Confused // 8.21.15

I really don't know how I feel about this guy. He makes me smile and he makes me laugh and he is just so cute but at the same time he annoys me and he acts like such a child. I just cannot put my feelings together and figure it out. I'm just taking it day by day but I wish I knew now. I hate playing this waiting game but I have no choice when I don't know how I feel. It is one big complicated situation that I wish I wasn't in and it doesn't help that I work with him and he is my best friend.

23 August 2015, 02:59 AM
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Dear exboyfriend... // 8.20.15

Dear ex boyfriend, I just wanted to let you know that I do not regret our relationship in way, shape or form. I learned a lot from the year and a half I was with you, and I will use everything I learned for future relationships. The first thing that I learned is that if we break up even one time, chances are we are going to break up again, and again, and again, so there is no point of constantly getting back together. I also learned that if someone doesn't treat me like I am a priority then i...

21 August 2015, 01:32 AM
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Cute Dates // 8.19.15

I have a lot of cute dates that I would love to go on and I just want to take a second to list some of them. 1. A date to the zoo during the winter so you can see all the Christmas lights and the trees and all the pretty decor. 2. A date to a pumpkin patch in the fall time so we can play in hay stacks and go on hay rides and pick out pumpkins that we will carve together. 3. A water park date because it is a fun way to keep cool when it is hot out, and you have an excuse to show them how you ...

20 August 2015, 11:54 PM
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College // 8.18.15

This one is going to be a short and simple entry all about my excitement for college! I am so excited for next year and to start college and the new chapter in my life! I cannot wait to call Ames, Iowa my home away from home. I have never been this excited... the next time I feel like this will probably be for graduation. I am so obsessed with Iowa State and i am so beyond happy with my choice!

20 August 2015, 10:47 PM
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Work // 8.17.15

I currently am working at a produce store making $9.00/hour, however that is not enough for me. I am graduating high school in December so I will have 7 months of no school and nothing to do, so I made a plan. I turn 18 in November, so in December before I am out of school I am going to start applying for full time day positions at places that pay more than $9.00/hour. As well as finding a day job that pays more than $9.00, I want to apply at places to work 3rd shift, aka all night. I want to...

19 August 2015, 09:21 PM
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Dirty Secrets // 8.16.15

The most important thing to remember during this story is that I am 17 years old, and this man is 27 years old. At my current job, I had this manager for awhile who started off just as a regular full time employee. He slowly bumped his way up to manager when the store was in need of one. Him and I got close while he was just a full time employee and then when he bumped up to manager shit got crazy. I always found him incredibly attractive and I never wanted to tell him, but one day I did. I s...

17 August 2015, 02:09 AM
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Relationships & friendships// 8.15.15

I have this friend and her whole life revolves around her boyfriend. I had a bonfire one time and she wouldn't come because of her boyfriend. It is so annoying how he restricts her from doing so many things, and she plans on marrying him soon and going to college where he is. He is in the navy I understand but she wants to get married in the next year and she doesn't do anything because of him and it is so annoying. I am so sorry but I cannot be friends with someone who won't do something bec...

16 August 2015, 03:39 AM
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If I stay // 8.14.15

I'm watching the movie "If I Stay" and it makes me really want a relationship like the one Mia and Adam have. When she is in the hospital, he forgets all the problems that they had and goes there to be with her. She is so important to her that he tries whatever he can to get to see her. I want a boyfriend who will care that much about me, and fight for me, and show me he loves me and how important he is to me. I don't understand why that is so hard to find... oh wait, yeah I do. It's because ...

16 August 2015, 03:29 AM
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Day one // 8.13.15

Today was my first day of senior year. It wasn't awful, but I cannot wait to be done. I had really bad anxiety last night thinking about how I didnt know anyone but I kind of made two new girl friends, and I found people in all my classes that I talk to. In gym I only have one person so if there is a time and she isn't in school then I am screwed and alone but thats okay, I can deal with that. I just hope this semester goes very fast, because I cannot wait any longer to be done and starting m...

13 August 2015, 11:18 PM
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Senior Year // 8.12.15

Tomorrow is my first day of senior year, and I am beyond nervous. I don't know anyone in my gym and lunch and those are the most social periods of the day. I don't have a specific friend group like everyone else does, so I am terrified that I am going to end up by myself. I don't like going to talk to new people because I feel like they don't want to talk to me and I feel like they think of me as a loser and that makes me sad. I would much rather just stay by myself but then I feel so embarra...

13 August 2015, 03:46 AM
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accepting // 8.11.15

I accepted my admission into Iowa State, and submitted my housing contract! I picked the suit like halls as my top preferences and since I submitted it so early, my tour guide said I have a good chance at getting one of those! The difference between suit dorms and traditional dorms are that the suits are two bedrooms with a bathroom connecting them, and traditional is just one bedroom with a bathroom shared by the whole floor. I am so excited to start my journey at Iowa State. I am praying th...

13 August 2015, 03:42 AM
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Iowa State // 8.10.15

I went on a visit to Iowa State today. I never really thought much about this school, until I got an early application in the mail. I filled it out just for the hell of it and I got accepted, so I decided that I would go check out the campus. It wasn't really the area that I was looking for, but I loved it. It was beautiful, the campus was beautiful. It felt so much like home, I feel like it will be an easy adjustment for me if I so choose to go there. I am so happy. I could not find any flaw...

13 August 2015, 03:38 AM
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Religion // 8.9.15

The concept of religion and of God is a wonderful and amazing thing, but to be honest, it is kind of overrated. I personally believe in God. I am not very religious and I do not attend church but I do believe in God, but there are so people who are very into religion and who are not at all. I think it is wrong when people who are atheists get criticized. Yes, I am a believer, and yes I think it is wrong to talk down on someone for their beliefs. I know the quote "Deny me in front of your frie...

09 August 2015, 06:37 PM
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First time // 8.8.15

Isn't your first sexual experience supposed to be something meaningful, and passionate, and romantic? Yeah, well, that is not how mine was at all. Mine was aggressive, apathetic, and definitely not romantic. I just remember him biting my lip way too much and way too hard to the point that I no longer found that sexy. He was bossy and controlling and everything was done his way. It was definitely not how I expected my first time to go, and I definitely wish I could go back and change that, but...

08 August 2015, 02:59 PM
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Feelings // 8.7.15

What happens when you realize your true feelings for someone who are really close to? Well, that happened to me tonight. I had realized that I want my best guy friend, but in a romantic way. It sucks though because he is currently involved with a girl, and we're good friends. I just want to be the friends who fall in love and spend their lives together happy. I know patience is key but I don't know if I really wanna spend my time waiting around for some guy.

08 August 2015, 04:45 AM
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Moving on // 8.6.15

There is nothing in this world that is harder than moving on. Letting go of the past and the things that hurt you is so hard, but what is even harder is letting go of something that once made you the happiest person in the whole world. I guess it's for the best sometimes, but it is a long process. I don't wanna move on from some things in my past, but I have to. I have to find a way to truly let myself move on and be free from the things in my past that weigh me down. Moving on and letting go...

07 August 2015, 05:18 AM
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My Favorite Quote // 8.5.15

My favorite kind of quotes are ones along the lines of "stars can't shine with darkness". The reason being is because whenever somebody goes through something really hard in their life, they think it's okay to just give up. They'll feel like whatever they're going through will not go away, and that is wrong. In reality, everyone goes through bad times and everyone can get through those bad times. You need to go through hard times to develop inner strength. God doesn't give battles to people w...

06 August 2015, 03:35 PM
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Working // 8.4.15

I am so tired of working. I feel like I am spending my youth doing nothing but working so I can pay off my car before I go to college. Yeah, it was my choice to get a car and to make these payments but it is so stressful worrying about the money, so because of that stress I work as much as possible and I ware myself out. I work almost everyday and I am tired of it. Every time I say this people tell me "you're gonna be working the rest of your life so get used to it", yeah that is true but tha...

04 August 2015, 05:08 PM
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Complete Happiness // 8.3.15

What stands between me and complete happiness? Being unable to let go of the past. There are so many things in my past that I do not regret, but that I dwell on way too much. Being unable to let go of some of these things and move on makes it so hard for me to have complete happiness in my life. I am so caught up on things that happened that focusing on the present and being happy is so hard. I get so scared to let myself get completely happy because of how things in my past have ended. I do ...

03 August 2015, 09:04 PM
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My last relationship 8.2.15

My last relationship taught me so much about the concept of love and I could not be more appreciative of that. My ex boyfriend and I were together for a year and a half. Our relationship was great at the beginning, but as soon as we reached six months there was more anger and fights than there was happiness, however we both loved each other and had hope that the other person would fix their mistakes. We both tried to change the other person into the person we wanted to be with, but that is no...

03 August 2015, 03:49 AM
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