Friday, September 27th, 2013

He waited for me at Moxie's so I could give him a kiss before I go to work. It was so sweet of him. I was thrown onto the patio today, nbd. Then 30 minutes into my shift, his ex came in to apply for a job, nbd. Tbh, I didn't even know that was her until someone came up to me and said that was her. At that very moment, I was feeling fine. no jealously, no heart aches, no frustrations - I was perfectly fine. Then later on the night, his best friend came into eat, nbd. I took the initiative to t...

28 September 2013, 05:41 AM
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Monday, September 23rd, 2013

Does it hurt more when you can say "it hurts"?

24 September 2013, 01:16 AM
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Monday, September 23rd, 2013

He told me I was his priority. I smiled.

23 September 2013, 08:24 PM
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Tuesday, September 17th, 2013

Drunken words are sober thoughts; listen carefully.

17 September 2013, 07:39 PM
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Wednesday, September 11th, 2013

A small, simple gesture, yet so full of promises and meanings.

12 September 2013, 05:39 AM
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I thought I was okay.

06 September 2013, 05:51 AM
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I am fully aware my asthma is getting worse. I can feel it coming and it ain't a good feeling.

04 September 2013, 06:24 AM
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Tuesday, September 3rd, 2013

After today. Remember there's a movie called After Tomorrow? In short, it kinda summarizes how we'll never know what the future holds; we just gotta live life as it is. Hence it explains why its called "the present". The same problem occurred between Kevin and I for the longest time. He thought I've gotten over it since it has already been so many months, but... I haven't and I couldn't.. It still haunts me. I know its ridiculous how hard it is for me to take this. I always keep this in min...

04 September 2013, 05:23 AM
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Double the fucking dilemma. Seriously.

02 September 2013, 04:44 AM
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Monday, September 1st, 2013

I remember I said I would trust you with my heart starting from Thursday July 25th, 2013. I don't want to doubt you, nor doubt the trust we have in this relationship. But b, can't you see I'm hurting? We said we don't want her to come between us because we're doing so well in this relationship, but I'm scared ... scared that she has already came between us. Its so hard to get those scenes out of my head. Teach me how to forgive and forget.

02 September 2013, 04:37 AM
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Monday, September 1st, 2013

Wow, it's September already. School again in a week - not looking forward to it anymore :/ Yesterday marked the anniversary of my baby. Thinking back of what happened in August 2012 made me realized how bad of a daughter I was, and probably still am. I learned to grow up in a hard way. I got kicked out of my house at 2 am. I had no where to go, no one to depend on. I actually thought of moving out for the rest of my life. I have a friend who is exactly 4 years older than me, and she went thro...

01 September 2013, 05:00 PM
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Friday, August 30th, 2013

No more questioning. Just have faith in him.

30 August 2013, 05:08 PM
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Thursday, August 29th, 2013

I've had this headache since yesterday >< and it's not going away! so annoying. Work was the usual, nothing special. I had lunch with Kevin and Alex L after... it's so hot today; so much harder to breathe when its so humid outside. I feel gross.

29 August 2013, 10:22 PM
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Our bond

What happens if you are put between a best friend and a girlfriend? Yet you are fully aware of the interest will overlap, meaning things you do will hurt either side. I know it's hard to be able to satisfy everybody's needs. I know you're trying, seriously. But sometimes, I really hope if you can put yourself in my shoes, then maybe you'd see why I'm going ape shit on you. :/ He came over last night and we talked about this problem. This same occurring problem. We are both aware that she is a...

29 August 2013, 04:29 AM
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Tuesday, August 27th, 2013

I had a really, really, really shitty day at work. I couldn't sleep last night till 4. Kevin called me last night that he was going downtown to pick her up. I appreciate that he told me about it, however it didn't make me feel any better. She left a sour taste in my mouth. I can't accept it. I can't deny the fact that I'll never look at her the same. I have seen her twice, or maybe three times, and each time I saw her she left me a piece of bitter memory of her. I feel like I have to dodge he...

27 August 2013, 10:25 PM
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Monday, August 26th, 2013

TODAY WAS SUPER BUSY AT WORK! They only scheduled 4 servers on... I had 10 tables to myself, and the hostesses seemed to really enjoy quadruple seating me. :/ Then again, I'm not complaining; it made my Monday shift went by really fast AND I made good money $$$! My friends and I had a BBQ afterwards. I went to get Chris and Ian to Shirley's. Chris was telling me how Steph and him fought, again, yesterday. Their problems are like an endless cycle, they fight about the same thing over and ove...

27 August 2013, 03:41 AM
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Sunday, August 25th, 2013

I had my day off today. I was productive though - took grandma out for lunch, ran errands, came home and relaxed. I think the rest of my Sundays are set :) Sophia came over and tried on my skates and helmet. She's starting to learn how to skate! Sophia reminds me so much of myself, except she's living in a much more blessed environment than I was when I was 10. However, I'm happy for her; in fact, I'm really happy for her. I see my own shadows in her. If I had a little sister, it'd be her. ...

26 August 2013, 04:27 AM
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Saturday, August 24th, 2013

He brought me my favorite when I was at work. Thanks b :))

25 August 2013, 06:03 AM
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Friday, August 23rd, 2013

I've never been the D1 before. But today, out of the blue, I have. Totally unexpected. Totally unaware. It was an experience.

24 August 2013, 04:09 AM
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Thursday, August 22nd, 2013

I spent my night with Chris, Ian and Steph. Chris' wrist is slowly getting better - no displacements so far. (y) So get well soon broski! Kevin told me he's going dt on saturday. He asked me if I wanna go. I thought about it, and I've decided to not go. Why? Simply because I have faith in our relationship, and most importantly, I have faith in us.

23 August 2013, 04:40 AM
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