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Missing you already

I hardly know you, I really, truly, hardly do. But I'm falling so hard its not right. Its not right I smell coffee and I think of you, or that I could spend the whole day staring at a frothy tulip that looks like a heart to me on a bed of warm dark brown. Its not right that when I'm scared I talk to you and everything's alright. Its not right that I smile to the stars in the dark when no one can see. Its not right I imagine the days I could have with you— the promises, every word you've said....

15 February 2015, 09:56 AM
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My heart's aflame, and it's burning in your name <3

15 February 2015, 09:55 AM
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Here we go again

Here we go. The let down, the fall. The angels' tears flutter down from heaven when I hear your name. I love you but you won't ever understand. This is how I love. I love silently, pleadingly. I love under the moon, not the sun. I love from the shadows, not the spotlight. There are things I need to do before I can be free to love you; but I guess a love without giving up something is not a love worth fighting for to you.

13 August 2014, 01:21 PM
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It's times like this when I hear a song and my heart aches. For a moment I don't know why, but that feeling, that nostalgia. It's you. It's always you.

06 April 2014, 04:25 AM
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Dreaming of Stars

When I forget about you— when I finally stop thinking about you and stop aching for you, I look up at the night sky and I see stars. I see stars and then I inadvertently dream of you. 5 years and counting, Leo. This is the cycle. I love you forever.

08 March 2014, 01:00 AM
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I'm left here pretending without you I'm alright...

23 February 2014, 09:00 AM
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"Found myself in a memory, of you and I today. It had a bittersweet ending, mm I thought I heard you say...We could run away. I miss you everyday" AvP (Love Back)

23 February 2014, 08:57 AM
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Goodnight Leo

Goodnight, goodnight. I'll see you in my dreams looking ahead while I stand behind. And I'll whisper goodnight even after you're gone...

18 February 2014, 01:40 PM
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Is it coincidence? Why does Falling for You start playing the day you first talk to me? Listening to it all over again is breaking me, breaking me so bad...But I'm feeling happy. Is this how its meant to be? Will I never forget you, Leo? Will I always be happy and sad and bittersweet when I think about you? If that is how it's meant to be for the rest of eternity, I don't mind. I really don't...

18 February 2014, 12:08 PM
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Destiny, stop toying with me

When someone finally moves out of my life (for the time being), you throw someone else in. You throw in someone who thinks being lonely is an attractive lifestyle, someone who can read me better than I know myself. You keep messing things up, and I love the mess up. But when will the mess up become real?

28 January 2014, 02:11 AM
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Now Leo's asking someone else out to Prom

"As friends," he said. But he's nervous. He'd told you he was. And I can't help but wonder if he was as nervous as he is now when he told you you were his angel.

12 January 2014, 12:39 PM
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Forget it. There's no one more perfectly flawed than you, Leo

No one. I know I'm hung up on the memory of you, and it's terrible if I cry whenever I think of you. I know you're not the same person. Neither am I. Why? Stop haunting my dreams. Stop haunting my life. Just stop. I hate the memory of you. I hate pictures of you. I hate you. I love you.

12 January 2014, 04:37 AM
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Soothing waters and Scorching fires

I've known G for a year now, but suddenly I'm looking at him in a new light. This inspiration, this fire in him that wants to leave an impact on the world. He's the entire opposite of you, Leo. You're the soothing waters and he's a burning fire. That's bad– falling for someone exactly the opposite of you, right? What's a girl to do? Tell me what I'm supposed to do if I know my heart won't let me fall for someone else without feeling guilty. What is there to be guilty about? You? My Leo who st...

29 December 2013, 05:23 AM
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Slowly, slowly I'm moving on

But if I were to ever see your face again, Leo, all these years of effort would go to waste and I'll never salvage myself from the wreck. Did you mess me up? I don't know. I was just a little girl falling in love.

27 December 2013, 02:36 AM
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Christmas...christmas....Just another day to miss you...

26 December 2013, 11:27 AM
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I try to keep the peace by defending everyone, then I end up the only one against everyone.

20 December 2013, 12:52 PM
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There comes a point where..

you think you're going crazy because you're the only sane one left

18 December 2013, 06:42 AM
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Humans screwed up evolution and natural selection...

18 December 2013, 06:38 AM
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Everything around here reminds me of you. Turtles, pandas, glass doors, expos, Turkish ice cream, soap, stars, math textbooks, water balloons, boots, elevators, autumn, soccer...You're everywhere, and I'm here.

18 December 2013, 01:11 AM
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Lightning struck when Stargirl Met Leo

17 December 2013, 02:23 PM
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