The life formula

Sometimes you have to pay the price before you get the prize. Otherwise, you could lose it. However, being through so much pain makes you wonder what's the point on being alive. It'll take you to the bottom, YOUR bottom, because God knows how long you can take it. Until you find out a way to emerge from it. That's when you grow and get ready to fulfill your points. But if you lose yourself again, it means that you wasn't quite prepared... and need one more lesson. Restart! That's just how lif...

10 November 2016, 06:14 AM
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The bad part: nothing left to do

SO, I was reading a few of my last notes here. I am so sorry. The poor 17-year-old girl that had so many dreams: not even one of them actually fulfilled. Anyway, I'm not here to talk about the past. It might be a part of it, and to be honest, a consequence of what I'm living right now, but certainly not my focus. I don't record talking about this, but the last two years of high school was a total mess. I didn't want to attend to any classes any day and God only knows how I didn't get reproved...

10 November 2016, 05:02 AM
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The bitch is back

Hello, everyone! Haven't been here in SUCH a while, but looks like there's always something that brings me back. Well, I only come here when I feel like there's no one to count on. And guess what: this time, the thing is real. I mean: NOBODY, seriously. They say when tough things happens in your life is because you need to rebuild it. However, it is hard to find out how. I'm not here just to complain, though. Good things did happen this year! They were just... kind of unfrequent. So, where ...

10 November 2016, 04:23 AM
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hey, you.

hello, i haven't come here for a while, but i've been missing the site. maybe it's because it allows me to moan without complaint and keeps all along in silence. i'm feeling down as fuck today (also in another days but specially today) cause (again) i realised i'm nothing. i can't do anything good to anyone or even to myself, even though i've tried so hard. i just don't know how can i dream about so many things like being rich, having a family or getting out of here if i don't have ANY idea h...

12 July 2015, 10:14 PM
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worst day ever

hello, there. there's a couple days i don't come here, maybe it's because i've been busy-with my thoughts(joking)- with the school stuffs. but now i'm feeling that i need to write, just to tell for "someone" what happened last week. i can't remember if i have mentioned that i was a model in the past, but yes i was, and it was kinda a painful experience. i used to spent all my days just watching fashion shows, for training, and observing each behaviors, to act like'em. obviously, i created bil...

24 June 2015, 05:36 AM
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idc

today started worst than ever. when i arrived at the school, i've been surprised by the coordinator telling me that i've missed my exams yesterday. i missed the day and the exams. AND NOBODY TOLD ME NOTHING! she said "i send an email to your parents and tried to call, by nobody answered." THAT'S A LIE! mom said she didn't receive ANY emails or callings yesterday. that's terrible, i felt foolish, cheated. when i got into the class, people started to humiliate me. i was surrounded by fake peopl...

12 June 2015, 04:56 AM
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dreams come true? i don't think so.

hello, it's me. after hours searching for university's fees abroad, i'm feeling disappointed. actually, i always knew it was expensive and that would be hard, and despite all, i have never mentioned give up. but, as much as noted the prices, i started to think how i would get all that money. my father said he'd help me, but i realized he NEVER will. he said "what about open a saving account?" and i was so excited, blinded by the idea he would help me. but then, when i said "daddy, i did it! i...

08 June 2015, 01:34 AM
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even when the night changes... (yesterday's note)

hello! here i am, again. today, i broke up with my boyfriend and it wasn't easy as well. we both cried, but we ended up our story as friends. not such a happy ending, but... well, i wasn't happy with him, and i'm not happy now. guess i don't know anything about life, but its better to keep away, so i can't hurt him no more. i just hope we be okay soon, especially him. he deserves it. so, what's gonna happen now? what about me, actually? i mean, will i finally find my way back home? was it rig...

05 June 2015, 07:04 PM
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FINALLY A LIGHT!!

today i woke up with a big suprise!!! daddy said he will help me to get out of here. this is all i have to say. I'M GONNA LEAVE THIS FUCKING COUNTRY!! there won't be soon, but I WILL. i said yesterday doesn't matter how long!!! i'm so happy, SO HAPPY! CAN'T WAIT TO FINALLY SEE MY LIFE START, CAUSE IT REALLY MAKES ME FEEL ALIVE!!!

05 June 2015, 07:01 PM
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so many doubts

Hello, guys. This is my first note here, and i'm little confused how i got here so. I'm brazilian, but i feel alright, deeply in my thoughts, speaking english. don't know why, but i just feel safe. actually, maybe i know. i think it's because my mom can't speak english, so, whatever i say, she won't understand heheheh. but this is not the point. the reason i'm here is because i really had to talk with somebody about what's happening now. things are going strange in my life, and i've never fel...

04 June 2015, 07:38 AM
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