Knots.

The deep, sickening type of depression. The kind that makes your stomach hurt, and feel like it's tied in a knot. The kind that makes your chest hurt, and it's hard to breathe. But you don't mind that it's hard to breathe because you'd rather not be breathing at all. Your limbs are numb, and your mind is full of monsters. Your skin feels like it's two sizes too small, and you feel like you need to cut your way out of it. You hurt so much, but at the same time, you're numb. You feel emp...

13 March 2015, 04:05 AM
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Just a Little Bit of What's On My Mind

I really do hate having feeling for people. I get too easily jealous and attached. It’s not healthy for me in the least ways. It fucks up my self esteem. If that person ever talks to me about being around girls that I know they've done things with, I get jealous and wish I could be more like those girls. Sometimes I feel like in order to get that person to notice me, I have to change myself to be like those girls. I wonder if people ever talk about me like that. Like, if people talk to ...

23 January 2014, 11:06 PM
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Where Is My Mind?

Lately, there's been so much on my mind. I don't quite know what's going on in there. I've had ups and downs, lost friends and made friends. I've had ups and downs. But where am I, really? I feel myself changing, I don't know if it's good or bad. I just feel...different. I feel lost. But at the same time, it feels so familiar and I'm not sure why. I try to keep the bad thoughts stashed away, but I can feel the pressure beginning to build, and I'm scared that I'm gonna explode. I feel like eve...

07 January 2014, 11:31 PM
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I'm Not As Hideous As I Was Made To Believe

Being severely bullied for most of my life, I grew up thinking that I was this awful, disgraceful creature who was unlovable. To this day, because of the cruelty I faced, I look in the mirror and hate what I see. But I'm working really hard to learn how to love myself. For quite a while, I've struggled with eating disorders, I feel like I can't leave the house without makeup on, my hair has to be perfect, I have to be perfect. But to impress who? No one. No one but myself. That is the correc...

21 November 2013, 05:44 AM
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So, while home alone today, I realized just how wonderful the friends I have are. We go through rough patches like anyone else, but what makes them special is that we always manage to pull through. We've been through so much together, and I just love them so much. I doubt they'll ever read this, but if they do, they'll know who they are. I love you guys with all my heart.

29 October 2013, 10:54 PM
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Pills, pills, pills.

I've been taking anti-depressants for about three years now. I've been struggling with depression for about five. Since I started taking Wellbutrin, Zoloft, and Lamictal, I've noticed a huge improvement in not only my depression, but my anxiety, as well. Now, there are the downsides to taking "happy pills". Addiction is a huge one. If I miss a single dose, I feel like ass. Not only mentally, but physically. I get hot flashes, chills, shakiness, and nausea. But in the long run, alongside persi...

29 October 2013, 08:24 AM
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Welcome to My Life

Hey there, my name is Kaitlyn. I'm 15, and a sophomore in high school. I have red hair, green/blue eyes and am only 5 feet tall. I wish I could say I'm like any other angsty teenager, but I'm really not. You see, I've been struggling with all sorts of things for the majority of my life. When I was six years old, I was diagnosed with scoliosis. This is a common thing to be diagnosed with later on in life, but that it was already getting bad at a young age, I knew I was in for a hell of a ride....

29 October 2013, 02:44 AM
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