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"I'm ready to die"

Remember that moment in Harry Potter when he figures out what opens at the close? I feel like this is my close. If I die right now who knows what amazing things could happen. What could open up for me? I want to die. I want to die. I feel like I screwed up my life, as petty and insignificant as it was to begin with. The problem is I don't have any drive to get my life back on track. What is it ever going to be on track for? Mediocrity. And so I don't care. I don't see a future worth preservin...

21 March 2015, 05:23 PM
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Drugs

Shout out to drugs for inspiring some of the best music ever made. Shout out to drugs for bringing people together. If you get high with someone, you guys are friends. Its just a rule. Shout out to drugs for making people more generous and kind to one another. If you do drugs, you've probably been smoked out by someone without them expecting anything in return. People share their drugs because it makes you so happy that you want other people to be happy too. Do you feel an immediate connectio...

21 February 2015, 07:34 PM
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Self Image

I really can't remember a time I looked in the mirror and actually liked what I saw. I can't remember thinking that I was pretty or skinny or good enough at anything. And the sad thing is, I still can't. I'm almost an adult and I still have these thoughts in the back of my head that I've been hearing since elementary school. Things people have said to or about me years ago still hurt me every single day. Whenever I eat or exercise or try to look pretty, I hear those remarks that people may no...

17 December 2014, 08:40 PM
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To My Parents:

I wake up on the wrong side of my floor, my clothes still smell like the night before. Where am I? Why am I talking to myself? I'm like a fat kid running through a candy store, like a nympho surrounded by a bunch of whores. Why can't I just get control over myself? I'm not trying to be a saint, I don't wanna be president someday, I'm just trying to make my way. I'm sorry I'm a fuck up. I can't do nothing right. I'm sorry I'm a fuck up. It ain't no one’s fault but mine. I'm sorry I'm a fuck up...

06 October 2014, 09:53 PM
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Addiction

I need you I want you what am I supposed to do without you, I think about you all the time, I sacrifice anything I have to for you. You make me happy, you take the place of mundane things I usually do and think about you make me feel things that I miss feeling when I don't have you. What am I doing? I don't need you, I'll go without you. I need you I want you what am I supposed to do without you.

25 August 2014, 05:27 PM
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Idaho

Idaho is so beautiful I love it there so much I kind of wish I could just stay there and hide from everything and go boating and fishing and fly boarding every day until I die. And don't tell me I cant.

04 August 2014, 03:14 AM
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What I would tell him...If I wasn't so scared

You are the most amazing guy I have ever met. The way you can make me laugh no matter what kind of mood I'm in, the way we can just talk about random things for hours and not feel weird or uncomfortable is just so perfect. I have never met anyone that is so similar to me in almost every way possible. You're so chill and laid back and you can just go with the flow and you're down for whatever. I honestly feel so strongly about you its just weird. It kills me to talk to you about other girls bu...

20 July 2014, 11:47 PM
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He Is Risen

"For the good of the faithless He healed the sick. For the good of His brothers He comforts afflicted. For the good of the rich, He taught them life lessons. For the good of the poor, He showered them with blessings. For the good of His family, as He hung on the cross, He asked them to care for the mother He lost. For the good of his murderers He cried out to heaven "Father forgive them for they are my bretheren". For the good of God’s children He saved us from fall, but for the good of Himse...

19 July 2014, 04:26 AM
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The Breakfast Club

Dear Mr. Vernon, we accept the fact that we had to sacrifice a whole Saturday in detention for whatever it was we did wrong. But we think you're crazy to make an essay telling you who we think we are. You see us as you want to see us... In the simplest terms, in the most convenient definitions. But what we found out is that each one of us is a brain...and an athlete...and a basket case...a princess...and a criminal...

18 July 2014, 05:00 AM
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Boys

Love isn't fair. You really like someone, and they can just choose to break your heart because they like someone else. If you think about it mathematically, the odds that someone you like will like you back out of all the people they could be interested in, the probability is pretty pathetically small. How is that fair. And how are we supposed to just know when the right person comes along? What if you waste your entire life with someone that you aren't really supposed to be with and the pers...

17 July 2014, 08:56 AM
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Food

Sometimes I really like food and then sometimes the mere thought of it makes me sick. Amirite?

17 July 2014, 08:40 AM
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School

Life is stressful. I have to get all this shit done and I have like no time to do it. I wish I was more motivated. When I have literally no time to spend with my friends and if i had no job I would be able to focus more on school. I've always wanted to be a smart girl, but never quite been smart enough.

17 July 2014, 08:36 AM
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