Appreciation Notes

1. I appreciate that I have someone that truly loves me for me. Despite how crazy I sometimes act. 2. I appreciate that I have the knowledge to make my life happy and now need to move forward with that knowledge. 3. I appreciate that I am healthy and have no major medical issues. 4. I appreciate that I have money and can pay my bills. 5. I appreciate my mother for all that she's done for me and all she continues to do for me. 6. I appreciate that I can be who I am at work. 7. I appreciate nat...

20 April 2015, 06:25 PM
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Working on things...

So yesterday I found out that my ex is now in a relationship. I was already in a super depressed mood and this just threw me over the edge. I'm in a relationship with someone and we've been having difficulties communicating and just getting along in general. He moved here from out of state and he's been getting home sick so he's been having severe depression and anxiety and now mine is acting up too. I wish we could both just maintain ourselves together so we didn't have this problem. ...

16 April 2015, 05:08 PM
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Another day....you know

I'm here. At work. Making money. I need to focus on the positives so badly but all I can do is sit here and think about how much work could be done by some of these employees. If I were in charge and they weren't up to par, I would let them go. If you're hired for a job and you don't do all of it....you shouldn't be in that job. That's what you were hired for....I mean c'mon. I'm very fed up with my employer and some of the employees here and I don't want it to get to be so bad that it show...

10 March 2015, 05:12 PM
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Anxiety & Stress

I'm getting so tired of having to deal with daily anxiety due to work. It's the worst thing ever. And no, I don't really want to take prescription pills. I just want to feel normal without having to "supplement" my biochemicals. This shit sucks.

09 March 2015, 04:24 PM
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Day 12316045723650578

Really, not that many days, but that's how I felt today. Just some random scrambled numbers. I'm at work and I've been working through having daily anxiety and 2 previous panic attacks the past couple of weeks. The emotional stress of this job is more than I've felt even in my personal relationships! I'm ready to be done and move on to my next endeavor. I'm just really overall tired of working all the time. I feel like I hardly have leisure time. I only receive 2 weeks a year in vacation from...

06 March 2015, 06:47 PM
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The End

So I ended things with "D" for good and now "J" is planning to move out here. However, I have seen "D" since then and we just ended up getting into an argument, because a trip I had planned for like 2 weeks from when I ended things is not going to include him now, but "J". It's not like that was the intention it just happened that way. I had to end things because I felt like he was not in it. He wasn't fighting for me, he was only fighting for himself. I could have made him happy if he just ...

05 September 2014, 01:41 AM
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The day after.

So "D" and I ended things yesterday. It seemed mutual but I'm not sure if he was just conceding. He told me he read my diary and that really bothered me. I know I wasn't completely honest about how I was feeling about everything but some things I just feel I need to keep to myself until I'm sure of the answer. That invasion of privacy really hurts me, because it means he doesn't trust what I say. How can I be so honest with him though when I always felt like he wouldn't let me? He would autom...

31 August 2014, 11:48 PM
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That feeling.

I am trying to talk to "D" like I talk to "J" and it's not going over so well. He doesn't respond how I need him to respond when I'm having a bad day, when it's one of those days where I can't stand my job so much I just want to quit, I can't stand life so much that I don't want to exist. I'm starting to think that maybe I should make the choice just to be with "J", but when I think about how he was when he came to visit me, he was clingy and needed to be with me a lot and I just really need...

05 August 2014, 06:17 PM
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You know...and stuff

I miss him. I told him I chose "D" and I'm going to try to make things work. They both just want me to be happy and that means the world to me. I know it will hurt whoever I permanently choose and I know that I'm choosing "D" because we've been together for 6 years, but I can't help imagining the possibilities with "J". He just understands me...he knows my depression, my anxiety, he understands me when I'm completely vague. He has the same interests as me and more...he loves me the way ...

03 August 2014, 11:44 PM
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