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11 May 2015, 11:08 PM
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school stresses me out so much and I have had this splitting headache for a couple days now. Am i going insane?

07 May 2014, 10:15 PM
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I just am tired of this place

07 May 2014, 01:08 PM
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2 comments: eman97,notlaneyhelmers

school

so i go to a small private college preparatory school and its filled with some of the wealthiest and some of the most annoying people in the state of KY. so I'm not the best at school. I struggle with a lot of it. I think its cause I am kinda lazy but still there just can't succeed at school. Anyway I started to feel like the end of this year that i'm always left out or i'm always doing something and just kinda excluded. It sucks and I have a ton of friends at the giant public school and i al...

07 May 2014, 03:18 AM
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mom

so my mom is killing meeeeeee. No really so she had a conference with my advisor (because she is a psycho, over involved parent) to discuss my schedule for sophomore year next year. Well my advisor ms bishop, is the history teacher and global studies chairman. so my mom is making me take all these global studies classes so I graduate with a global studies degree or something like that. So i need to get 1 1/2 credits (3 semesters) of a classes that fulfill the global studies requirement. So I ...

07 May 2014, 01:00 AM
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over it

So i realized last night with the help of Zane's wise words at practice last night that If M and I were done its because I controlled the situation. He told everyone that he wanted to hook up with me and I didn't want to. It doesn't look bad on my part it looks bad that on him that even a freshman wouldn't hook up with him. I mean I probably would have if he hadn't been such an ass hole this week and its for the better anyways... He is going to college and he needs a social life right now, I ...

02 May 2014, 04:35 AM
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M again

So even though M is a senior and is off at internships for most of the day he still has 2 AP classes and there is good things and bad things to this. Good: I have some of my hardest classes during his AP classes so I don't see him during the hour. I thought it would be pretty easy to avoid him in the hallway but its not. My school is so freaking small I can pretty much see everyone. it's annoying a lot of the time but i guess if you know where someone is its easy to avoid them. Bad things: E...

01 May 2014, 04:40 AM
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oops

I kinda just realized that this is public and I'm hoping none of my friends or family see this... fingers crossed cause I really like this whole daily writing thing

30 April 2014, 02:33 AM
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I guess i'll call him "M"

Ok so im still pretty upset about this cause this relationship ended this past weekend. So "M" is a senior and my tiny school and I had met him earlier this year but I never really talked to him a lot. So I was at my brothers middle school basketball game in our gymnasium and he was going to go with all the other high school basketball players to watch this big game after practice. I was in the stands talking with one of the players when martin came and sat down ned to me. We immediately clic...

29 April 2014, 05:15 AM
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boys in general

So I never really thought of myself as pretty. I mean my mom always told me I was and my family would always comment on how "grown up" I was or something stupid that family members are like legally required to tell you or something but I never really had guys tell me I was. So this year I started to get complements and I was kinda nice. I mean attention isn't that bad and I don't ever want to be one of those girls that are so obsessed with them selves but I still like the attention. any way b...

29 April 2014, 04:38 AM
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tyler

so i liked this guy tyler for seriously like a whole semester and I heard that he liked me and then he didn't like me. no seriously it was one giant roller coaster of I like you/ I don't like you. and i swear every freaking time I decided I didn't like him anymore he would text me the next day and I'd be in the same position of liking him again. So there was this bonfire (and keep in mind that I had never made out with anyone before) and tyler was there and a bunch of my friends were there ...

29 April 2014, 04:37 AM
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my couple months in HS

So my first day i realized a lot of girls were in the same boat as me and people didnt really know each other. i had been playing high school soccer for like a month and a half before school actually started and I ended up knowing more girls than i thought. I even made a lot of new friend like Alden, phoebe (emma's sister), katie, ellie, madison and katherine (kat). I also made a bunch of guy friends that now are some of my best friends and i tend to get along with better.

29 April 2014, 01:52 AM
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Maddox

Maddox. She is a special one cause we have been friends since the day I moved in when I was 6 and we just kinda like to hang out and chill around our neighborhood. I have a younger brother and she has a younger sis and so we think they share a brain cause they think so much alike its crazy.

29 April 2014, 12:48 AM
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summer "friends"

I also have summer friends. I have probably my bestest friend in the world, Grace A. She and I have been best friends since we were like 5 and we are still close. I say she is in my summer friends cause we swim and dive at spindletop together every summer with our other best friend Zane CT. Zane you could tell he was gay from the time he was like 5 but I still love him to death and would never ever judge anyone by that. these guys are my true and real friends that I know i can trust with my b...

29 April 2014, 12:44 AM
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"friends"

I have always had many groups of friends so these are my friends. I use to have friends in the older grade but they stopped being my friends when I left for a year. I don't want pity over it cause I'm not really that sad cause they were all a bunch of back stabbing bitches that I'm not sure if they ever liked me but I called them my best friends but I think thats cause we go to possibly the smallest school in the world and we all just were familiar with each other after 13 years of school tog...

29 April 2014, 12:36 AM
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1st post I guess

So its almost the end of freshman year and I don't really know how to feel. I'm stressing for exams in like 3 weeks! this year has been kinda crazy. I've had so many new experiences and I feel like i've grown up a lot since the beginning of the year.

29 April 2014, 12:14 AM
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