He was different

Him. He was the guy that broke me the most out of all the guys that I have ever liked. It started off when we wdsere kids....he would be so mean to me and I would be mean back. Then one day I decided to text him...we began to talk more and eventually it became a normal thing. We started to facetime. Those were my favorite. I would come home from school and I would wait for him to call and we would talk for hours, never running out of words to say. I would be home alone and he would call becau...

24 December 2016, 02:00 AM
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so it's been so many years since I've had this account to come back to and vent my feelings. I look back at when I was 14 and the guy I "loved" so much and how I was so upset that he left for another girl. Well things change and no matter how hard it is to say and hear, time really does heal a person. Im 17 now and I got my heart broken by a guy that I have known my whole life. He was always there and now hes not in my life anymore. People always say that dating your bestfriend is the best or...

24 December 2016, 01:48 AM
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Dreams

I tend to do it a lot. I think of scenarios i wish would happen and I try to dream about them. Sometimes I actually believe that in a perfect world they might just come true. But the fact is they wont. I need to wake up and live in reality because the way I have been lately is not who I really am. I have to pick a side.

06 November 2016, 12:02 AM
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Dreams

I tend to do it a lot. I think of scenarios i wish would happen and I try to dream about them. Sometimes I actually believe that in a perfect world they might just come true. But the fact is they wont. I need to wake up and live in reality because the way I have been lately is not who I really am. I have to pick a side.

06 November 2016, 12:02 AM
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Dreams

I tend to do it a lot. I think of scenarios i wish would happen and I try to dream about them. Sometimes I actually believe that in a perfect world they might just come true. But the fact is they wont. I need to wake up and live in reality because the way I have been lately is not who I really am. I have to pick a side.

06 November 2016, 12:02 AM
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Breathing

Half the time I feel like I am only barley making it through the day. The past 8 months have my breathing so hard. I am just sick of having this pain in my chest every time I have to walk past him, or every time I have to hear his name. I wonder sometimes if it was me. If maybe I was not good enough. I end up blaming the new girl, saying that she is the one to blame. But that is just it. I have been looking back onto the past for so long. Not able to move forward or let go. I am still stuck ...

05 November 2016, 11:58 PM
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Moving on

Im not sure if I should just move past the anger... and just speak to the person. Or if I should just completely avoid that person.... UGh

21 April 2015, 02:56 AM
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Honestly cant wait to get my braces off even though I still have a year in them....ha..ha

21 April 2015, 02:52 AM
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Fake friends

I have never met a person that is always there for me. I have those type of friends that are only there until they find out what happened. Than they leave... This one girl, I told her everything about my recent breakup and she said that she was sorry. The guy moved on to another girl and than something happened and they are not together anymore. He told her that he was really sad and she was telling ME and my bestfriend why she feels bad for him. I honestly don't... I have never seen this kid...

21 April 2015, 02:51 AM
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So it happend

So I let it happen again. I let myself like someone new. It started in October with a guy I kept seeing in the hallway. I found him really weird at first. We started talking and the first time he asked me out was in November. I said no because I barley knew him.. I wasn't going to go out with someone I barley knew. He walked me to a few of my classes, and we got pretty close. He tried to ask me out again after that, but I told him that I want to get to know him first. So everything was okay f...

15 April 2015, 03:25 AM
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Empty

I just really need someone that I don't know to talk to. I just want to tell them everything i'm feeling right now. The best part would be that I wouldn't know them and that they wouldn't know me. No one understands what I feel and I cant take keeping it all inside.

02 February 2015, 02:23 AM
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Pain

Getting spacers in my teeth is such a pain considering I can't eat anything

28 January 2015, 03:30 AM
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Idk

Well I've moved on. I'm not gonna be stuck on the same guy that doesn't care about me. Well there is a new guy and the old guy texted me a while ago asking me if I want to hang out and you know what that means..but it's okay cause I lied and said I wasn't home. But the thing is I'm horrible at relationships. I just can't seem to let anyone in. And even worse everyone in my school is so immature. Whenever you go out with someone there is so much "talk" and i don't like that. Idk what I want an...

28 January 2015, 03:27 AM
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winter break

The fact that I don't want winter break is horrible. My grades are horrible and I just really want a chance to fix them and 2 weeks of break and than coming back to do finals is so ughh. And its not like I actually have a full on winter break considering I have 456789876 pages of homework.

20 December 2014, 12:19 AM
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People Change

Its really scary how people can change over such a short time. One day they are your bestfriend and you can completely relate to them. Than in a blink of an eye the person is completely different. Even worse I'm the person who is still caught up with the person I thought he was that I wasn't able to see who he really is.

09 December 2014, 12:36 AM
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School

Hate waking up at 6 and getting home late and still having to do homework-__-

23 September 2014, 03:01 AM
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Graduation

Never thought buying a graduation dress would be so hard-_- 6 hours of shopping and I managed to get a backup dress UGHHHH

22 May 2014, 03:26 AM
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Self Harm

Many people say self harm is an "Addiction" or that it helps distract you from your real problems by transferring the pain towards something else. What's the point? Get up and solve your problems all self harm is gonna do is leave the scars so that you can remember all those terrible moments even more. Every problem has a sollution and harming your body isn't gonna solve anything. For every problem you have and you dont think you can solve it on your own TALK TO SOMEONE find a person you trus...

19 May 2014, 12:01 AM
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Stuck

Have you ever been stuck in the middle not knowing what to choose to pick the guy who is really sweet to you? or the guy who you truly like besides the fact that he's changed into a douche who hooks up with any pretty girl thats willing to? People call each other stupid for choosing the wrong people but honestly what's the point of going for a guy that treats you good, yet you don't like him in the way you like the douche who hurt you and even after all that you cant manage to say you hate hi...

18 May 2014, 11:57 PM
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Questioning

I've changed over the last few months. Don't get me wrong I still like him and can't seem to get over him but it's different now. I can last not texting him for weeks and weeks but when I do or when he does it's still not the same we talk on occasion and we still make fun of each other and act as if we're close friends. But things have changed since last year and I never thought I would regret something did as much as I do now. I lost my chance in dating the guy that I liked as much as losing...

18 May 2014, 11:51 PM
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