I don't know what to do anymore. You say you love me and that your love is the reason why you don't let me do things. It's gotten too far . I can't handle it anymore. Yet, I love you. Almost four years with you. I remember when you weren't like you are now. I don't know why were together. We claim it's for the love but maybe we both gave up so much to be together that we're scared we wont have anything left if we leave each other. I just don't know anymore.
You try to hide things from but I know you so well. I know when you lie yet now I don't try. I don't try to make it work because you don't. Feels like I've waisted 3 years of my life then again we continue with this it's like we can't put an end like if we enjoy being like this. I don't know in what moment I quit being happy with you but I can see it in your eyes I don't fulfill your life anymore.
I love you but loving you is hurting me.
It's sad, but it's true all this shit is just fucking me up mentally .
I feel like you take advantage of my feelings for you. But, I'm getting sick and tired of swallowing my pride even when I'm right. It's like you're not even afraid of losing me.
All we do is shove each other every other fucken night.
It's like you build me to break me. No matter how hard I try to fulfill your life you look at me with deception . Yet, when I'm about to walk away you say you love me take my hopes up high. Then when I least expect it I'm crying myself to sleep wondering why you hurt me like this.