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Happily Never After

I want to begin a journey. I want to begin a journey that lasts. I want to find a man that I love, and he loves me and my world is suddenly complete. I want to find someone I can't live without. My heart races, my face flushes and my stomach twists. I want to be excited to announce that I am engaged. That I am pregnant. That everything in my life has fallen into that Happily ever after tone. Here is the problem: No man, No relationship, No hope of any of it for years. Everyone says, oh you'r...

11 November 2014, 04:46 AM
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Worst Date Ever

I went on a date. Why? Because I can. But here is the issue, it was the worst date I have ever been on in my life. What a loser. Granted it is kind of my fault... I met him online which I am discovering doesn't work out well at all. Irritating. We met up at a sports bar and I offered to buy him a beer. No big deal. We started talking, and it seemed nice. Then the bill came and he actually got mad that I wanted to pay...not like I want to pay because its a date mad, but "I have a small dick an...

01 November 2014, 06:11 PM
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Secrets

"I don't care if the world knows what my secrets are." This is my new motto. I am just all about being open and honest about myself these days. I would rather people love me for the crazy mess that I am than try to hide behind this perfect girl image. I am just Jess. Period. I am no longer working to make sure others accept me. I am done with that crap. I just want to live. Judge all you want. But make sure the stories are interesting ;)

29 October 2014, 03:31 AM
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I'm a Fireball

Let's get feisty... Here is a look into the feisty side of missjessimarie. I am damn good at relationships. Yeah, that's cocky. But I am. I have never had a relationship that didn't work because of something I did or didn't do. I put all the passion I can into a relationship. I can make you feel like a bad boy, without having to do anything wrong. I can make you feel like there isn't another human on the planet that can love you like I do. I pride myself on this. As awful as this sounds, It ...

27 October 2014, 11:19 PM
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Blow Me One Last Kiss

Ever had one of those days where the radio just understands your life? This was today for me. I got into an argument with my ex boyfriend today... Pink's song came on and it was just perfect. White knuckles and sweaty palms from hanging on too tight Clenched shut jaw, I've got another headache again tonight Eyes on fire, eyes on fire, and they burn from all the tears I've been crying, I've been crying, I've been dying over you Tie a knot in the rope, tryin' to hold, tryin' to hold, But there'...

27 October 2014, 11:04 PM
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Let's Talk Dirty

Why is SEX such a taboo subject? Here is the issue that I have been having. I was always taught that sex was this taboo subject. You don't talk about it, and if your number is more than 2, you are a raging slut. That is what I have been taught to believe. Upon my recent break up, I have discovered that my number is going to get higher. I now believe that sex is a natural impulse. However, I have been feeling ashamed of myself; which can't be healthy. I used to be proud that I could count my...

27 October 2014, 01:32 AM
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Found A Recording

So, upon my recent break up, I have been missing my ex. Normal. It is totally normal. However, it has become a task not to call him up and tell him to come home. I will admit it. Not too proud. However, last night, I was having a moment of weakness and started looking through my phone. I found a recording of a fight we had. Yes, I recorded it. It is a long story as to why I recorded it. But I did. And I listened to it last night. And while hearing his voice was nice, once I started listening ...

24 October 2014, 06:20 AM
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Casual Dating

Everyone makes it out to be so freaking simple. Just date a few guys see what you like what you don't like. Too bad that can literally never happen for me! Super irritating. I get my own place, and I have everything necessary to casually date... But then I have one guy over one night because I am too broke to go out and bam suddenly I feel like I am in a relationship again. I don't want that. I have had that. For three freaking years. I want to meet new people and go on dates and have fun. No...

19 October 2014, 06:02 PM
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Becoming Beautiful

I have always felt like the awkward person in the room. It hasn't been until recently, that I have learned to embrace all that is my awkwardness. Guess what? I trip over my own feet. I can't cook anything. I cry at television shows that are probably geared towards 12 year olds. I have no shame in my life, which is not a modest characteristic! Which, I am okay with. I listen to music that no other human finds attractive. I dance like I know what I am doing even if I look like I am a fish out...

19 October 2014, 05:46 AM
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My Little Rant

Something I feel strongly about: Be an strong independent woman. All women. I don't need to be with someone. I will be okay. I will be strong regardless of my company. I understand that it takes time and effort, but it drives me nuts when girls allow themselves to be a victim. Get up, put your big girl panties on and shake it off. Sweetie, no one is worth your tears. Most importantly you are stronger than you could ever imagine. Those who rely on their own wings, never fear falling.

19 October 2014, 05:42 AM
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Five ways to win my heart

I need to post this for me, not neccesarily anyone else. But these are the things I want. And I dont think they are that hard to come by. I may be stuck in a fairy tale where the princess finds her prince charming and lives happily ever after, but you know what? I still believe in that. And I don't care in the slightest what people have to say about it. So here it goes: 1. Be honest. I value honestly more than anything. I don't care if it will hurt my feelings, or make me feel small. At least...

19 October 2014, 05:39 AM
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A letter to my best friend

Here is to you! I have told you several times that you are the only one that truly understands me, but I needed to write you a note here too. Guess what miss? You're important. And more importantly, You're strong. I have never met a woman that I look up to so much. I know that our lives aren't where they should be, or where we would like them to be. But we are going to be okay. Here is why. I have never met someone that I could just tell my whole world to and not be judged. And I hope you kn...

19 October 2014, 05:33 AM
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Because I am independent.

A new start, that is what this break up is. A new beginning. A new adventure, and that is all that I can say about it. I have recently been trying to discover exactly what I want to be, who I want to be. It is a little challenging, but I wouldn't go back for the world. I am now living all on my own, with my main man, my dog. Mickey. He is the best. But I am going to basically try and keep this updated as possible. Good luck to me. There will be some great posts, and some that are not so great...

19 October 2014, 05:28 AM
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First of many :)

Well, the blog thing just isnt working out for me these days. However, I am hoping this has better success. I will be writing everything I can think of here, because I am an open book. Bear with me while I figure this little feature out. :) Not that many will see this, but for those that will follow it, I appreciate it.

19 October 2014, 05:21 AM
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