All Over The Place

Health - I got my test results. It seems I only have BV - Bacterial Vaginosis which can be cured. I have to go pick up my prescription today and start the healing process. Unfortunately, I made a poor decision to fuck two guys I usually have sex with. We are all kind of open and free so I know they have other sex partners. I've had sex with them a few times in the past and just recently got tested and saw I didn't catch anything from them. We all always ALWAYS use condoms. So when I visited t...

29 April 2014, 12:11 PM
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Worried Confused & Upset

So I'm a little upset because I went to my Patient Portal to review my results and it said no results. So I was a little disappointed that they weren't there because it had been over a week. So I just started looking through the tabs, and I came across the Tasks/Tools tab and clicked it out of curiosity. I came across an Ambulatory Summary of my Allergies, Medications, Problems, Procedures,Lab Results, Encounters, Social History,Vaccine List, Plan of Care, & Vitals. So I'm just scrolling thro...

23 April 2014, 06:46 AM
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Scared

So today I decided to log onto my patient portal where my GYN left a case summaries file in there so I can review my health. Everything I reviewed was good until I came up to the problems section. She recorded Leukorrhea as apart of her findings. This was the only problem recorded so far (because I'm still waiting for my STD results) I was scared when I saw this, and did a little research. I am going to assume the worst, that I could have possible infection or STD that is causing this, althou...

17 April 2014, 11:57 PM
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Mind Boggled

Lots of things are just running through my mind & I figured I'd write it all down. I'm kind of on a self discovery journey in order to become truly comfortable in my skin & actually enjoy this life. I wrote down reasons why I have low self-esteem and low confidence. Then I wrote down reasons I sometimes feel invincible. I tried meditation the other day, & I felt a since of peace, like something bad was literally lifted off my spirit. I'm still trying soo hard to consume more and more water ea...

17 April 2014, 03:08 AM
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Finally Proud of Me!!!

So guess what you guysss!! I went to the GYN today : )))) You know I've been writing about going for some time now & I finally made an appointment on ZocDoc.com and before I knew it, it was time for me to go in. I've got to log on to ZocDoc so I can leave a good review for my GYN and all the doctors I interacted with. When I got there, she explained that I won't need a pap smear until I'm 21 years old. This was a good experience, she took some discharge from my vagina, and did the breast exam...

14 April 2014, 11:09 PM
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New All Around

So I got my report card. I got 2 As & the rest were Bs! Who's happy? Yeah, not me lol. I wouldn't say I'm "happy" but I'm pleased with myself in that department. So time for a NEW update!!!!!!! Health- Face still on that bullshit; clear up, break out, clear up, break out etc. Still drinking water. Period started March 20th-April 3rd. This bitch said fuck 4 days, I'm staying until I'm ready to go. This is the first time I was ever mad at my period like, why bitch why?! She annoyed the hell ou...

09 April 2014, 04:05 AM
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I Feel So Empty

Thursday after school I went to Keyana's house. We got there around 9 something, and she sent me & her other friend Hazel down stairs to the basement while she got the liquor bottle. Right when I saw Hazel in the light, I immediately thought she was sexy. We shook hands and we sat down there and chatted. Thank God she had lots of stuff to talk about because I'm a socially awkward person and I would of made it hella awkward. Then after 15-20 minutes, Keyana came down and we began to drink. Haz...

29 March 2014, 01:19 AM
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I'm Silly

So today was interesting. Turns out I couldn't resist, I missed Andy so I wrote him & asked him if he want's to see me Friday. We're gona chill finally for the first time. Before I go I'm getting buzzed to lightin up though. Damn, tomorrow I wana get buzzed with Keyana & this short girl. I need some bread to take the train or I can ask Jeremy if I can use his metro card.

26 March 2014, 06:31 AM
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I Dont Like Him Anymore

I just came home from school *I got 100% on my exam in Health class* and I logged in on Facebook to see if maybe Andy wrote me. He didn't. I'm still left on seen like..I'm not writing him, because I'm just going to most likely end up disappointing him again. I really don't think it's that much of a big deal like damn. I need to really stop talking to niggas. They are so mixy & shit. I can be mixy too. We used to write each other all the time, now niggas get left on seen. Like really?? Annoyed...

25 March 2014, 02:24 AM
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Leave Me On Seen?

So I haven't really mentioned much about Andy these past couple of days, but I figured it's time for an update. As you know, I used to talk to him every single day and stuff but then it slowed down because he became closed off, *like I told you before* and I just went with his flow. Now, remember when I told you I canceled the movie plans but it was a mutual thing between him & I? Yeah, well I have rejected him more then once & I guess these times are not mutual. He eventually invited me to t...

24 March 2014, 02:50 AM
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So Far

Well today I saw a good amount of blood on my panty liner & two days ago I saw small amounts but let's just say March 19th is the starting date for it. I'll have to check my previous diary entries on when it last came & ended. I hope I recorded the ending date. So far, I'm proud of my body. I have no idea how long I've been off my BC pills *which I used to regulate my period** but I think my body is functioning nice on its own. I'm proud. Still haven't called a GYN to schedule an appointment,...

20 March 2014, 03:37 AM
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The Blame Game

My mom specializes in that. Blaming us for this and that. I can't wait to be successful, so I can stop playing games period. I'll be about my business. Just got to keep my head up and keep pushing. Through God, I'll become great. Not perfect, but great. I'm not afraid of tomorrow. I'll embrace tomorrow, I don't need any living human on this earth. I need God. I only need God & when I get to that higher place, God will be the only one I thank. I'm doing this for me, with God's help, & with his...

09 March 2014, 03:38 AM
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Update's & Crap

Health - Period came on Feb 24th to March 3rd. Irregular period acting very regular soooo that's fine. I noticed a major break out on my face when my period came so I now use Advantage Clean&Clear grape fruit face wash and my regular cheap bar of soap. It has cleared up my face tremendously. I'm drinking more water too. Right now..I have a light headache. Social Life - It's decent. Nana & I went to the mall today. I bought a sweater and skinny jeans from Forever21 & I bought perfume from Vi...

08 March 2014, 09:23 AM
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Its My Birthday

So it's my b-day Feb.24 - 19 years old & I feel like it. I planned to do nothing & I thought I would be ok with that. I am. But somehow I'm still miserable. Ok, I know I have no friends, cool I don't expect shit. I have 1 love sister her name is Peace so I know she loves and cares for me as I do for her so she'll wish me a Happy Birthday. I know Andy will. I mean we talk so it's expected..& he care's for me in his own way. My family will too..on their own time. Fuck, I'm just trying to be hap...

24 February 2014, 06:13 AM
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Feeling Him More Then Ever..

So this whole winter break I've been talking to Andy over Facebook, all day everyday and I'm liking him more then I ever did before. I do want to finally see him again but I want it to be perfect. I have no idea what I want to wear when I see him again. Something that covers me up of course..something modest but still cute and comfortable. I really want to see him though. I'm a little scared of how things will turn out, because we are both kind of shy. I remember when we first met, everything...

22 February 2014, 02:59 AM
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Back at it again

This guy and I met at the park back in 2012 & we talked over FB and he admitted that he liked me. At that time I had a boyfriend so he had to back off. Throughout 2013 we kept in contact talking here & there & then May 2013 we stopped talking. Now, day after V-day he writes me. I've been broken up from my ex for 10 months now and I talk to no one. You can pretty much call his timing perfect. It's no secret we like each other but we wana take things slow & be friends. I just hate how we had s...

19 February 2014, 03:46 PM
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Venting

I went to school yesterday. Finally got a chance to get to know my new advisor Ms. Edwards. She's definitely not mean like I thought she was. We played a game, and me and this other boy named Alex won 2 free movie tickets each. I was happy. I have no movie in mind, but I guess its ok since there's no expiration date. I was going to take...my old "friend" but I showed my mom and she wants to go with me and Jeremy so that's a good idea! Family first. It's not like I always put them first, but b...

14 February 2014, 03:12 AM
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The Past Is Calling

So you know how I did that whole thing of letting people go, or pushing people away I guess, in order to go on a personal journey to reach greatness and walk with God. I, personally, really believe that I made the right decision. Ever since I got my priority's in line, and reevaluated my life and better my focus on God and my future. With God's help, I'm trying to escape poverty and ignorance. I have many thing's against me in this world with just being the color that I am, but instead of le...

12 February 2014, 07:26 AM
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My Friend

Spotting Feb 09. Birthday month - turning 19 yay. School in a few minutes, bye.

10 February 2014, 08:41 PM
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HAPPY!

I passed all my classes and the two regents that I took!!! Now I feel so happy and proud of myself. God has blessed me in sooo many ways. I am so thankful to him! The second term has started and I have my new schedule, I'm still doing good so far and I'm gona keep up the good work! Nothing and no one can stop me and as long as I continue to work hard, my blessings will continue to flow in!

06 February 2014, 04:36 PM
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