Jobs // 01.17.17

I am starting to feel like I am never going to find a decent job. I am so stressed at the thought of this. Yes, I currently have a job, but it is not making me enough money to pay my bills. I thought that having management experience would give me an advantage but apparently it doesn't. I am really hoping and praying that I can find a new position kind of soon. I am tired of being stressed by this.

18 January 2017, 12:29 AM
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Pregnancy Scare Part Two // 01.14.17

My period is now a week late, but I am not pregnant. I have taken three pregnancy tests all of which are negative. It must be stress, because my stress is through the roof. It's crazy how much stress can change your body. I kind of do wish I was pregnant though, just because I am so excited to have a baby and make my man a daddy!

15 January 2017, 04:31 AM
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Pregnancy Scare // 01.07.16

I took a pregnancy test about three days ago that came back negative. However, my period hadn't been late yet. My period was supposed to come today, and didn't. I know that doesn't mean anything because it's not a huge difference, but the thought is still in my mind. I have these weird feelings in my stomach right above my belly button and after I eat I feel pretty sick to my stomach. Maybe it is all in my head, I'm not sure. I kind of would be excited if I were pregnant, yet scared. Scared b...

07 January 2017, 11:49 PM
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Back to Basic // 01.04.16

My honey left me today to go back to basic training. This time we only have to go 35 days apart and I'll be back in his arms! It was definitely a rough morning. Having to readjust to not talking and seeing each other. I really enjoyed having him home for his two week holiday leave, however, saying good-bye was hard. Being apart from my other half is the hardest thing, but it will pay off. Him and I have such a wonderful connection and this experience is bringing us so much closer.

05 January 2017, 12:42 AM
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New Year // 01.02.17

It is so crazy how it is 2017! I am hoping this year is full of opportunities, blessings, and new experiences. I cannot wait to watch my relationship, as well as myself, grow more strong throughout this year. I am going to make sure I have a happy, exciting and memorable year. I turn 20 at the end of this year, so it is my last year as a teenager. I want to make it one of the best years. ♥

02 January 2017, 06:03 PM
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Sad // 12.29.26

He leaves to go back to basic training on Wednesday and the time has gone so fast. The past two months he was gone has flown by, and now he will only be gone for a month so I know that'll go fast as well. It just sucks because I got used to having him back. Kissing him, cuddling him, loving him. At first I thought this good-bye was going to be easier, but now I'm not thinking it will be. It will just as hard as the first one.

30 December 2016, 03:27 AM
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Christmas // 12.26.16

Christmas Eve was fun, but also terrible. I got so sick! Fever, chills, nausea. Super thankful I had my boyfriend there to take care of me, but I know that is not how he wanted to spend his basic training holiday leave. Also, Christmas Day I was sick. Again, he held me tight and took care of me all day long. Today I am giving him a break and am going to take care of myself. He's definitely hubby material. All the days I could have gotten sick though and it happens when he's home.. of course.

26 December 2016, 03:38 PM
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Pregnancy // 12.24.16

My boyfriend is home from basic training and two days ago, as well as yesterday, we had unprotected sex. This was during my ovulation cycle, and yesterday was the peak day for getting pregnant. Pregnancy is something we do not want right now, but I'm worried. We had definitely gotten some cum inside of me, but I don't know how much. He had pulled out but then we had put it back in and there was some still on him. I guess I have to go through the awful two week wait before I find out for sure.

24 December 2016, 03:29 PM
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Losing my Virginity // 12.19.16

Story Time: It was the summer of 2012, and I had just promoted from middle school. I was about to be a freshman, and for some reason I was so obsessed with wanting to go into high school not as a virgin. I had convinced myself that nobody would ever want to have sex with me, so I was desperate to find someone who would want to. My friend had met this guy online. Her and I were 14 at the time and he was 18. She had wanted to meet him, but didn't want to go alone. They have never spoke other th...

19 December 2016, 10:32 PM
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Confused // 12.18.16

My boyfriend has been told from his recruiter and his drill sergeant that he won't ever deploy overseas because he is in the Army National Guard not Active Army. However, what I'm hearing from other ladies is that he most definitely will deploy at least once. The thought of dealing with a deployment breaks my heart. I don't know how I would be able to handle that. It makes sense that it will, but he joined with the thought of it not happening. It is so scary to me. I can hardly handle two mon...

19 December 2016, 03:31 AM
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Mother-In-Law // 12.16.16

She isn't technically my mother in law, since I am not married, but one day she will be. Anyways, I had mentioned going downtown with my boyfriend when he is back from basic training and she basically had tol me no since they have been gone for "an eternity" when in reality it has only been a month and a half.It is just so annoying how he is almost 20 years old, and she still controls him. I understand he is her baby, and the youngest sibling, it is just frustrating. If she is like this forev...

17 December 2016, 03:17 AM
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Final Countdown // 12.11.16

John will be home next week from basic training. I am so excited, nervous, anxious, and happy. Being apart from him has been full of mixed feelings. It started of with sadness. I cried and cried the day he left. I only left my bed about twice. I was miserable that day. The next day I was filled with contentment. I felt fine for the next couple of weeks. I would cry when I got letters from him, and I missed him, but I was able to go about my daily life as if he wasn't away. Now that it is appr...

12 December 2016, 02:49 AM
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Old Entry Reflection // 12.10.16

This entry is going to be a reflection on an entry I had written on 09.06.2015. If you had not read that entry, I recommend reading it before you read this. I had written in that entry that, "I only see myself with him", and I don't think I'll "ever find anyone else". This was about a boy I had dated who happened to be my first love. I was so in love with him and I thought he was what I wanted for my future. I thought he was my going to be my whole life, and I thought I had found my forever. ...

10 December 2016, 11:44 PM
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Stress // 12.04.16

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I can either quit my job and live off of my savings until I find something new, or I can stay in the job I hate so I have some income and just continue to have this horrible anxiety. I don't know what the best choice is for me. I would rather not have the job and look for something else, and go back to school. I need money though. My savings are for school so I can't pay for school and then use those savings as personal money. I just do not know what I wa...

05 December 2016, 03:22 AM
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Anxiety // 12.03.16

It's 11:30 at night and my mind should not be thinking and my body should be shut down - I should be sleeping like the rest of the world. Instead I am awake during the depths of the night due to an unwanted revisit of an old enemy whom I thought I'd sworn off forever. I lay in the dark as horror movie images flash through my head putting me in a panic and causing me to turn the lights on. I roll back over aware that I will not be able to get any sleep. My eyes start to fill with tears and my ...

04 December 2016, 05:36 AM
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Terrible Day // 11.28.16

I haven't had a day as bad as today in a long time. First, I found a message from my almost 20 year old boyfriend to a 15 year old girl that says, "if you were my age or vice versa I'd flirt with you nonstop" and it made me so mad. My boyfriend is in the military and is currently off at basic training so it's not like I could just confront him. So, I messaged her. I took a screenshot and I asked her to explain and she said he was "trying to make her feel better". I know my boyfriend would nev...

29 November 2016, 12:43 AM
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The Odyssey // 11.27.16

Hello, lovelies! I had recently decided to become a creator, aka a writer, for the website The Odyssey Online! I am super proud of myself for finally doing something that truly makes me happy. I would appreciate it oh so much if you would check out some of my writings! I wrote this one on toxic relationships: https://www.theodysseyonline.com/to-the-girl-in-toxic-relationship and I wrote this on on being a military girlfriend: https://www.theodysseyonline.com/what-youll-learn-as-military-girlf...

27 November 2016, 09:30 PM
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Wow // 11.24.2016

To be completely honest, I forgot I even had an account on this website. I was reading through my email today when I stumbled across one mentioning this website, because I had gained a follower. I was instantly confused as I had forgotten completely this existed, so I clicked on it. I was redirected to my page and saw all my old entries I had written. I was taken aback, to say the least. Reading back on these entries and just being able to reflect on some of the hardest times of my life makes...

25 November 2016, 01:51 AM
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Only you // 9.6.15

I dated this guy named Sam for a year and a half. I was with him the summer before sophomore year, all of summer year, the summer after sophomore year, and half of junior year. So that relationship alone takes up most of my high school experience... I look back on memories and they're all with him. It kinda sucks because even to this day, I am over him completely but I still see myself with only him. I think the sole reason for that is because of how comfortable I was with him and he never ev...

07 September 2015, 04:27 AM
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Broke // 9.5.15

Homecoming week is going to brake me. I have my homecoming dress for the dance, i need to get heels, I need to get a shirt for speedaway, I need to get a color day shirt, and i am going to make a shirt for senior white out. I am losing so much money, but I will still get it back. I just hate spending this much money in a such a short time span.

05 September 2015, 04:41 PM
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