"THE TRANSITION"

I know what I am; I know what you are For long we've been friends, honest from heart to heart I know what scares you I've been afraid too We're in transition which will lead us to a new direction You might see these tears in my eyes, threatening to fall at every sharp, drawn breath I can't lie You're right; the world out there is full of nasty threats Worry not about me, just like I've always let you be We may not always see eye-to-eye, but please, don't ever let this friendship die What ...

22 July 2015, 04:00 AM
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"WHISPER"

Is this just a dream? You came to me out of the blue It's been a while since I last saw you Is this real? I've got a feeling My mind's still reeling I love hearing your voice especially when you finally made that choice I want to see your face Will I get to be in your warm embrace? Those were the words I'd long to hear as you gently whisper in my ear Suddenly it became crystal-clear I'm meant to be here You are the reason for this smile Stay, not just for a while I'd like to hear you say ...

16 July 2015, 09:29 AM
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"AND THE RELIGIOUS AND SPIRITUAL JOURNEY GOES ON..."

Who says that after Ramadan, everything stops? We still need to pray. We still need to work things out much harder than before. Make more effort to become better. Improve our lives. Create progress. The journey doesn't stop here. It never does, for as long as one lives. It all depends on one's strong will. An old friend once said: "We often forget that This Holy Month of Ramadan is actually a religious and spiritual boot-camp. The big question is what we'll be doing for the other eleven mon...

16 July 2015, 07:34 AM
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"TO THE OWNER OF RAMADAN (2)"

I've been away too long I've done too many things wrong Where do I begin? How will my story end? How did it all come to this? I've been blinded by the worldly bliss I've been led astray I hope I'm not worsening by the day Do I still deserve another chance, or will this become my final stance? I am slowly being consumed by creeping fear, 'though I rarely show my tears? This is supposed to be my time for repentance, yet I keep letting myself be occupied by distractions God, will you ever forg...

13 July 2015, 05:07 AM
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"COMING HOME FOR EID..."

I'm going to be off the grid for a while. I'm coming home for Eid-ul-Fitr celebration. We're having people over, families and friends, just like every year. As usual, I'll be helping Ma with the house chores at home. I'll be playing with the kids too (my nephews and niece), which is nice. I'm still writing, but the postings will probably have to wait. Still got lots to do and stories to write. So, when's the Eid? July 17 - 18. R.

12 July 2015, 11:38 AM
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"ABOUT BEING VENGEFUL" (The Poetry)

What do you want? There's no rewind That button doesn't exist in this life No repeat for what's already been done Time to move on No point in dwelling on what's long gone Some can still be rebuilt but how willing are you to keep working on it? You're more than welcome to keep coming back walking down that memory lane, staying on that track But life never waits on you There are more to do Why the sad face? Why keep putting them in such disgrace? No mortals are that patient; they too grow co...

10 July 2015, 11:51 AM
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"ABOUT BEING VENGEFUL"

Some say this is many Scorpios' unfortunate trait. With their temperamental moody side, this is expected. Despite their loyalty to the people they love - like a wolf to their pack - they tend to be very vengeful once they get hurt (especially really badly.) It doesn't mean that they're completely unforgiving, though. They usually can still and will forgive you, but that happens after you have suffered a great deal first. It's all about getting even. Sounds scary, huh? I know it's not a good ...

10 July 2015, 07:34 AM
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"THE CITY OF SMALL WORLDS"

I live in a city of small worlds, each with its own wonders Some feel worse, some may feel better I've lived in this city of small worlds ever since I was born aware of its ever-changing description even since I was a little girl This city of small worlds, I can see its growing partitions invisible, yet segregation slowly occurs leaving each world blinded towards one another by such self-exclusions I am caught in the middle in this city of small worlds My self-confidence and assurance are ...

08 July 2015, 08:19 AM
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"FOREVER CONFLICTED (SO HELP ME, GOD!)"

What have I been doing lately? This is still Ramadan, thankfully. However, time flies. Soon Ramadan is leaving again. I don't know if I'll ever get that same luck again catching up with Ramadan...at least one more time... And I haven't done (good) enough with my prayers. I guess I never will, no matter how hard I try. It's not that I don't want to; it's more of the uncertainty. It's not the confidence issue. We can never be too sure. In fact, feeling overly confident about this may get us i...

08 July 2015, 05:14 AM
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"THE GHOST OF HIM"

I felt the ghost of him this morning, as I responded angrily to some nasty comments Bullies are everywhere They’re always there I’m sure you’ve sensed the ghost of him too all from the words I used I am your most distinctive reminder of someone you’ll miss forever “Why did you have to be so angry?” I’m sure that’s what she’d wanted to say “You sound so much like him, always have to have the last words with everybody.” “But Mummy, I’m not afraid,” I calmly said. “Because I know damn well th...

06 July 2015, 05:33 AM
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"FORGET HIM NOT"

Not only my best friends, a lot of people I know have said this same old thing - over and over again: "God works in mysterious ways." Indeed. I've always believed that and experienced it many times. I'm thankful for them. Still, I tend to forget, just like anyone who believes in God. Isn't this world a beautiful place? It's so beautiful that we often forget that it's temporary. This life is so short. Nothing lasts forever here. In fact, forever only belongs to God... There are always so...

03 July 2015, 09:39 AM
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"THE MYSTERY ME?"

I am the mystery, 'though you think you can tell something about me Well, what do you know? How far can your knowledge go? I am the oddity Why can't I be like everybody? You wonder with such a question, while forming an opinion Who am I? Oh, do you really want to know about me that much? I can tell by that look in your eyes, although you don't say or do a lot You look at me as if I am the creature of hell You think you know me that well Perhaps you're right, but I'm not wasting my energy o...

30 June 2015, 04:25 PM
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"THE RELOCATION"

I'll make it short and simple, since I've been too exhausted lately. Hazel Eyes has left that house and been living close to me again...for now. R.

30 June 2015, 01:17 PM
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"TO DIGITAL NARCISSISTS"

Be blunt with yourself for once You still believe you're the centre of this universe, displaying your negative emotions, expecting them to feel bad about you or even worse Be cool; no need to be cruel You're going nowhere with your overplayed melodrama None of us need to be such wasted fools even when we can post anything on social media Stay down to earth Perhaps you've just thought too highly of yourself Truth can sometimes hurt, but perhaps you do need a slap in the face The world doesn...

26 June 2015, 11:22 AM
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"A SHORT ENCOUNTER WITH THAT VERY FAMILIAR FACE..."

Sometimes the past can come back to you in so many ways. It only takes one day in your present life, a short encounter with that very familiar face. It was completely out of the blue. I was walking down Setiabudi One alone one afternoon when there he was, right in front of me with a young woman walking next to him. When our eyes met, the three of us stopped and I couldn't believe my eyes: My God, you look so much like him! "Hi," he said to me, smiling as we shook hands. I smiled back, notin...

26 June 2015, 08:36 AM
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"LABELS = PRICE TAGS?"

People treat labels like price tags They don't just put them on designer's shoes and bags They slap them on other things too, like animals and even each other They decide on what or who is better People put so much trust and faith on those labels, judging on what's worthy and who's more credible Sometimes they're not even aware of labels on what they (choose to) wear People treating labels as price tags? They often make this world get seriously whacked It feels a lot worse than a personal, ...

22 June 2015, 07:41 AM
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"GETTING OUT OF CHAOS..."

God has been so kind to me despite my foolishness! So, the owner has agreed to return some of the rent money. I still feel bad, but I know I don't have a choice. Hazel Eyes can't stay there anymore, not after what happened. He won't. The looks those people in that neighbourhood give him...the unvocalised prejudice. I've got to get him out of there. Fast. By the end of this month the latest. I also need to get myself a stable job with more money first. That way, I can help myself, my family...

21 June 2015, 04:57 PM
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"THE 3 AM MEAL"

She wakes up at three enjoying silence so eerie preparing her unusually early breakfast noting things down about what to do first It’s Ramadan Fasting time on The Holy Month What will she do? Will she remain true? Just let her do her best May God help her to pass all the tests so she can put all her worries, fears, and doubts to rest... R. (Jakarta, 18/6/2015 – 5:00 am)

20 June 2015, 03:22 PM
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“SIGNS YOU SHOULD STOP ACTING CHILDISH AND CAVING INTO YOUR ALREADY ‘BLOATED’ EGO”

Let’s just face it; we all have our weaknesses. None of us are ever perfect here (although some may think of themselves differently.) We may be physically grown-ups on the outside, but deep down? Well, let this be our own retorical question, okay? We don’t even need to debate on this. It all depends on how willing we are to accept that yes, this life isn’t just all about us. We don’t always get what we want and we just have to deal with that. So, what are the signs that you should stop acti...

20 June 2015, 01:21 AM
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"TO THE OWNER OF RAMADAN"

I've been thinking quite a lot lately about what it means to live as 'me' I know You've always been watching even when I'm not good at pretending that I can get away with everything I hope I am still welcomed to be in This Holy Month Please forgive me although I'm never sure how good I can always be... R. (Jakarta, 15/6/2015 - 1:05 pm)

16 June 2015, 10:08 AM
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