"THE NIGHT THAT OPENED ME UP"

That had been one hell of a getaway. No wonder they call it The Island of Gods. It did feel like a paradise to me, eventhough temporary. It was the place where you could relax for a while, forgetting about reality behind you. Once in a while, you feel like doing something different. You know, like breaking the rules or going off your principles. Well, just a bit. It was a breezy late afternoon. My best friend Hazel Eyes and I were meeting up with his friend and former roommate – who always...

19 April 2015, 12:42 PM
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"OUR LAST SUPPER: A MOTHER'S CONFESSION"

Welcome. Come on in. I know what you’re up to. You want to know, just like everybody else. You want to know why when you look at me. Why did I do that? Why did an ordinary woman like me do such a thing? Everyone is still talking about it. It’s still the hottest news – a waiter from that restaurant...murdered. It didn’t take long for you guys to figure me out, eh? I get it. You all want to know why, so let me tell you a story. This is about a boy named Billy – and our last supper together. ...

18 April 2015, 04:23 PM
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"HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOMMY!"

Let’s forget our real problems for a while. Walk these familiar streets with our smiles. I know reality can be demanding. Let’s face it: some people might always be irritating. Let’s talk of something lighter; probably about the weather. It’s been a while since we last hung out. What have you been doing about? Do you miss him so much? Yeah, so do I...a lot. Let’s hope he’s at peace there, and he knows that we’ll always care. I may not always be around, but please remember, my heart is fore...

10 April 2015, 08:25 AM
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"WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?"

What are you afraid of? You’ve always convinced me that this is love, yet you never let me be the person I am meant to be. What are you afraid of? You say you love me for me, yet you want me to change my personality. Are you crazy? What are you afraid of? Really, what is it? Are you scared that I might grow out of you, bit by bit? Oh, I think I know what you’re actually afraid of. Your insecurity has shown me enough. That’s why you always find me so tough. I think deep down, you’re just to...

08 April 2015, 03:18 AM
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“A TRIBUTE TO JAKARTA’S COUCHSURFING WRITERS’ CLUB”

I’ve wanted to write something special for you guys as a small tribute, so here it goes: I am thankful that I’ve found this amazingly creative club called The Couchsurfing Writers’ Club in Jakarta last year. It started when I went to a rock concert with my colleague Lies and she introduced me to her friend Michele. Michele later invited me to attend this club gathering once she’d learned that I loved writing. However, it had taken me a while before I finally turned up to see them all at my ...

07 April 2015, 12:27 PM
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"THE SWEET PRINCE OF THE ISOLATED CASTLE"

The Sweet Prince has found his princess. It is believed that she is the best. There is no second guess. All there is to do is make it last. Let God do the rest. His eyes stray on The Ex-Guardian of The Isolated Castle, wondering if she remains the lonely soul. But The Ex-Guardian just smiles, silently congratulating him through the light in her eyes. “I am not in endless misery,” that’s what she says. “Solitude has never been the killer for me. I am still living up my days.” “Let them say ...

03 April 2015, 05:34 AM
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"AFTER A YEAR OF LIVING ON MY OWN..."

It has been a year since I moved out of my family’s home. How is it going so far? It’s going great. It’s probably not much of an issue to some people in the world, but it is still quite one in this country despite the many practitioners here – most especially in urban areas. It’s even a much bigger issue if you happen to be a single woman. No kidding. No matter what you do, people will always judge you. Whatever choices that you make, they will always question and scrutinize you. In other ...

02 April 2015, 07:29 PM
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"YOURS TRULY, YOUR WARRIOR PRINCESS"

I would like to give you the world, but I don’t even own it. None of us do. Even so, you’re one of my VIPs in this universe, more than I’m just one of your kids. I wish I could do more, just for you. Don’t worry. Just believe that I am still strong enough for this. I have to hide all my mental scars again, so you’ll let me be the warrior against reality’s deadliest kiss. I’ll pretend that I don’t feel the pain. Let’s just hope the storm’s not taking too long. I’ll just fight even harder for...

30 March 2015, 02:41 AM
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"DANNY AND DELLA : NOVEMBER 2014"

DANNY: “So, Danny – tell me.” Danny looked at the curly-haired, stocky woman sitting in front of him. “Tell you what?” he challenged. The woman just stared back calmly, ready to take notes out of his statement. “Tell me about November 2014.” Danny sighed. He knew this was coming. Every time dr.Anna Nolan came, she always asked that question. Danny always gave her the same answer. He had to protect Della. His twin sister needed her. “I’ve told you what I know,” he said, gritting his teet...

29 March 2015, 05:19 PM
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"ALL OVER THE PLACE..."

How can you tell when your mind is actually all over the place? For me, I am afraid a lot. Like, for example – I have written an entry before and ended up deleting / not posting it. Why? I just didn’t feel like it. That’s all – as simple as that. So, what am I going to write about now? I’m worried about a lot of things lately, so I’ll try to push away other issues that don’t really matter. I don’t need any drama that has no relevance to me whatsoever. However, I am worried about my life n...

29 March 2015, 03:54 PM
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"I COULD BE (IF YOU LET ME)"

I could be the one you’ve always wanted me to be. If you think I’m pretty, I’ll make you feel happy. It’s all so easy. It depends on how you treat me. I could be your best friend or worst enemy. Never think of yourself ugly, because I despise your self-pity. Why feel sorry? Why won’t you realise that you are worthy? I’ve had it with your negative energy. That’s not attractive for the world to see. Why give in to your insecurity? Just set your spirit free, so for you – I could be the one wit...

23 March 2015, 07:53 AM
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"GIRLFIGHT 2: REALLY?"

Do I have time for this fight? No. I’m not taking any sides. We’re already way too old for this childish show. Do I have the energy for this fight? Why try to suck me into your negativity? I don’t care who’s wrong or right. For once, is it difficult for you to be happy? Do I have them all for this? Really? I think I’ll give this one a miss. I don’t feel like wasting my time and energy. I don’t think I’m good enough to be heard. You’re always right in your perfect little world. That’s why I...

19 March 2015, 08:39 AM
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"CINDERELLA DREAMS VS. MY REALITY"

Out of randomness, I agreed to watch the latest version of “Cinderella” (directed by.Kenneth Brannagh) last Sunday night with my best friend. Aside from the fact that it wasn’t the type of movie that I normally choose to watch, we’d cracked up laughing through it. It was unexpectedly comical. I found the characters were mostly more...humanized, even The Evil Stepmother (brilliantly played by Cate Blanchett). They tried to make Cinderella (Lily James) look not as helpless when – in the end – ...

19 March 2015, 03:01 AM
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"JUST BACK OFF!"

Time flies faster. Some things get better; others worse. Should we curse the unfairness of this world? Well, it’s just life. Why fret and cry? Stick to your decisions. Make up your mind. Don’t give in to confusion. All will be fine. If not, so what? Don’t take it all too hard. You have enough guts. Let them say whatever they like. They have no rights to lecture you on how to live your life. You’re old enough to decide. They may say they care, but scolding you once and it’s all enough. They ...

16 March 2015, 04:40 PM
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"JUST BACK OFF!"

Time flies faster. Some things get better; others worse. Should we curse the unfairness of this world? Well, it’s just life. Why fret and cry? Stick to your decisions. Make up your mind. Don’t give in to confusion. All will be fine. If not, so what? Don’t take it all too hard. You have enough guts. Let them say whatever they like. They have no rights to lecture you on how to live your life. You’re old enough to decide. They may say they care, but scolding you once and it’s all enough. They ...

16 March 2015, 04:40 PM
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"JUST BACK OFF!"

Time flies faster. Some things get better; others worse. Should we curse the unfairness of this world? Well, it’s just life. Why fret and cry? Stick to your decisions. Make up your mind. Don’t give in to confusion. All will be fine. If not, so what? Don’t take it all too hard. You have enough guts. Let them say whatever they like. They have no rights to lecture you on how to live your life. You’re old enough to decide. They may say they care, but scolding you once and it’s all enough. They ...

16 March 2015, 04:40 PM
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"THESE HARD TIMES: KEEP THE FAITH!"

I think we both have been ambushed. Reality has once again challenged us with many, like it often does. Can we beat the odds? Can we overcome these obstacles? I’d like to be your superhero once again, even when I’m not always strong. I’ll try not to give in to the worry and pain. We’ve always been the best of friends. “Keep the faith,” you always say. You know I’ll fight to keep you here any other day. Hope there’ll be away. May He always keep that smile upon your face. Stay here. I know I...

13 March 2015, 06:36 PM
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"A LOVE LETTER FROM THE EX-GUARDIAN OF THE ISOLATED CASTLE"

To my two Little Princes and Little Prince: How are you, my little darlings? I hope the three of you are doing fine and always happy. I am glad that I finally met you again last Sunday. You are growing so fast that it is hard for me to keep up. Honestly, I feel so old now but that is just unavoidable. That’s just life. I am so happy that I could also hold the three of you in my arms and kiss your cheeks and foreheads. Your beautiful smiles have always warmed my heart. I love you all. I am ...

13 March 2015, 04:45 PM
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"MUSIC OF MY HEART"

“I’m not putting them on.” I looked at the hearing aids in his hand, a birthday gift from me. Then I gazed up at him in wonder...and disappointment. “Why, Adrian?” “I just don’t want to.” Still, he put the hearing aids back into the box and gazed back at me. He looked so serious, still holding the box in his hand. “Are you...offended?” I asked him carefully. I even spoke very slowly, just so that he could read my lips. Adrian smiled as he shook his head. His dark eyes softened. “No,” he...

13 March 2015, 04:44 AM
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"AT THE CROSSROAD...AGAIN..."

After a year of working on a different, weekday job, I find myself at the same crossroad...once again. A lot of other things have happened too that I hope I can keep track of all. Right, I know. As usual, this is going to be long. Time flies so fast. A year ago, I attended and sang at my two friends Mark and Tiara’s wedding on March 1. Now they’re going to be parents soon! They’re going to have a baby boy this year. And I am happy for them. Really. They have already invited me to stay with...

10 March 2015, 10:25 AM
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