its okay if you don't want me. I barely want myself.
news things. im excited
keep holding on...
the room feels small and i a suddenly realizing that my life is not what i have been pretending it to be.
7 year difference... oops
I forced myself to experience something new. New isn't as scary as I thought after all.
I saw the most beautiful sunset today and thought to myself how could I ever have wanted to die when life is so amazing.
all i do is disassociate. i no longer know how to survive.
One day I'll love another just like I've never had an other.
You don't own me.But do I have to remember that or do you?
Social encounters are horrible.
I'll be there for you while no one is there for me.
Always there for everyone but no ones there for me.
Always feeling lonely but never alone.
I feel numb. and lonely . and sad. and confused. and nothing happened to make me feel this way. I think I'm broken.
I'm calling my ex as I am writing this. I don't know why but I am. Update: He didn't answer. Oh well.
Not all days are that bad. which makes me feel even crazier.
I asked my mom if i can start going to therapy again.