Today the boy who isn't allowed to love me grabbed my face and got really close to me. He held me in his hands and looked me in the eyes and i swore i thought we were going to kiss. we stayed like this for a really long time and I have no idea why. this is my dirty little secret because I cannot tell anyone. especially my besy friend
Why do I do things that I know are going to hurt me in the long run? sometimes I just feel so indestructible able but I still have a sense of mortality and social awareness.
You like challenges but there is a difference between chasing a dream and accepting that there are just some things that you will never obtain. You have to learn the difference between having friendly competition with yourself and pushing yourself to a breaking point. You can't make him like you And you will never like Celery no matter how hard you try. You can study all night and math still won't make any sense. You can hate every inch of you and try your hardest to fix something that isn...
A father's love is very important. It is the first love a girl ever has. A father is the first man a girl looks up to . He is the one that shows his daughter how women should be treated. Without this bond. Without this love a daughter never learns. She will be sexual active before she is ready to be. She will seek approval in other men. She'll fall for boys who aren't nice to her because she doesn't know it any other way. She'll think yelling is normal because she grew up in a household full ...
I said " I don't want to ruin the moment but do you still like that other girl?" you didn't look me in the eyes but you shook your head and said " a little.eh, not really." I said " because you know I like you. I'm not saying you have to like me back but i also don't want to feel like I'm being used." you promised me that I wasn't and kissed me. I believe you. I think. Maybe. I asked you if it was just because we had just hooked up. You said no . MY lips feel raw from kissing you for so long....
how can you hold my hand and say her name?
perfect day. wrong boy. well right boy. wrong timing.
I've been doing some hardcore research in order to figure out when this all started. I thought it started on August 11th at a friends birthday party but as i look through this blog i am realizing that I've been feeling this way for a while. The only difference is that it wasn't everyday. It started sometime in may or June but it happened rarely. Then it happened weekly and then out of nowhere it happened and i just never got out of it.
I don't want to be a green eyed bitch anymore... but i am !
Honestly i shouldn't like you. There's no reason to. I've known you for so long and never before thought of you this way. Because there is nothing to see. You're younger and mean and barely taller than me and you're my brothers friend, and don't pay attention in school, and YOU'RE FUCKING MEAN TO ME. IM not going to lie. It hurts to know that you're nice to her. I think that bothers me more than anything else. Not because you're over me. Not because once again i am lonely. But because you are...
I asked him to come in my room and he said he likes someone else. Now I'm embarrassed, sad , and horny.
Ok, so I hang out with this guy every day. we go on dates and romantic walks but I know secretly he wishes I was her and plot twist...i wish he was her too.
I'm a bad person. Im letting a person who cant fall for me... fall in love with me.
No one understands. I can't wait till i can be left alone one day. I feel alone anyway
I told my brothers friend that i don't like him just so we can go back to hooking up. why must i be so sexually frustrated all the time?
I don't want to think about you anymore.
Ok so I have a crush on you. I don't know why i do but I do. I am officially admitting to it. I think you are cute and funny, but very immature and annoying. You take cool pictures and like to draw just like me. You are my brothers little friend and i like you. I guess i missed my chance because you use to like me and now i like you ...and of course you dont like me. so why did you kiss me? why did you say you loved me ? I don't want to feel this was anymore because it only brings me sadness...
i start a new school tmr. fuck
When I think about the person I was V.S the person I am , a lot has changed. Yet when I think about the person I am V.S the person I want to be... a lot has to change.
im so tired of this circle.