I am so done.

2013 was the absolute worst for me. My boyfriend lost his job, the car broke, my job just kind of shit on my hours. It was just so much all at once. And for the entire year, it was hell. I always wondered when and what bill was about to get turned off next. I was balancing work and school. It was a very uneven balanced. I'd work 12-13 hour shifts just to make up hours so I'd have a regular check and I'd spend maybe an hour on school. My grades started to slip and I started to cut. I didn't wa...

30 January 2014, 10:03 PM
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He left.

Good Morning. It's like 7:29 in the morning and I'm wide awake. I heard him leave and I should've went back to sleep and just sleep the day away. But I'm awake. I feel ridiculous about this because he's just going to work and he'll be back but I'm afraid I'll get the urge to hurt myself and who's going to stop me? I'll just try and keep myself busy until he gets home.

30 January 2014, 01:18 PM
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I'm going to be alone.

Tomorrow my boyfriend starts his new job, and I'm going to be alone. I can't remember the last time I was home alone. And honestly, I'm scared. I just feel like I shouldn't be alone, I'm in a place where I just need someone to be there. And I don't want to tell him because I definitely don't want him to worry. I don't know, I just don't know how I'm going to make it through the day.

30 January 2014, 04:49 AM
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This is new to me. I'm not even sure how to start this. I do know that I wanted to start something different to express my feelings. I've been feeling a little lost these days and I'm not exactly sure how to fix it. Hopefully by writing it all out, it'll help me.

30 January 2014, 04:28 AM
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