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20 June 2014, 09:15 AM
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Forgiveness

Forgiveness is just one of those words that is easier said than done. It's not that one doesn't want to, it's just so very hard to do. The harsher the betrayal, the harder it is to forgive. Forgiveness is not for the other person, it is for the person who has been hurt. It is the start of a healing process that is so desperately needed. The longer a person holds a grudge or keeps the anger locked inside, the larger the chance of it festering and causing irreparable damage to the heart and sou...

20 June 2014, 09:09 AM
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20 June 2014, 08:52 AM
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Cycle of Abuse

What chance does a 6 year old little girl have in life when her first experience with a man starts with physical, sexual, and verbal/emotional abuse? The first man in her life? Her father. She grows up believing that this is the way love is supposed to be. Filled with pain. Filled with fear. Filled with uncertainty. Her first boyfriend, at age 15, uses her sexually and abuses her emotionally to keep her in line. She runs away at age 16 to try and start again only to meet the man who wil...

26 May 2014, 01:38 PM
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I Haven't Forgotten

Things are going well. You are treating me as if I am the only woman left on earth. As it should be. However, you are showing signs of thinking I've forgotten your infidelity. That can't be further from the truth. I still don't trust you. It's too soon. I'm not quite sure why you would think I would forgive and forget so easily. You've done a lot of damage to me emotionally... to my self confidence... to every part of my being. Someone close to me told me she believes all men stray. That ma...

16 May 2014, 09:35 AM
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Full Moon

Tomorrow night is the full moon and it is once more time to bask in the glory of the Goddess. A bonfire is in order as is a humble offering of wine and cake. My boys are so excited. They just love this time of month. It will also be time to cast spells while drawing on the powers of the full moon and our Goddess. Time to redirect my own karmic energy for the good of others. One Sister in particular. Life is good again and it is time for me to repay the kindness and love shown me. I reli...

13 May 2014, 05:46 AM
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Don't Judge Me

For the last time, I DO NOT worship the devil!! I don't even believe he exists. That is a Christian being made up by them to keep their followers in line. I worship the Goddess (my main Goddess is Isis), the God, and Nature. My pentacle represents the Earth, Fire, Water, Air, and the Spirit. It in no way represents evil of any kind.

13 May 2014, 05:29 AM
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Being Bipolar

A lot of times I truly HATE being bipolar. When people find out you have a mental illness they react 1 of 2 ways; either they treat you like you're a complete idiot, or they react like you're going to go homicidal at any minute and avoid you like the plague. It is hard enough dealing with the symptoms alone without others adding to it. Why can't people see that I am just a human being that just happens to to have a mental illness? I have never purposely hurt another human being or animal in...

12 May 2014, 01:39 PM
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It Has Begun

I warned you. I told you I would fix things. 11 years is too much to give up on. I guess it would be different if you would have had a physical affair. As it is, it was only an ego/emotional thing. (but an affair none-the-less) That was a serious breach of trust. Between me and my Sister, you are now faithful to me and our marriage. My Sister has ensured that the other woman will do nothing to try to confront me with the pics/texts she has saved. Probably a good idea on her part. Mother...

12 May 2014, 01:06 PM
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Inspire Others

09 May 2014, 02:07 PM
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Love Hurts

Love hurts, love scars Love wounds, and mars Any heart, not tough Or strong enough To take a lot of pain Take a lot of pain Love is like a cloud Holds a lot of rain Love hurts I'm young, I know But even so I know a thing or two I learned, from you I really learned a lot Really learned a lot Love is like a flame It burns you when it's hot Love hurts Some fools think of happiness Blissfulness, togetherness Some fools fool themselves I guess They're not foolin' me I know it...

09 May 2014, 01:53 PM
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Stronger Than You Think

I saw my p-doc this past Monday. I told him just what was going on. You know what he told me? I am handling this a lot more calmly than most women would. That's because I'm not most women. I have resolve and I've made up my mind to rectify this situation. It WILL be to my benefit, I can promise you. I have all ready taken action and you have responded accordingly. Lucky for you. I have done nothing against her... yet. Let her give me one good reason and it's all over for her. I promise you...

09 May 2014, 01:10 PM
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You Haven't Seen The Last of Me

Feeling broken Barely holding on But there's just something so strong Somewhere inside me. And I am down, but I'll get up again. Don't count me out just yet They can say that I won't stay around But I'm gonna stand my ground You're not gonna stop me. You don't know me, you don't know who I am. Don't count me out so fast There will be no fade-out This is not the end I'm down now But I'll be standing tall again. Times are hard but I was built tough. I'm gonna show you all what...

08 May 2014, 07:18 AM
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Getting Comfortable

So... you think the worst is past. You think you have gotten away with it. Do you really think I'm that easy?? Come on. How long have you known me? I still feel the pain deep in my heart, but I'm not ready to let you go. I still love you too much. Is sexting cheating? Yep. It is in my book. Especially when you share nude/suggestive photos of each other. You're not off the hook. Not even remotely. Neither is she. A little birdy told me that she wants to confront me. I guess she's hoping that ...

08 May 2014, 06:57 AM
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Trust

I don't trust you. How could I? I found her name and her phone number. It's taking every ounce of self-control I have not to call her and go off on her. Call her all the hateful names that come to mind. Oh don't worry... I am already working on making you regret ever cheating on me. This man who looked down his nose at people who did the same. Hypocrite. I'm still with you, but you haven't won. You WILL pay.

05 May 2014, 03:18 PM
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Love Prevails

So I finally tell you what I know. How you've replaced me with a newer younger version. How my heart physically breaks every time I know you've been with her. How my soul longs for it to be me that you want to be with. Why don't you just let me go? Why do you torture me? You know how much I love you and just what I'd do for you. Still.... that's not enough for you is it? I know why you keep me here. I have paid the bills for so long that you are used to it. You haven't truly worked in almos...

29 April 2014, 01:35 PM
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Deceit

I should never have trusted my heart to another person. I just didn't learn from my past. Now it's been ripped out of my chest and smashed to unrecognizable pieces. I learned this time. Very painfully, but I learned. No one will EVER get close enough to hurt me again. There is no more trust in my soul.

21 April 2014, 01:40 PM
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Silent All These Years

Excuse me, but can I be you for awhile? My dog won't bite if you sit real still I got the Anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again Yeah, I can hear Been saved again by the garbage truck I got something to say, you know, but nothing comes Yes, I know what you think of me, you never shut up Yeah, I can hear that But what if I'm a mermaid In these jeans of his with her name still on it Hey, but I don't care 'cause sometimes I said, sometimes I hear my voice And it's been here ...

16 April 2014, 02:06 PM
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Unwell

All day staring at the ceiling Making friends with shadows on my wall All night hearing voices telling me That I should get some sleep Because tomorrow might be good for something Hold on Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown And I don't know why I'm talking to myself in public Dodging glances on the train And I know, I know they've all been talking about me I can hear them whisper And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me Out of all the hours thinking Some...

16 April 2014, 02:04 PM
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What It's Like

We've all seen the man at the liquor store beggin' for your change The hair on his face is dirty, dreadlocked and full of mange He asked a man for what he could spare with shame in his eyes "Get a job, you fuckin' slob"'s all he replied God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in his shoes 'Cause then you really might know what it's like to sing the blues Then you really might know what it's like.... Mary got pregnant from a kid named Tom who said he was in love He said, "Don't worry...

16 April 2014, 02:02 PM
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