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A Place

Problems are the worst, especially family problems. Everyone has issues these days. And it seems like there isn't a single person in the world who would want to talk and listen to what you have to say. Maybe there is. Maybe there isn't. I don't know. Is there? If there were people wouldn't be crying in the inside. People wouldn't be in pain. People wouldn't have to suffer alone. This world is messed up. But it was never perfect in the first place. I just wish there was a place for people ...

06 March 2014, 02:41 AM
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The beginning

This was my daydream when I was in high school. I would say I didn't fit it in at school just like the other people who feel the same way when they were young. I went to school 2 years early and it made me think childish things while dealing with kids that are 2 years older. Because of that, I like to daydream. I would still attend classes and answer all the lessons that were given to us yet I will still try to daydream...It didn't matter where or when I wanted to do it as long as I need t...

08 January 2018, 04:49 AM
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Being Sunflowers

Like a sunflower, you're beautiful and fascinating. You're as soft as satin, just like petals of a flower to me. To some, you're a commonality...just another thing; But the light you emit is so easy for me to see. I can't imagine ever taking such a jewel for granted; Thats why I believe so much in second chances. If I left this earth today & reappeared tomorrow, then I'd want to return as the seed of a sunflower. Plant me next to you, and I'd love to watch you grow. An immaculate sight, as we...

24 April 2014, 12:58 AM
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Heart Chronicles of 2

I wanted you to matter. I wanted us to be real. I was hoping you were after more than just a thrill. To cheapen what we had was the worst of sins, but I guess it doesn't matter if you always planned to leave in the end.

06 May 2014, 11:20 PM
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Loving Whats Not Mine

All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again I'll breathe again Open up next to you and my secrets become your truth And the distance between that was sheltering me comes in full view Hang my head, break my heart built from all I have torn apart And my burden to bear is a love I can't carry anymore All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breat...

08 May 2014, 07:59 PM
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Day In and Day Out

My first thought in the morning and my last wish at night....I'm beginning to think you're my obsession. Now that's laughable. More like a very bad habit that needs breaking. It's crazy to me how I could have let myself get to this shit again. Being conscious of the fact that I'm in the "anger" stage makes me feel a little nuts. The roller coaster ride of emotions, I'd like to pass on. Day In and Day Out. MutherF this crap!

21 April 2014, 02:02 PM
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Where Are You?

You built me up You made me believe That I was the only one That you'd ever need But now I'm sitting here And nobody cares but me Stop bringing me down You got me on my knees The first time around You were so good to me But now I'm out here in the cold With just MY OWN HANDS TO HOLD..... Where Are You...?

10 May 2014, 08:14 PM
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Happy mask salesman

Try to imagine a world without timekeeping You probably can't, you know the month, the year, the day of the week Yet all around you timekeeping is ignored Birds are not late, a dog does not check his watch, deer do not fret over passing birthdays Man alone measures time, man alone chimes the hour. And because of this man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no other creature endures A fear of running out of time

06 November 2016, 03:42 AM
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I'm tired of being scared all the time. It's just annoying! I accept now that i can't go through life not making mistakes, but I can learn to deal with challenges and maintain positive attitude. It's time to smile :)

18 October 2016, 07:06 PM
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CONFUSION

lately i have been really obsessed with the concept of confusion. in biology i learned about the development of cephalization (this has to do with the evolution of a brain) and it fascinates me how other organisms live without exerting much energy on conscious thought. and the idea of really knowing nothing, seems in many ways, better than knowing so much. when i really think about what knowledge is... from a biological perspective.. a collection of memories, but memories are unreliable. even...

12 September 2016, 10:58 PM
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"THE FIRST DATE MENU AND THE (MIS)ASSUMPTION(S)"

At first, you may think this is another typical first date story. A guy takes a girl out on a date. They have a pleasant talk until it is time to order something to eat. The guy orders the main course. You know, carbs, protein (alias meat), and veggies. He even plans to have an ice cream for dessert. When the girl only orders chicken salad and water, he wonders aloud, "Nothing else?" When she just nods and smiles, he asks again, "You sure?" "Yeah." The girl nods again. After that, he spends t...

24 April 2017, 04:26 AM
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"GETTING TO KNOW YOU..."

Perhaps I'm just jaded This chaotic reality always gets to me a lifetime war between worlds where all pacifists long to break free Maybe I need something new a possibility, something true What if it happens to be you? That thought alone scares me too Throughout this loud, crazy world I find myself passing by your door silently praying for the impossible God, I feel like a stalker I'm not pretending to be humble but I really am an ordinary girl I know you do notice me, but will love ever be...

21 April 2017, 12:36 PM
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"THE EXPRESSIONS I PERSONALLY DON'T ALWAYS BELIEVE"

As a non-native speaker, I sometimes find English confusing. There are some expressions that I personally don't always believe, like: 1. "I'm just saying." I can't help this. Every time someone or anyone ends their long-winded speech with this line, I'm just skeptical. I don't buy it easily. You're never really 'just saying'. What's the point in doing so when all you want to do is just 'get those words out of your head and through your mouth'? It doesn't make sense to me. There's always a...

26 March 2017, 02:29 AM
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1 love: shortfox
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Monday/Friday/nighttime

I watched a documentary the other night and the main subject made a statement. I dont remember the exact words. But it was at a point in the film where she mentioned losing the knowledge of what day and time it was. She always referenced that to feeling a sense of freedom... These days i often forget what day it is. And the clock seems to confuse me. But it doesnt make me feel free. It makes me feel crazy. My mind is set to California time. And the days are so long that it doesnt even matter ...

15 December 2014, 05:45 PM
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Lol

So it’s 2018 . What does that even mean lmao. Just another day . I feel like shit still lmaoooo

04 January 2018, 12:53 PM
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BECAUSE THIS IS MY FIRST LIFE

That is the title of the Korean drama I am watching right now. It's the most relatable drama I've ever seen so far. It conveys a roller coaster of emotions, emotions familiar to people like me. People who doesn't have much experience about love and people who thinks love is overrated. It's funny how I can relate to both characters, and it's funnier how I can relate those characters with what's happening/happened to me and the guy I like. Yes, I said it. I like him. No matter how hard I deny i...

17 January 2018, 04:36 AM
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I am Loved

Well I guess I shouldn't be feeling lonely coz my parents loves me so much. They proved it a lot of times already and today they did again. I know they spoil me, especially my dad. I wanted some coke but I'm too lazy to go out, so my dad and mom went out and got it for me instead. With all the love I get from my family, everyone would definitely say that there's no point in me getting depressed. Of course I understand that as well. But I guess this is what depression is, it's an illness, just...

17 January 2018, 04:29 AM
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Orange

When I was a child, I remember being attracted to the color orange so much. It just looks so good to my eyes. Not a lot of people likes this color, maybe because it's too bright or something. As a child, I was a free spirit and I was always happy. When I was growing up, my color preference have changed. I liked pink, then after a while I hated it and I really dunno why. When I was a teenager up to my early 20's, I loved blue so much and also black. And now, in my late 20's, I began to love or...

17 January 2018, 05:12 AM
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To Yoga Or Not to Yoga

It has been a long day at work today. The skies have turned grey and dark, so getting home I was not in the mood at all to do the daily yoga. Felt tired, the idea of procrastinating and just pushing it out for tomorrow seemed as a good idea. But I know myself and if I do so I would just end up not doing the exercise at all and then dropping the entire program all together. In the end I got my yoga mat out and told myself "You will do it, keep with the schedule" After the session as usual ...

15 January 2018, 04:37 PM
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Just Starting

I started keeping a written Journal from the beginning of this year, then decided to troll around the internet to see if there is a place to keep one online. Though I prefer a written journal as it is easy to just pick up and write down but it is not always that easy to carry around everywhere and have praying eyes hovering around your writings, waiting for that moment to take a peek on what you have written. Using this for the first time I am not to sure on how to go about using it. Do one...

15 January 2018, 03:37 PM
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I : The Start or maybe the end

At first I should introduce myself... I'm Jul, I think there is nothing else to say...It's day 7280 (+-) I don't really know how I should start... Probably why I am here... I thought that's a good way to understand myself, other people and what role I play in it. Today I slept almost the whole day... because the weather was grey, wet and cold and I knew that I will nothing miss. I checked my phone for messages but there was no message, like almost everyday... Since my friends all moved aw...

16 January 2018, 08:07 PM
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Father,

15 January 2018, 02:23 PM
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Program

Our bodies are machines. they can be programed by us. I have programed mine to Love water. Others have programed theirs to love soda.

26 January 2018, 09:13 PM
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Well I feel dumb..I mean where do I start..Dear Diary? Guess I should start from the beginning, but to be honest I don't even know where that is anymore. Maybe I just start with now and take it from there. I mean it's not like anyone is actually going to be reading this so what does it matter where or how I start. I've messed up, like Royally, I'm talking Trump bombing China messed up. No one ever envisages their life going like this, of course they don't. It would be crazy to think they did....

28 January 2018, 06:44 PM
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II: I try a second page

It's day 7293... My situation didn't change... When I'm sitting here...to have nobody to talk about your situation is hard. I thought it gets better. But I noticed that's false. Everyday it gets worse. It's feels like a pressure that's getting stronger and stronger. Yesterday night I had again ananxiet but this time it was longer than ever before. I had to get up to test if I really didn't die but in this situation I could't tell if I'm here...

29 January 2018, 08:33 PM
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