Finally got the answers to my questions. He is leaving her. But for someone else. He didn't chose me. It hurts like a bitch and I don't know how to mend my broken heart. It sucks so badly. I'm happy you found happiness. I was just wishing and hoping and praying it was me you wanted. But i got my answers. You shattered my heart. Its going to take a long time before the pieces can be made whole again. It will take me a long time to trust again. To be able to open up to another guy. Thank you fo...

31 May 2014, 05:23 PM
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"If It Makes You Happy"

I've been long, a long way from here Put on a poncho, played for mosquitoes, And drank til I was thirsty again We went searching through thrift store jungles Found Geronimo's rifle, Marilyn's shampoo And Benny Goodman's corset and pen Well, o.k. I made this up I promised you I'd never give up If it makes you happy It can't be that bad If it makes you happy Then why the hell are you so sad You get down, real low down You listen to Coltrane, derail your own train Well who hasn't been there b...

29 May 2014, 11:28 PM
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You made your choices. I don't know if your scared to leave. I don't know. I do know that you turn my world upside down. A simple message from you makes my day better. I wish you would chose me. I wish you would love me. I wish you wanted me like I want you. I know we would be happy together. I wish I didn't love you like I do. I can't stop thinking about you. I can't get you out of my mind. All I can see is the way you used to look at me. The way you would kiss me. I have never felt anything...

29 May 2014, 10:54 PM
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Today started a lil rough. I had this very, very, very weird dream. It was so real. I woke up in tears as my dream broke my heart. I just don't understand. I don't understand why you honestly talk to me. What kills me is that when I'm doing good, you come along and turn my lil world upside down. You send me mixed signal all the time. I don't know what you're thinking all the time. I wish I knew. I wish you would be straight with me. I wish you would just make up your mind. I honestly miss you...

29 May 2014, 10:26 PM
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