Connected to life..

I do not feel as if I am connected to life. This is not a midlife crisis I am just stating it as it is. I have been feeling this for years now. It is like I am chasing something, and in this continuous striving and running I have set aside what really matters, Me. I feel like I have lost my identity in my course through life, in trying to chase that dream that now I do not seem to know. I have set aside my feelings in trying to be logical at all times, managed my what I do or how to react aga...

03 February 2014, 05:59 PM
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Friends, when I was young I remember having a lot of friends, playmates or buddies. We write to each other almost everyday, trade stationary's and of course sometimes we have our differences. But I remember whenever there is conflict we always take sides. Like who to play with and who to ignore until everyone is friends again. Now in my late 20's I realized I have only a few real friends that I can count with my fingers. This is despite the fact that I have been in the same company for quite ...

03 February 2014, 05:36 PM
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I will write about this new journey in my life called MARRIAGE.

07 April 2013, 02:41 AM
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This one of the reasons why I chose to write a blog, in a way writing has helped me get through tough times. It sort of put thing in perspective. When I was young girl I had a diary that I write on at the end of the day. Instead of "Dear Diary" I wrote "Dear God". I tell him about my day and my feelings, my new poems or a new song I wrote which I never told anyone because I felt like they are not good enough. Growing up my mom and dad always fight. My dad is an alcoholic and my mom is alread...

07 April 2013, 02:41 AM
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Couples should compliment each other and make each other better. What if I'm turning into someone that I do not want to be. I feel like he has created a monster in me, someone paranoid, insecure, mad, hated and unloved. He created a monster that he cannot love. I know I did not do anything to deserve this. Maybe life just throws balls at us that sometimes is too big to handle. In my heart I know I love him . It just hurts more to realize you love someone who does not know how to love you bac...

07 April 2013, 02:41 AM
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So this is my dilemma, a lot has happened in our two years of marriage. Problems with his family, my family and our family which mostly problems with him and the other women in his life. Women that he claims to have no part in his life anymore. Since we are just a fresh couple, a question always pops up in mind, is this really normal for married couples are these just trials that we will both just outgrow and laugh at when we get old? Every time I get hit by this it seems a part of me dies....

07 April 2013, 02:40 AM
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07 April 2013, 02:19 AM
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