Does anyone else ever get in one of those moods where you feel ok but you don't at the same time and you just want to tell someone all your feelings but you don't know how to and you feel annoying so you don't do anything?
IT FRICKEN HAPPENED
and now I'm left wallowing in utter despair. Someone save me. I don't want to be alone. I'm scared.
Right now I wish I knew who you are more than ever. I want to meet you. I want to have memories with you, of you. I want to fall for you. I want to laugh with you. I want to know who you are. I don't want to wait but I don't know where to begin to find you. What if I already met you? I just want to know. The mystery of the future is killing me.
I don't want to say anything I want to act like it never happened
I wish there was someone I could tell everything to unconsciously. Someone I don't have to filter myself from and could express my true self to. I think that is an ultimate goal in life aka something everyone should try to do: find the one you can share your raw self with and who feels they can do the same with you.
When will I stop doing things I know I will regret later on? Why do I regret the things I do? Regret doesn't change the decisions I made nor will it stop me from doing what I do. The past is unchangeable and set in stone by the actions I choose to perform. So in the end regret is stupid. But, in the end, so am I. So I regret and I move on and I live with myself and the decisions I make. We all do.
Will your heart beat for me?
Literally listening to someone's heart is cool. Like the sound of a heart beating to circulate blood by pumping it though valves lets me know that you are as alive as I am. Very cool.
I hate the way you make me feel
but I love it too.
I think I am afraid of being hurt
because I know that you are someone that I will let hurt me the most.