A father??

My father isnt here, my father is a fucking coward and a pussy!!!!!! He isnt here cuz he left out of my life and for what reason?? What can a 2 year old relly do so fucking horrible that a father needs to leave......... Y did my father leave me and leave me with a fucking drunk?? was it her fault and if so who in the fuck cares. There are a ton of dads and or mothers that leave the dad or mom and still seek to see there child, i guess i got the shit end of the fucking stick.......sucks for me...

17 September 2014, 06:50 AM
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I dont know

its not hard to say that i dont know. I dont know my future but i do know is what i would like it to be. I dont know what will be my career or my hobbies when im 45. I dont know what i will cook tomorrow or eat in 10 minutes. I dont know if ill ever become a weird writter but i do know that i love to write.I dont know where i will go in a month or what i will be doing when my kids are older and old enough to not really know but i do know that i will always be me. I dont know if people see me ...

17 September 2014, 06:35 AM
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Alternate universe

Put yourself in an alternate universe for a second........what would life be like? how drastically would YOU change in that alternate universe? what would your life be like and what would you be doing this very second? would it be worse, or better or just the fucking same?Would you have a nice job or even a career? Kids? pets? Would you be a wacko and a serial killer or could you be a high class stuck up celebrity? At the same time of all of this alternate universe bullshit, wat if you like t...

17 September 2014, 06:22 AM
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Intuition

is your intuition really always true? what you feel in your gut at times is that an honest feeling? does that really tell the truth and whats really going on???? and even if intuition is real and whatever how can you really believe it? how can you really be certain that what you feel is true. what if its like something bad do u just act on your intuition?? i guess you can never really know the truth ever unless you do investigating yourself. so what about a cheating intuition?? you really fe...

16 September 2014, 11:09 PM
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Other mother

my other mother is more of my mother. she listens to me she tries to understand me and she tries her best to be funny and make me feel as one of her own. She takes me places and includes me in activities. She makes sure im fed and goes out of her way for me........... waht about you? where is the love the care from the first mother? Y is it that my other mother acts as if she is more of a mother than you. The first mother told me once that she is always telling me her problems and never know...

16 September 2014, 10:59 PM
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Change

I want to change so bad! i want me to be a better me. enough of the fucking anger enough of the pissed off enough of being so cranky and enough of this negative bullshit. If i dont change will he leave me? if i dont change will i not have the life i want? Y is it that you know you want to change you feel it in your blood that you will and then you change for like a fucking day or two and then your right back on the SS bitch........ no one should change who u r cuz thats what makes you you but...

15 September 2014, 11:52 PM
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You

what can i really say about you...... in the darkest moments of my life you were my light. a light so bright it took to me to the gates of happiness and opened up a world so spectacular its to good to be true. I never had anyone like you treat me so well and put up with all of my bitchyness. You seen beyond my hair, beyond my makeup, beyond my shell. You seen my core for what it and i really were. You took the risk to be my armour to protect me from the malishess enviornment i was in. I fell ...

15 September 2014, 11:41 PM
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My tears

my tears have no meaning they are pointless. My tears pour down my face to fall into a pit of nothing. I AM NOTHING. My mind my body my soul all for nothing just getting stompted on repeatedly. Kicked and shuved lauged at and abused. My tears are little peices of me leaving me, little by little i fade away. my tears have made me float into a world of unstability and rockiness. unfafilled and hungry for happiness. Robbed of a smile rewarded with a forever frown. no secret in my eyes my body la...

15 September 2014, 04:30 AM
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Her abuse

To drunk to get off the couch to let us in, to drunk to hear the doorbell. To drunk that we broke and crawled in the kitchen window to find you with the door closed past out half way on the bed with the music blasting. we were 8 and 15. To drunk and stupid to relize you were losing your family and you were the cause. Blaming on you alcoholism on me so you wouldnt upset your husban, a husband that could care less about your ass. Me getting yelled at only an act so you could get out of a fight ...

15 September 2014, 04:07 AM
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My life not yours

how do i live my life fully when i fear of what youll think? How can i be comfortable with my desicions when i have the thought will you be ok with it. Am i a kid? am i a teen? am i living with you? no, so y do i care so much when in reality you could care less of my feelings. All day you tell me your problems but then when i tell you you stop texting me back or ignore me or who knows what the fuck.y do u have to pretend just stop ok stop it hurts my feelings that you dont care. When was the ...

15 September 2014, 02:44 AM
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Mother

your not my mother your just a drunk bitch. Your not my mother your just a random person. Your not my mother your my life sucker. Your my misery your my scared my fright my terrified spirit. Your not my mother your the person that let me down time after time. Your my tears my frowns my anger my frustration my reason that i am so ughhhhhhh. Your not my mother your the woman that left her childeren one time to many. Your not my mother your just a person with a fucked up life off the track and d...

15 September 2014, 02:25 AM
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How could u

You gave me birth, but you took my spirit. You gave me a name but u also gave me a title as little bitch. You enslaved me to your misery. you took my childhood away and replaced it with adulthood, giving me all the responsiblity of your life while you lay on that couch downing beer after beer looking more and more disgusting as the seconds pass. Cant look you in the eye without wanting to hit your face and make you wake from this horrid nightmare. Its as if your the devil walking freely down ...

14 September 2014, 09:12 PM
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