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I Saw Your Picture The Other Day

I saw your picture the other day As I was scrolling through. You had a big happy smile on your face And your big brother right next to you. I saw your picture the other day Just a little baby boy. Your grandmother holding you in her arms Like a tiny precious toy. I talked to your brother the other day And he spoke of nothing but you. He was so happy to be your big brother And his love for you was so true. I talked to your brother the other day He was sad that you couldn't play. He was scared ...

06 May 2014, 09:31 PM
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In That Moment

Have you ever felt that moment? That moment when Yesterday is a distant memory And tomorrow is just a breath away? Maybe it's the line of a favorite song Crooning through the car radio Maybe it's waking up in the morning To the smell of pancakes And padding into the kitchen In your bare feet. Maybe it's sharing a side splitting laugh With your best friends Over something so trivial You can't believe how it could possibly be so funny But it is. Whatever brings on that moment, It means so...

06 May 2014, 09:30 PM
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Pretend

Sit up straight Stand up tall Pretend that you don't Care at all The names they yell The things they say Words like bullets Tossed your way Hide your face Hide your skin Always outside Never in Tears show weakness Scars show pain Use the pills To keep you sane Even at home You can't escape The hateful words Are just the same Fake a smile Live a lie Maybe my life would be better If i wasn't alive

06 May 2014, 09:29 PM
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Rachel's Lullaby

Close your eyes And count to three Remember you are My angel sweet Breathe in deep Cleanse your mind Take all your troubles And leave them behind Open your heart Give us a smile Remember good times And laugh for awhile Open your eyes The world is now bright Your troubles are gone Now sleep well tonight.

06 May 2014, 09:28 PM
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Time

Time moves differently here. Slower. Quieter. I don't mean quiet as in no one talks. It's plenty loud. I just mean that the time creeps by unsuspected. Like nobody is paying attention to it. Well, besides me. The clock and I have an odd relationship. I stare at it, willing the hands to move faster. And it stubbornly takes its time. I hate this stupid clock. I hate these stupid people. Forever asking questions they don't actually need answers to, trying to distract from the topic at hand. And...

06 May 2014, 09:28 PM
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To Live As I Do

And I can assure you, to live as I do would be not a privilege but a burden. And yet you see your life as pitiful As something you should shame instead of appreciate. You wake every morning feeling sorry for yourself I do not need your reasons, I am not here to listen to your story. I am here to tell you that there is a wrong way to live your life, And it is the way you are living. I was not put here to judge you, but if you ask for my opinion I will surely give it. And I was not put here a...

06 May 2014, 09:24 PM
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Dear Mother

You gave birth to me. You raised me for 15 years. You were supposed to love me and teach me. You did not. You turned your back on me when i needed you. For a man, a man who had violated your daughter's in more ways than one. Now you are not in my life. You are not someone I love. You are not someone I trust. You are not my mother.

06 May 2014, 09:13 PM
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Why?

I'm not sure why I still feel this way. I know that I've gone through a lot, but things are good now. I have friends who really love me, an incredible family, and my first real boyfriend. But some days I still feel like I just don't want to be part of this world. Why?

05 May 2014, 12:55 AM
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