to, e...

31 January 2018, 12:35 PM
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"YOU SHOULD'VE LET ME SLEEP"

I heard your voice outside the window that night You were talking to her The Ex-Guardian of The Isolated Castle I heard my name mentioned... This isn't the first time I get awaken That night, she was mostly silent trying to keep me locked within again and again Sssh...don't say my name or she's the one to blame You should've let me sleep for I am her monster that creeps carrying skeletons in her closet ready to throw them all out You should've let me sleep Now it's too late I'm about to f...

31 January 2018, 12:34 PM
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"WILL THEY ALWAYS REPRESENT 'HOME'?"

A house, a family Material things Everything’s lovely All the joy they bring Will they always represent ‘home’? Trials come and go Keep them all intact Or all will burn like Rome Thanks to Nero A group of friends Fun and games Be yourself; don’t pretend but which ones are harmless jokes or something to shame? Will they represent the substitute of the ‘home’ you miss? Will you remain in solitude and no longer have that once societal bliss? Neighbourhood, communities Smaller bits that form...

20 January 2018, 06:20 AM
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"IS SILENCE ALWAYS EASY?"

"IS SILENCE ALWAYS EASY?" (Dark Thoughts of The Bullied) It's more than a vacant space or lack of expression on one's face It doesn't contain nothing, 'though it's not always solid beings Is silence easy? Really? Dark thoughts are stuck in the brain driving you insane It's equal to a silent scream, struggling to fix reality with a broken dream with so many words to say, do they even matter anyway? Is silence easy? There's no answer; it's eerie with beating hearts and stomachs that churn (...

24 April 2017, 11:03 AM
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"THE FIRST DATE MENU AND THE (MIS)ASSUMPTION(S)"

At first, you may think this is another typical first date story. A guy takes a girl out on a date. They have a pleasant talk until it is time to order something to eat. The guy orders the main course. You know, carbs, protein (alias meat), and veggies. He even plans to have an ice cream for dessert. When the girl only orders chicken salad and water, he wonders aloud, "Nothing else?" When she just nods and smiles, he asks again, "You sure?" "Yeah." The girl nods again. After that, he spends t...

24 April 2017, 04:26 AM
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"GETTING TO KNOW YOU..."

Perhaps I'm just jaded This chaotic reality always gets to me a lifetime war between worlds where all pacifists long to break free Maybe I need something new a possibility, something true What if it happens to be you? That thought alone scares me too Throughout this loud, crazy world I find myself passing by your door silently praying for the impossible God, I feel like a stalker I'm not pretending to be humble but I really am an ordinary girl I know you do notice me, but will love ever be...

21 April 2017, 12:36 PM
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"NOT ALL MY WRITING STUFF ARE GOOD, BUT THERE'S ALWAYS A ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT"

I'm not trying to be modest here (because I already am, ha-ha. Nah, kidding. I try to be, though.) Still, let me be the first to say this: Not all my writing stuff are good. I love writing. Sometimes, it feels more like an addiction I refuse to cure. There are always thoughts in my head, feelings in my heart - just like everybody else. I sometimes need to get them all out. That's why for me, writing feels much better than talking. How do I get ideas to write every day? Many things, from p...

21 April 2017, 10:22 AM
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"OH, YOU HAPPY PEOPLE!"

Oh, you happy people Ain't your lives wonderful? With clarity and a smooth, daily plot it seems you're lucky with all you've got Oh, you happy people wrinkling your noses at tragedies some foreign dimension you'd rather not be in perhaps even thinking: "Thank God, that ain't me!" Some happy people choose to only see what only brings them joy They mock at the sulking, quiet ones as they start passing judgments "What are you complaining about?" they remark without a doubt "Quit being such wh...

17 April 2017, 11:43 AM
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"TO MY DEAR SWEET FRIEND"

I wish I’d be able to be around tomorrow, just to celebrate your birthday I hope you won’ t give me that frown, because my presence is needed by my family. Happy birthday, my dear sweet friend Your kindness chases my blues away and I love us hanging out, again and again. My apology, but please, stay happy, for you always deserve to be. Work your magic. Those delicious buns you make surely do the tricks. Love, R.

14 April 2017, 03:16 AM
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"AFTER THE JUMP"

It is like a domino effect. Anything that goes on around one' life may turn upside down after that jump one night. First, the people at the scene. Perhaps they just didn't see it coming. Perhaps some have and tried to stop it from happening. If only they had succeeded... If not? Then the domino effect continues. Then, it's the distraught parents and the possibly hysterical family. It's the shocked and grieving close friends, along with the confused acquaintances. They all have the same tho...

12 April 2017, 04:15 PM
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"A DAY WITH MA AND HER TWO BEST FRIENDS"

Since living alone, I've been guilty for not having spent enough time with Ma. I have my reasons and she has hers - and we're both pretty cool with this. We're both quite independent and I'm proud of her. A week ago, we met and even hung out with my brother for lunch. (He was just back from a job interview. I hope he'll get it.) After a quick, early lunch, my brother had to go while I walked with Ma to where her friend was. To my surprise, I was invited to join them. We ended up having (ano...

11 April 2017, 04:24 PM
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"LET THE SILENCE ROLL..."

We talk too much but we're losing touch Nobody wants to listen Every one wants to win the argument We all have our reasons but we care not to make amends Oh, the exhaustion Too noisy here No solutions, I fear Give a moment, a pause to think things over, before all is lost Let the silence roll... R. (Jakarta, 27/3/2017 - 3:00 am)

04 April 2017, 03:50 AM
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"FOR THE MEMORIES THAT REMAIN..."

I've noticed that a lot of social media platforms have got their own memory features. You know, the kind that pops your older posts up on your timeline a few times or so. A year ago, three years ago...you name it. What are your older posts mostly like? Full of great memories, like pictures of you and your loved ones (friends, family, and partner?), funny writing pieces on your status platform or notes? Hilarious memes and links to interesting articles? Are your older posts mostly full of ne...

03 April 2017, 05:53 AM
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"MIDDLE NAME: SOLITUDE"

It's not a matter of zero companionship or being all gutsy with your independence Perhaps it's something vertical, more spiritual a room for that moment of absolute silence "You've done this way too often, shutting yourself from the world," some claim with worry. "Why won't you let us in? How bad can it be?" If only there were any good enough explanations If only it were that easy but words are stuck in the back of her mind which can only be understood by The Most Divine Maybe... solitude ...

27 March 2017, 04:06 AM
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"THE EXPRESSIONS I PERSONALLY DON'T ALWAYS BELIEVE"

As a non-native speaker, I sometimes find English confusing. There are some expressions that I personally don't always believe, like: 1. "I'm just saying." I can't help this. Every time someone or anyone ends their long-winded speech with this line, I'm just skeptical. I don't buy it easily. You're never really 'just saying'. What's the point in doing so when all you want to do is just 'get those words out of your head and through your mouth'? It doesn't make sense to me. There's always a...

26 March 2017, 02:29 AM
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"THE EXPRESSIONS I PERSONALLY DON'T ALWAYS BELIEVE"

As a non-native speaker, I sometimes find English confusing. There are some expressions that I personally don't always believe, like: 1. "I'm just saying." I can't help this. Every time someone or anyone ends their long-winded speech with this line, I'm just skeptical. I don't buy it easily. You're never really 'just saying'. What's the point in doing so when all you want to do is just 'get those words out of your head and through your mouth'? It doesn't make sense to me. There's always a...

26 March 2017, 02:29 AM
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"DEAR GOD: SPARE ME THE SAME OLD NIGHTMARES"

It's the same old, blood-thick dreams creeping and crawling in my sleep violent and deep pushing me down under somewhere in this bottomless black hole lost in the dark abyss A punch in my mouth teeth shattered, off my gums acid blood in my tongue too scared to let my lips part spitting them out white kernels in a pool of blood Dear God, Spare me the same old nightmares I just want that wisdom tooth taken out not the whole batch... R. (Jakarta, 15/3/2017 - 6:00 am)

23 March 2017, 03:28 PM
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"MONSTERS?"

How can we identify monsters? These days, every one seems more alike Not all look creepy that they make you shudder They can be harmless before that very first strike How do we know which one is the predator? How many are there? Should we lock every door? Must we always feel this scared? They look so normal completely human They seem to stay out of trouble until the victims fall... ...undeniably more and more Body counts that won't stop The list goes on and it's a lot with more impatient, ...

22 March 2017, 08:39 AM
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"THAT LONELY PIANO IS LONGING FOR YOUR TUNES"

That big black piano looks dusty in the living room. A week has gone by and I haven't even cleaned it up. I don't even want to touch it. That piano used to be very well looked-after, down to the edge of the string and keyboard. Black and shiny on the surface, looking elegant. To you, it was more than just a musical instrument. It was your partner-in-crime, whether in composing or performing on stage. Its clinking sound had always been perfect to go along with your beautiful singing voice. ...

20 March 2017, 03:07 AM
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