finals. fml

finals are a week away and im seriously dying!!!!! im sore from hiking, im sleepy all the time, and my poli sci class has me stress the fuck out. june 17 come faster.

03 June 2014, 03:54 AM
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I miss you, I miss you everyday. But, i cant talk to you anymore. I cant allow you to ruin me. It is sooo weird not knowing of you. We use to talk every day. I felt like i was the only person who really knew you. It was my choice though. You hurt me so much, i know this is whats best.

03 June 2014, 01:37 AM
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Mistake?

I think I made a mistake in allowing him to kiss me. I made a mistake in allowing him to hang out with. I can never trust him. So there's this girl who works with him who he's always tell me about. Supposedly she's crazy about him. Literally always mad when he helps out women customers...but I know Trinidad. He's flirtatious. It surprised me when he told me he didn't even really talk to her. I know him..it didn't sound like him. Yeah there's always been girls all over him but I know that he's...

18 May 2014, 08:22 AM
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yesterday.

So I went to dinner with him. It went well. I mean things are never awkward with us. We went to this Spanish restaurant we use to go to when we were still together. I asked about Ana moving in.. well not just out of no where. It was more of a " so have you found a new roommate?". He told me about her. I knew he would. He said she wasn't moving in.. he considered it. Its between 3 people. I guess she said her and her boyfriend broke up so she need a place to live. She lived with her bf at her ...

17 May 2014, 06:23 AM
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A for annoying.

So today my friend Val texted me asking me if I still talked to him (meaning my ex bf). When someone asks me if I’ve talked to him I know they have something bad to tell me about him. I was right. She told me Ana told her that she was going to be his new roommate. Ugh. Let me tell you about Ana. We use to work together before. So did he. We all worked together at some retails store. That’s where we met. Ana is this girl who apparently had a boyfriend, lived with him, but was always being a ...

14 May 2014, 07:05 PM
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I thought i had made it clear to him that I longer wanted to talk to him. But like always....he reaches out to me and I eventually do talk to him. I dont know if it's just me being stupid or me wanting closure. I mean how much closure do I need? The one thing I absolutely hate is that he acts like nothing ever happened...he acts normal. like if everything were perfect between us. Like if one day I can just wake up and be completely cool with him as friends. I don't understand what he wants. I...

14 May 2014, 05:22 AM
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forgiveness.

Can you ever really forgive someone who completely fucking broke you. How do you forgive someone who told you he was in love with both you and someone else? Is it possible to really move on from that? I learned to love him. I loved him more than I loved my self. It was bad. I started to put him before everything. Everything he did that made him seem like a bad guy... I would make excuses for. Like oh...he can't hang out because hes too busy with school. I didn't want to believe that it was so...

14 May 2014, 05:13 AM
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There's always LONG BEACH!

I'm so happy that i got accepted into Long Beach! i honestly can't wait for this fall, to get away from everyone, and start a new chapter in my life. I must admit that I'm fucking scared! I've never been away from my mom for more than a week. I'm so use to coming home to her everyday, to her meals, to her presence. I decided that i wanted o dorm at LB. I'm extremely excited but also fucking scared. I don't anyone going there. None of my friends go there. I hope i don't get a fucking psycho fo...

30 April 2014, 05:29 AM
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l i e s

when someone lies to you...its hard to ever believe in them again. you might forgive them but you don't really forget. Even if you try you hardest to give them second chances with things, in the back of your mind the lies they told you...you'll always remember them. not telling someone something is just as bad as lying to them. To me, there's no difference.

30 April 2014, 05:24 AM
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I dunno.

What's stopping me? You know when they say that you control you own life...do we really? Things happen everyday that change our lives. We meet people who make you feel a type of way. We do things that we can't take back. We say things that we later regret. Everything we do and say can affect people in both negative and positive ways.

29 April 2014, 06:14 AM
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FUCKKK YASSS.

I got a B on my political science mid term paper. I couldn't be happier. I swear to god I thought I was getting a F or at least a D. I hadn't read my book and I totally suck at history. I seriously did it 3 hours before I turned it in.

28 April 2014, 08:24 PM
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Monday.

Today I decided that I'm going to start eating healthier. Sonia and I made a pack to STOP eating bad things and to exercise regularly. The funny thing is that Sonia and I say this every Monday. We've said this so many times! This time I swear were going to stick to the plan. Hopefully.

28 April 2014, 03:35 PM
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Ends.

When you think the love you have for each other will never end. You think that you are both equally crazy about each other. You see no signs of confusion or unhappiness. One day, like any other day, they tell you they just don't feel the same way about you anymore. The empty feeling you get. It's takes months for you to accept it. You're sad for weeks. You feel lied too. I know the feeling...

24 April 2014, 06:40 AM
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I sometimes wake up wanting to change my life. Simple things like maybe start exercising regularly, eating healthier, being nicer, or even trying to stay away from any social media. I'm glad to say, that I've changed a lot in the past few months. I think I've eliminated several negative things and people in my life. There comes a point when you get sick of all the crap. You get sick of the constantly negativity that people bring into your life and the constant shit that people talk whether ...

24 April 2014, 05:12 AM
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J.P

I've never really met anyone online. I was the kind of person that would say that's creepy. How can you talk to someone who you've never met in person? Like..wouldn't things be awkward if you guys don't click in person. Lol! I've changed a lot these past few months and I've become more of an open minded person. I'm so glad I did because I had the opportunity to meet one of the funniest and nicest guys ever! He is truly someone I can call a friend. He's never made me feel uncomfortable or like...

24 April 2014, 04:58 AM
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It's crazy to think that you can love someone so much and that it might not be enough. I don't think I was ever really in love until last year. You know when people say that they love someone but that they aren't IN love with them. I never really knew what that meant until now. You can love someone..like you love your friends, but being in love with someone means allowing yourself to completely be yourself around them. It means caring about the other persons wants and needs. When you begin to...

24 April 2014, 04:44 AM
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First.

I'm really excited to begin this. I've been wanting to start writing in a diary or journal for a really long time now. I just never really committed. I want to use this as a place where I can obviously write down all my thoughts and feelings.

22 April 2014, 06:43 AM
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