"SOMETIMES YOU STARE AT YOUR DOOR TOO LONG"

Sometimes, you don't feel like knowing much or more than you (feel the) need to. Sometimes you know way too much and wish you could just stay plain ignorant. You know, pretending that you didn't. Just stay carefree, as emotionally-detached as can be. How do people do that, seriously? Wait, you tend to do that too. Sometimes you do, when you're strong enough and not too tired. When it's not even relevant to your life. All is always good when you're in such a state. "Pain can be controlled. J...

09 October 2016, 08:09 AM
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"MISSING HIM NIGHTS"

"How's he doing?" There was more in your question, something else in your expression A pair of bloodshot eyes a cringe instead of a smile It didn't take long to realise "We haven't spoken to each other and it's been two weeks," you finally confessed, with that familiar, emotional streak Your sleep has been restless That night, I sat with my fried rice and a drink cold with ice My head was with zero advice "I guess he's moved on," you said and shrugged, looking all forlorn Obviously, you w...

03 October 2016, 03:12 AM
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"THE EX-GUARDIAN AND THE DARK SHADOWS OF THE ISOLATED CASTLE"

It's been over two years. The Ex-Guardian of The Isolated Castle has begun to love being on an exile. In fact, exile feels more like home, although technically - it does not really belong to her. The Second Little Prince once said to her: "I miss you. I never see you anymore." So The Ex-Guardian decided to visit The Isolated Castle one weekend. She spent some quality time with The Mighty Queen, The Three Little Princes, and The Only Little Princess. No, The Ex-Guardian had no regrets rega...

02 October 2016, 03:28 PM
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"ONE WEIRD, (NON)RELATIONSHIP"

Opposites attract, until at least one of them cracks It's just an undeniable fact Just a temporary madness which thankfully didn't last They all say it's for the best No father's son but Mama's unwanted boy thinking he's the entitled one treating every girl like a toy Oh, what sick joy! No wonder they told her to run, baby run run far away Daddy's warrior princess but Mama's greatest worry almost trapped in a damaging kind of mess yet their warning has helped her flee The two shall never be...

17 September 2016, 03:46 AM
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"THE FAG HAG 101: THE MOST FAQs (FREQUENTLY-ASKED QUESTIONS)"

1. Why are you / do you want to be friends with LGBTQs? First of all, why not? That question sounds the same as: "Why are you befriending an atheist/ why do you like wearing red?" We don't know about you, but as long as they're kind to us, then why can't we all be friends to one another? 2. What's it like being friends with them? It's just like being friends with everybody in the world. They're people too. 3. Aren't you disgusted even with the idea of a same-sex relationship and other non...

16 September 2016, 05:36 AM
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"SHE WAS (THE ICE QUEEN OF RAGE)"

She was ready to strike, an ice queen with her coldest blast It would be more paralysing than a frostbite, a hypothermia to the max She was waiting for your return, the one who'd nearly got her crashed and burned You were one hell of a lesson to learn Thankfully, you're the one she has never really yearned Oh, she was so ready, longing for the day you'd be as broken as she'd like to see, but she's surrounded by the much wiser alliance, urging her not to pursue a revenge Guess what? You've ...

12 September 2016, 05:41 AM
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"SO EMOTIONAL..."

I've been so emotional lately. As usual, a lot of things are happening at once. It's hard to find time to process everything mentally. I'm happy...and exhausted at the same time. I've been busy working lately. I've got more classes...and most of them are quite far away from where I currently live. I know it's kind of crazy now, but hopefully I can deal with all of them. Still, the traffic is always another matter. At last, I've got two exclusive clients for my writing career. This is like, ...

10 September 2016, 06:33 PM
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"STAY STRONG!"

Never let guys like him erode your faith, filling your broken heart with nothing but hate It's a waste to wait for the one who's never even been worth it Don't take the bait He's up for another round of the same old game No more drowning yourself in such awful shame He's been the only one to blame Let the patience be the virtue You've always known what to do He's been nothing but a mere distraction to you Stay strong, don't ever let him make you sing the same old blues... R. (Jakarta, 4/8...

05 September 2016, 07:51 AM
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"COLD..."

Some people would very much like to return to you just to bring back that fiery sensation and the cold afterglow Prepare your armour Stand your ground Whether you'll survive or not You still don't know If chaos ever revisits, don't flinch, not even a bit Keep your composure That's an order! R. (Jakarta, 3/9/2016 - 6:05 pm)

04 September 2016, 07:29 AM
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"THE DAY I ALMOST DIED WAS THE DAY I STILL WANTED TO LIVE"

I remember my birthday when I was in elementary school. I think I was about nine or ten. Some friends greeted me. However, there was this group of mean classmates who were chanting cruelly: "Selamat ulang tahun, Ruby. Semoga segera meninggal." (Happy birthday, Ruby. We hope you'll die.) They did that over and over until our head of the class, Pak Huda, had to stop them. He didn't yell at them, though. He cut in with that forced cheerfulness in his voice: "Selamat ulang tahun, Ruby. Semoga seg...

04 September 2016, 06:42 AM
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"THIS CRAZY WORLD"

The world is going crazy What else can surprise me? More drama and disasters strike More trauma and compassion that lacks Where do we go from here? Is The Hour already near? Do we share the same fear? A lot of things are growing unclear What's my role for today? Can I still save anyone anyway? Will there be a solution? Can we avoid more destruction? Hopefully, we don't give up now There's got to be a way somehow! R. (Jakarta, 26/8/2016 - 2:42 pm)

01 September 2016, 07:31 AM
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"BETTER IN SEPTEMBER?"

So far, these are the things that have been on my mind, even before September is here: 1. Writing deadlines - all at once! 2. Hazel Eyes' departure on September 23. Yay for one and tears for two. R.

31 August 2016, 07:12 PM
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"A LOVE TAKEN FOR GRANTED?"

We took each other for granted Back then, every thing felt jaded We were too busy with our own chaotic minds, not even to find a little time to assess the whole situation No room for real talk; just scrambling around for solutions anything to reduce and slow the pace of the ongoing problems We've taken each other for granted either grown numb, apart, or exhausted Sadness feels more like a distraction We've kept quiet over what really needs to be mentioned "It's okay," we'd tell each other an...

27 August 2016, 11:21 AM
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"A NEW MONTH, A NEW PLACE, AND FRIENDS WHO COME AND GO"

Alright, August is almost over. September is approaching soon. I'm getting even busier and unsure whether I'll still have the time to write in here. Wait, scratch the last part, please. I have to make the time. There's a difference between writing for the job with doing that out of love. I'm moving to a new place. After the raise of the rent, I realised that I couldn't stay here anymore. I couldn't afford it. Plus, I've got more work involving going from one far place to another. The transp...

27 August 2016, 10:13 AM
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"THE SAME OLD CALM BEFORE THE FAMILIAR STORM"

The ghost of your past has delivered the news, giving you a heads-up What's that all about? What does he want this time? For long, you've drawn the line said your last goodbye No more those useless tears in your eyes This time, never let him make you cry Hopefully, he won't stay long No more second chances gone wrong You've been strong Without him, you still carry on Fear him no more Don't open that door If he ever dares barge in, do yourself a favour: shut the door right to his face, befo...

17 August 2016, 11:50 AM
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"IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY...AND I AM HAPPY!"

My dear sweet Hazel Eyes, I remember when you first asked me about what I’d like to do for my birthday, about two years ago. I shrugged, telling you that I didn’t feel like it. You frowned and wondered why, so I told you this: “I’ve been asking for the same gift for the past four years and God hasn’t given me that yet.” You’d looked so sad that I instantly felt bad. I didn’t mean to; I’m sorry. You said that there was nothing wrong about celebrating my birthday, no matter what. I st...

17 August 2016, 12:46 AM
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"I WAS AN ONLINE BULLY"

It is not something easy to bring up again, even after about four years or so. Looking back, I am not proud of what I did and I still have regrets. I have to admit this, though: I was an online bully. How did that happen? You might be wondering or scoffing: “Who has never been one since the internet era, even for just once in their lives?” Well, even if it is true, this does not make me feel any better. Looking at how most people have been trolling @Awkarin online ...

05 August 2016, 05:33 AM
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"HUMANS OF THIS EARTH"

I am not a chase I am not your conquest I don't need to impress Being me is what I know best I'm not putting you on a test by playing hard to get, making you second guess I shouldn't be obligated to put your mind to rest Never expect me to be flawless Sit down Treat me like an equal human Don't just talk; listen You're not always right, like I'm not always wrong Stop acting like you're always on a hunt, so we can start having a more decent conversation despite being different R. (Jakarta...

04 August 2016, 05:19 AM
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"THE LIT SQUAD"

Alright, you might be wondering what I'm talking about. The Lit Squad? Well, this is nothing like what Taylor Swift owns. (Not like I care, though.) I've come up with it and some of my friends in that same club seem to like it too. The Lit Squad, or The Literature Squad, is originally named The Couchsurfing Writers' Club. It's already got quite plenty of branches, like the one in Jakarta and Bandung here. What do we do? We gather once a week. We discuss writing topics and throw writing cha...

03 August 2016, 04:29 PM
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"FROM THE WORDPLAY WARRIOR"

If you ask me, I'm not really sure how I've got to nickname myself The Wordplay Warrior. I'm a poet, a fiction writer, a freelance translator, and a part-time English teacher. How do I manage my time? That's always interesting. Sometimes I can, sometimes it's hard. However, I'm not going to give up. R.

03 August 2016, 12:05 PM
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