Damn Memories

It's been nearly 5 months, I have "mostly" got over you. But it seems like I'm still in a midst, trying to figure out what to do with my future? Will I continue to work as a peasant, trying hard to study abroad or find a new job. Gosh, I be talking strong on daytime and be weak at night, it's the fear of love, the fear to embrace the past memories, wish i could be an asexual, to focus on my career. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

24 August 2015, 05:53 PM
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Struggling

It's been 2 months and I still think about you when I feel empty. Well now you're happy with the perfect dude, that's good for you. I try to move on but my mind is teasing me. Perhaps I need more time, I need to concerntrate my brain cells to something else, something more important for me, not thinking about the past anymore. :(

29 June 2015, 05:03 AM
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half Happy - half Sad

This week has turned out to be one fucking experience that i cannot forget. I learnt that my ex left me because i was not caring enough, cannot understand her. She left for another boy, haha. All your bullshit talk, girl. However, it's like her mind is still weak, still deciding who to choose after i offer her the reconcilliation. Now, i must compete against that dick head. Is it worth it? i don't know, but i know that i must improve myself to be better.

17 April 2015, 04:38 PM
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1 week

It's been a week since I said goodbye, seeing you having fun with your friends on Facebook, I don't know if you had already forgotten me or you're still hiding the pain, just like me :). I miss you so much, I want to text you but I have forbid myself doing so. Maybe it's harsh but it's the best way to forget you faster.

12 April 2015, 01:00 PM
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You be quick

Yesterday just found out that only 4 days after we broke up, you already call another boy by intimate pronoun. Haha, if only i knew sooner, i wouldn't be so sad. That night I cannot sleep, just turning around, all my last hope for a reunion just shattered into dust. Farewell, somebody that I used to know

11 April 2015, 12:34 PM
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6 days limit

I remember our past arguments, it always end up like a formula. No contact for about 4,5 days, then you broke the ice and contact me first. Sometimes you admit that you had to think of some reason to take the fault, so that we could continue the relationship. Maybe I was a little too confident, too sure that you will and cannot leave me. Haha how wrong was I. Just 2 more days and we'll set a new record, and this record will last for a very long time, might as well be forever. Don't know wha...

10 April 2015, 04:38 PM
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When you love someone, you always want to keep them

"When you love someone, you always want to keep them" Many ppl said that to me, mom, friends... you said you love me but you still decided to leave me, I don't understand. Maybe you don't love me...enough? Haha, if you just said so, I wouldn't be so painful and thinking too much

09 April 2015, 06:01 PM
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Long chat 9-Apr

Today I went to the gym for the 2nd time, this time on the upper floor: Fitness. Practice for about 40 min, I almost puke T_T. Damn, looking at other gym-goers, I feel a little ashamed lol. Oh well, just keep practicing :) At night, I have a nice chat with a total stranger from Pleiku. The feeling of sharing everything with a stranger is different, the chat was nice and I want to get to know more, even gave her my FB account, however due to technical problem, she left the conversation. Oh wel...

09 April 2015, 05:58 PM
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8 Apr 2015 - Things I've done trying to forget you

Things I've done to minimize the pain: Delete photos, conversations and write our stories down. Before we broke up, I only got you to share things, I almost forgot myself well at least I should be thankful because of you, I've decided to change. I want to : * Be more Sociable, chat with more people. * Get Fit - Get my body all sweaty and fatigue so I can get myself a nice and sound sleep. * Work my ass off so I don't have time to think about you. * Give up drinking soft drinks, late night sna...

08 April 2015, 05:17 PM
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Tourguide - Japan

Her: Do you ever think about finding another girl to care for you? Me: What do you mean? Her: I don't know about my future, I don't want you to wait for me. In my future, I want to be a tour guide or I will work in Japan, either way I cannot make you wait for me, I feel guilty. Me: Why? You need freedom? You need money to support Mom and sis? You're talking like 3.5 years of us ain't nothing. After all the things we've been through? Her: "I cannot understand myself" *cries* Me: "Now you will...

08 April 2015, 05:09 PM
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2011- Me Freshman You 12th Grade

Wow, that's a lot of memories there. We've been through a lot right, girl? I remember the afternoons when you were in 12th grade, I was in SG you be in LA but you still caught the bus to visit me. Me and you, we on my bike, rding through the Cho Lon area with the memorable supermarket karaoke haha.I remeber that I had to ride my ass off as I thought you would be late for the last bus, then I found out that you just tricked me. I was counting days till the next month so that we could be toget...

08 April 2015, 04:57 PM
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8 Oct 2011 - I Love You

The day that I proposed to you. Well that's quite a dramatic moment if my memories serve me well. We were in the middle of an argument when I found out that you agreed to another boy and break up already, without me knowing anything. It's like I'm always 2, 3 -6 months late before I learn your secrets, girl. Girl, I proposed to you so that we can make a promise, be truthful and loyal to each other and many times you have made me wonder about you.

08 April 2015, 04:52 PM
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5 Apr 2015 - Part ways

This is it. After 3.5 years, your decision prove that I did not understand you. Well, I see that you're like a bird of freedom and I cannot hold you back by any means. I don't know if there are any secret that you cannot share with me and I'm sure I will think about this day for a long time. I decide to write my thinking down, maybe after a while I will have a chance to look back and think more positive.

08 April 2015, 04:42 PM
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