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3. Thoughts

Today it's been pretty much it, all thoughts. I can't stop thinking, I wanna change, I wanna mark a difference in me, but I don't know how, and that makes me think a lot, so much my mind feels tired, and so does my body. I really wonder if someday I'll be able to leave all this shit behind me and be the person I wanna be. I guess time will tell. I'm just so anxious! I can't wait till something happen and make my whole world explote and change. I'm waiting for that "boom" that will change it a...

03 January 2015, 11:29 PM
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2. Anxiety

So, that's pretty much it. Anxiety is always around me, pushing me, messing with me. I hate those anxiety attacks that seems never to end. Sadly, I have at least one of those everyday, so I can't even dream about not having them. It's hard to accept something when you don't want it. Of course, I hate my anxiety attacks, and right now I have no control over them, but I want to believe I'll find a way, a natural way, to control them, and luckily, make them go away. What can I say, a girl can d...

03 January 2015, 01:42 AM
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1. Emotionally unstable

That's me. That's what defines me, who I am, everything I know about me, I'm emotionally unstable, that's why all my changes of humor, why I am the way I am, and that sucks. I hate it with all my heart. I can't even explain how irritating it is to have something inside you that doesn't leave you alone and in peace for long periods of time. Contradiction, misunderstanding, negativism, madness, chaos, crisis, depression, mess. That's me right now, but who knows, maybe in an hour or so, I becom...

02 January 2015, 02:12 AM
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Hello 2015

Welcome 2015! I have all my hopes on you, so please, PLEAASE, don't leave me down again! This year I want to become a different person, I want to love and be loved, I want to be free, I want to learn what simplicity is, I want to find out who I am, I just wanna be myself and not care of what people say. I'm gonna work hard, I promise, I will. And next year, this time, I'll be writting all the changes I've approached. Let's hope for the best, and for the first time in my life, let's take contr...

01 January 2015, 03:55 AM
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Bye bye 2014!

So, I've decided to open this diary so I can write everything that happens to me in 2015, expecting it to be a better year than it was 2014. I've lost so many people I loved, I've lost material things, and finally, after years of everybody expecting it to happen, I've lost myself. I almost die, and to be honest, I don't even know why I haven't, but I'm glad it didn't, 'cause... I guess, now I realize life is this, losing people you love, learning how to live with pain, having your heart broke...

01 January 2015, 01:25 AM
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