We went house hunting today. I was very excited for that, and we may have found the absolute perfect house, other than the fact that it is still in the city we're trying to get out of. My UNI situation is not looking very good. My professor is causing hell and making things way too complicated, and I may not even qualify for entrance anymore. I am beyond angry because I deserve to go this year and this dent in the road is making me pissed. I don't just have to face physical difficulties, but ...

31 May 2014, 08:31 AM
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The idea of holding the fate of your lover's life in your hands is a delicate thing: if only you could erase their memory if they were in agonizing misery of slowly reaching the peak of insanity and have them never remember you or allow them to slowly go insane and retain the memories, what is the right passage to take? As if to let them drown, to slowly see the eyes turn into the insides of their skull: or dare to never have them near you again and grasp into the arms of another lover. I thi...

30 May 2014, 10:16 AM
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I had a dream that I was some kind of spy or something, perhaps an actress, and that I was a princess. I guess I had found the person whom could feel all of my darkest desires, and at some point, I was in France. I just walked in to the absolutely GORGEOUS hotel of .. who knows where. I just remember a lot of lights and a lot of love. Maybe that's what my life is meant to be like?

30 May 2014, 01:53 AM
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I feel quite irritated today. There are too many humans on this planet, good GOD. But I'm researching more in the mortuary arts and my boyfriend is supportive of it :0) I hope he lets me his books on corpses (or I may still need to steal it). His creepiness makes me happy; its like no matter how weird I am, he out-weirds me! <3 That's a bit cheesy, but its fine. Anyway, my pain is getting a little weird. I just want this neck brace off and take a shower. Just to walk around like I used to...

29 May 2014, 06:05 AM
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I hope that When I get to see you again Your heart will fill With all the love in my eyes

25 May 2014, 08:50 AM
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I was able to get washed and I'm watching Oddities today. Hopefully I'll be able to get new makeup this week as well :) I'm feeling rather OK with myself today.

24 May 2014, 08:08 AM
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I'm guessing this is God's way of telling me to slow down- and maybe its best because I can sort a lot of things out and really, really feel settled and get my life together. My relationship, financial status, and physical strength should all be fixed and leveled by that point and I'll be able to give it my all and do everything to my full potential. We'll see what will happen.

23 May 2014, 07:20 AM
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I am starting to get into the more depressive mode of this cycle. Its starting to hit me that I'm not even halfway through this process, if its even possible that next week will be halfway. I'm getting antsy, and I want my life back. All I get are nightmares, flashbacks, and boredom. If anyone were to write on a classic case of depression, I'd be the definition. I miss the sunset breeze through my Wednesday Addams braids at the cemetery. I want to look into the face of unfamiliar friends in ...

21 May 2014, 08:58 AM
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21 May 2014, 08:58 AM
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I had to talk to the DSPS advisor today about the remainder of the semester. I got the new I was anticipating- that it may be really difficult for me to finish the rest of it easily. I'm not thinking that realistically I'd be able to finish all three classes- if I can even finish any of them at all. I think tomorrow I may try working on the Keats Study Guide and eventually the Bibliography Project. I only have TWELVE days left, and this accident has caused so many problems. People complain ab...

20 May 2014, 05:57 AM
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Depeche Mode puts me in a freaky- weird mood: In a good kind of way

19 May 2014, 07:29 AM
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Inhumane Humanity

There is a stench Of humanity in the air People see humanity As a word of encouragement As a word of hope Of love Of peace But humanity is beyond those things Its beyond war and famine Religion Faith Lack of Humanity is of self Of me Of comfort And of others who seek out the comfort of things like me Humanity is me Me, Me, Me What is it I want and what I want from me What could I possibly want from the world What can I suck out of this Earth before departing it Humanity is not ha...

19 May 2014, 07:05 AM
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Depeche Mode- the boys that keep me coming back for more.

19 May 2014, 06:52 AM
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R* tried to call today. I decided to ignore and, and I've had R* and S* try to message me via Facebook. I'm not really havin any of their bs anymore because, really, what's the point of it all? I know my road is a little clearer now, and having those two road blocks just don't do any good for me. I'm going to let some light in, shed on some self- reflection of the TYPES of people I'd like to have in my life. I hope Travis can introduce me to these types of people, and I also hope to find thes...

19 May 2014, 06:07 AM
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MacGarlene Cemetery in Ireland.

19 May 2014, 03:12 AM
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Magnolia Christmas Tree! SUPER ADORABLE!

19 May 2014, 03:07 AM
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Look how cute they are!

19 May 2014, 02:58 AM
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Scotland Edinburgh Cemetery.

19 May 2014, 01:04 AM
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19 May 2014, 12:51 AM
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I feel completely terrible today- but I'm still optimistic. Physically, I'm a wreck- my thumb and stomach hurt so much. I dreamt I was a key note speaker at a conference, so I guess that counts for something. I miss downtown- simple coffee, books, and time to myself. I'm just trying to be at ease and get some peace with myself. Tomorrow determines what will happen for the rest of the semester, and my anticipation is growing. I'm just hanging in there as best as I can; this diary thing is real...

19 May 2014, 12:44 AM
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