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Burn!

Today I cleaned out my closet. In one of my old pants I found my old journal from a few years ago. I reread it and boy was I different. This journal specifically was the only journal ever to express my feelings towards someone. I hate it. I want to burn it. I will burn it.

29 November 2014, 02:16 AM
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NOvember

Today my sister came to me and told me she probably won't be able to pay all the bills this coming month. I am a full time student with a 3.7 GPA, now you can imagine the sadness that came to me when she implied that I should get a job. Its not that I can't have a part-time job and be a full time student at the same time. It's just that the dreadful finals are at the same time of the holidays. As it is I'm stressed with all of my classes. Why make it worse.... I don't want to work. I like the...

24 October 2014, 03:05 AM
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FriENDs

Sometimes I wish I had a friend that would understand me to the fullest. That would enjoy the same music as me or interests. A friend that could be told anything.... Ever since 5th grade, after my best friend wrote me a letter that expressed her harsh feelings about me, I felt that no one could get to know me. Ever. After that, I shut out people that could potentially be my life long friends. I was under the impression that everyone was a pretender.... From there on I put up a front for all ...

19 October 2014, 01:51 AM
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Bullying

This video by Five Finger Death Punch made me cry. (http://youtu.be/ptzzU7jFQwo) I had a friend who use to cut herself. This video just reminded me of her and how she could have easily killed herself over something so insignificant. I'm glad that she turned her life around. I know it must have not been easy. I'm just so happy that she is now celebrating life with her new baby girl and husband.

14 October 2014, 05:20 AM
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When is your time?

Today the father figure in my life, his dad died. When I called him today to see how he was doing he said "People have to die some day. Rather we realize it or not we all have a time, and today was his time." Although it saddens me, I personally did not know his dad. It's the only reason why I am not crying in a puddle of tears right now.... His death made me realize that one day my parents are not going to be there. I still remember the day that my mom told me her preference of burial. Which...

02 October 2014, 05:37 AM
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Life...What's Next?

Yes I am lucky that I have a family that cares. Yes I'm lucky that I'm actually getting an education for free. And Yes I may be lucky to not have health issues. But what is it really worth when you do not know your purpose? I just have no idea what I want to do with my life anymore...On my transcript it says "Pre-Pharmacy; Major in Chemistry." Impressive right? It may be to some people, but to me it's insignificant. My mother choose it for me ( Mainly because I just had no idea what I wanted ...

19 September 2014, 04:43 AM
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Breaking Politics

I sometimes wonder about politics. Currently I'm taking a Political Science Course and it has perplexed me on some of these make-or-break issues. Gay marriage. Abortion. Religion over the U.S. constitution. These are all topics that no one should ever dare to bring up to a new friend or on a date. This course made me wonder...what is my stand on these issues? What do I believe in? Some of these may be easy to answer, but for me it can be quite difficult. Of course my mother would want...

13 September 2014, 01:06 AM
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The Sad Truth

Last night I had a sad dream. I woke up wondering if it actually happened. I had to force myself to sleep again, to forget that dream, or at least the details of it. Also it was just too early to wake up on a Sunday. In my dream my sister died. I can't quite recall the details of how or what was happening. But I just remember crying. It was one of those violent uncontrollable cries, that make your whole body shake. It was devastating and made feel depressed as soon as I woke up.It was horri...

10 September 2014, 05:18 AM
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