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Numb

I'm tired of writing about the same thing repetitively, I'm tired of watching from a distance, I'm tired of acting like nothing has happened, I'm tired. I carry around this heavy weight on my chest and it makes me feel drained all the time. I used to have the energy to do things like play the guitar, do my homework, stay out in the living room and participate as a "daughter". I used to have the energy to get some fresh air and go for a run. But now, all I ever do is lock myself in the room an...

23 April 2014, 04:20 AM
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Last Two Years

I honestly haven't been quite okay for a while. Well, since when was I ever okay anyway? I'm getting tired of not having the energy to do something that would prevent me from feeling like this. The feeling where you just don't know what to do about the things you've been going through, or what you've actually gone through. The feeling where you just want to run away from everything, just to start over. The feeling where you just want to be left alone for a while. I've actually thought abou...

13 April 2014, 11:51 AM
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Beyond Reach

I've gotten used to getting a message from you every day and every night. Letting me know where you are and how your day is going. And that you'd ask me to stay up a little bit later until you get home so we could talk. And that I'd fall asleep as you read to me. I've gotten used to you putting me to sleep. I've gotten used to us, talking everyday without getting annoyed or bored. Because we both found someone to actually talk to without the conversation getting dull or dry. We both always ha...

07 April 2014, 06:10 PM
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Will You Remember Me 20 Years From Now?

It's been months since we've passed the times where things were the way it used to be. And I can't stop thinking about everything you've said to me, cause it's written on my heart and on my sleeves for everyone to see. It runs through my head every now and then, and once it does, I cringe because now, you made it seem like it was a lie. And I keep wondering if you just said those things just because it was everything I just wanted to hear. For so many years, I've doubted myself with people lo...

07 April 2014, 06:12 AM
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