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Life

i shouldnt have let him in, i shouldnt have trusted him, i shouldnt have been so naive. Its my fault and i dont blame anyone else for my mistakes.

05 July 2015, 09:30 AM
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In Denial

I knew exactly what I was getting myself into. I just thought I could overcome the outcome you guaranteed me. Instead, I am completely torn apart. Just like you promised I would be.

03 July 2015, 02:22 AM
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“The Buddha never said he would save you. In Buddhism you save yourself”

29 June 2015, 12:13 PM
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the labors of psyche

i dont know how i feel... i didnt stop him, but he shouldnt have gone that far. I guess i thought he was different, i expected him to be nothing like the others but yet again, he was just like them. They always end up wanting nothing more than the usual, they dont want love, they dont want intimacy on a non-physical level, they dont want deep conversations.. all they want is a physical thrill that only lasts for an instant, then disappears. I just dont get it anymore and im tired of this who...

29 June 2015, 11:51 AM
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Thurs, 11 June

I find my truest self when im in the midst of solitary confinement

11 June 2015, 01:30 PM
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Where did he come from? I dont know him, but at the same time i feel like ive known him for a lifetime. He has this magnetic energy about him that overtakes my thoughts and my entire being... What is this sensation he is making me feel? What is this strange feeling in my body that feels like someone is slowly, bit by bit, taking pieces of my heart and placing it into theirs? its strange.. but i like it. I think i could like this person, i think he'll be good for me, we'll be good for eachothe...

10 June 2015, 05:24 PM
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Monday, 1st June

I am currently in the midst of procrastination. I have an overload of essays to write but i cant let go of my phone... Not because im a technological, materialistic freak, but because I enjoy speaking to him.. I like texting him, he is the main reason of my procrastination at the moment. He is the epitome of interesting, the symbol of the word "different"..but i know he thinks nothing of our conversations. I feel like he speaks to me for the sake of speaking to someone & its so strange for me...

01 June 2015, 02:09 PM
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27 May 2015

i am happy.

27 May 2015, 04:30 AM
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Introduction to Philosophy: Week 13

Another day at university means another day of class debates and intense, passionate arguments on what people stand for. Todays lesson consisted of the topic "animal rights & ethics". This is something i am strongly passionate about as i am currently an aspiring vegetarian and care for the feelings of these voiceless souls. Things in class got pretty heated as the class was divided into two groups, the animal activists & the meat lovers. regardless of my passion about this issue, I sat back ...

21 May 2015, 03:24 AM
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Let it go

As i sit in a cafe on campus filled with students just like me, sipping on hot coffee and so pre occupied with their macbooks that reality right now doesnt even cross their minds, i cant help but think what their stories are. Why theyre here, What theyre studying, if theyre okay... Humans are so desensitised that these questions we should ask people every single day become irrelevant and less important. We're more concerned about where the girl sitting next me bought that extremely delicious...

07 May 2015, 03:21 AM
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3rd May, 2015

I am happy.

02 May 2015, 06:00 PM
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Closure

Today, after so many days of feeling down, betrayed, lost and alone, i have closure and peace within my heart. I feel at ease. My Philosophy class today opened my eyes and made me come to my senses. We spoke about self liberty and to what degree we deserve individual liberation. A philosopher stated that each individual should live with a free will. I related this statement back to my life and thought of what the people in my life i most cared about made me go through whilst i stayed quiet i...

30 April 2015, 03:30 AM
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Mistaken Identity

You know how they say sometimes you mistake a soul-mate for a lesson? Well its true & i happened to be the one to experience it. This person was the one person i truly felt at home with. I guess i was wrong, i guess we were soul-mates in disguise. My best-friend happened to be hiding behind a dark silhouette. I believe that the betrayal of her taught me a greater lesson, a lesson that enabled me to think of my own feelings first. I also learnt that not everybody holds love in their hearts ...

20 April 2015, 04:03 AM
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Let me Out

Today i feel no different than yesterday. The weather is perfect yet im trapped between these four walls people call home. Its not that im forbidden or something from leaving this place, its the fact that i wouldnt know where to go, or who to see. I dont know, we'll see what happens tomorrow. Hoping for a better day.

14 April 2015, 04:14 AM
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The thought of leaving everything behind crosses my mind daily. Its selfish, i know, but i feel like im trapped in this inescapable bubble that restricts me from being my true self. I need to leave, i need to if i want to grow. I think its time i step out of my comfort zone and step into a world full of anticipation, adrenalin and excitement.

13 April 2015, 07:04 AM
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