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Of All Places

Walking down the hall I entered a room where there was a woman vacuuming. I asked where the envelopes where and she pointed them out to me. I picked up the one with my name, but thought to myself, "I have no idea what this is." The day went on and I sat poolside with Hannah. She worked here. Which wasn't a surprise, must have been a new addition to the gym.

24 February 2017, 04:04 PM
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Of All Places

Walking down the hall I entered a room where there was a woman vacuuming. I asked where the envelopes where and she pointed them out to me. I picked up the one with my name, but thought to myself, "I have no idea what this is." The day went on and I sat poolside with Hannah. She worked here. Which wasn't a surprise, must have been a new addition to the gym. I suppose I wasn't there for swimming in fact. I was just sitting there keeping Hannah company on a slow day. Few people came in and out...

24 February 2017, 04:04 PM
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The Meeting Place

I removed my earphone to hear what she had to say. I didn't know who this girl was in particular, but I suppose she was a friend of mine. We were on the metro headed home. We made a stop for her, getting off at a station surrounded by trees and a parking garage across the street. The girl was on the phone while I looked up at the parking garage. We sat down on a bench as she told me she had some other things she had to take care of. We waited for a bit until three strangers came towards us. ...

20 February 2017, 01:32 AM
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Neon Lights and Pastel Walls. July 19, 2016.

From the night we were together mesmerized by new wave music I had been wearing rose colored glasses for the both of them. One more than the other. The dark summer versus the light summer, either way, we were all in a glitzy haze together for a moment. It began there but I was soon without both Maison and Jaden. I was with Lauren and Jonah in a car. We were driving around streets that were lit up. As if we were in the middle of an arcade game. There was constant laughing and by now I had real...

24 July 2016, 09:31 AM
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You Will, But You Won't See Me. July 8, 2016.

Sleeping with him. Sleeping with him was nice, resting within the life I dream to have. Pun intended. But his body next to mine was soothing. Then he looked at me. His glasses tilting, limiting him to head positions. I for one understood this so I took his glasses off. He put his arm around my waist and nuzzled his face into the blankets between my hip and the bed. This is what I wanted my week to be like. Tobias and I. Not the frustrations and embarrassing attempts at things I thought I forg...

10 July 2016, 09:51 AM
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May 30, 2016. The Dream Sypnosis

I was somewhere that seemed so familiar yet, I had no recollection of ever being at. It was a sort of combination of a hospital and a house I once was in. Some reason or another I was here. I remember sneaking around, with a hand holding mine. With the feeling of butterflies and excitement. Like my heart was about to burst and everything was hard to hear. We went into a room and he laid me down and kissed me. We laid there together for the longest time kissing, Tobias laying on top of me. It ...

06 July 2016, 09:58 AM
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The Running Sound. July 2, 2015.

It felt good to raise up the arrow. Something I hadn't done in a long time. It was only as Kid that I did archery and here I was on a balcony ready to fire. I have no idea what I was going to shoot at. It was winter, I was cold. My arms felt heavy and as did my heart. I couldn't feel my feet. I got called in immediately by a group of misfits I believe where my friends. Among them was Jackson, Harrison, Anthony, and Carlie. They were all carrying all sorts of weapons. Apparently my choice of w...

02 July 2015, 06:15 PM
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Third Eye. May 3, 2015.

I was so mad I don't remember what they did, but I was so mad. I asked for my things, picked them up, and desperately got out. I wanted to leave. It was just another place I didn't fit in. I ran out the door and down the street. I came to a building, I entered it and went up the stairs. I was up in a room by myself for a while until the door opened. It was Mathilde and Elin. I was sitting down on a chair, no longer holding my things. They came up to me, Elin holding a bottle of vodka. They as...

09 May 2015, 02:41 AM
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Who has who? April 19, 2015.

In remembering the day when we both acknowledged the fact we wanted a relationship but truthfully knew it wouldn't work out, here we were running about again. There was something so exciting being with Quinn. Maybe if was the fact that I was his "mistress." I know that's nothing to be proud of. But it sure set the standing that I had him. Not in the sense that I had him and he was all mine of course, it was more like he was in the palm of my hand. Even more so that no matter what his current ...

19 April 2015, 09:51 PM
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April 11, 2015. Don't Ever Know the Time.

I started out with Kam. We were packing. I remember frantically looking for my shirts. I had no idea where we were going, or who with. We drove in the car for quite a while until we got to a hotel. We checked in, and made her way up to our room. I don't know why we were at a hotel. I just had this feeling like there was someone there I was supposed to see. Eventually Kam and I made our way out. Down at the lobby we saw a couple of people we knew. vividly I remember Keaton. He was following al...

12 April 2015, 09:23 AM
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March 31, 2015.Get Out of My Head.

I was filling my flask with something. Everyone was getting in their seats. I looked around the movie theater. Nathan was coming towards me, i took adeep swig and refilled what I drank. He walked passed not taking his eyes of me. I felt my face worn with disgust. I walked back to my seat, right between Noni and Brittany. After a while I got tired of watching the film. I leftthe building and for some reason ended up giving Beckah a ride home, her not knowing how i really am was extremely surpr...

06 April 2015, 05:16 AM
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March 10, 2015. Poison Liar.

It all started at a time in a place. I just didn't really expect the time to be sometime that I didn't know whether it was the future, or the past. There were some old fears, old memories, and faces for my entire lifetime. It started in an elevator. I remember my reflection while I walked in. The way I walk, swaying back and forth. The powerful steps I took. Always in the presence of someone from my past. I suppose it wasn't really me, but in fact Zero. I sort of just stormed in. I took one ...

12 March 2015, 06:08 AM
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February 28,2015. Future Day's of Yesterday's Memories.

Farther down the road, but with memories of the past. I was at school, teaching finally. My students and I are running back and forth. I had started by teaching elementary school kids. I was taking photographs of them and their favorite thing to wear to put on the wall. They were all laughing and smiling. The entire thing was so joyful. Remembering on with my past mentors and teachers have told me about teachingI realize that I had gained that pride, that these children were my children. I to...

02 March 2015, 06:42 AM
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The Mirror Man. February 17, 2015.

It was another night at the university. It was just a big party going on everywhere. I remember going about and walking in and out of apartments and houses. I was with Bruce and Noni. I eventually made it back to Bruce's house. I was hung over the railing of the stairs talking to Noni. Bruce sat near,and exciting people came and went. Looking up I saw a mirror on the wall. By this time a night I was so intoxicated, and in the blurriness of the parties I saw figure looking at me. It was a very...

27 February 2015, 08:01 AM
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January 30, 2015. Hitchhiking Home.

it was very strange how it started. It was completely dark. All I had was a flashlight, and unusual company. I was at school. It was all flooded. And I was looking for something, I can t remember what it was. I had the worst resources I could ask for. I was lost, I was scared, and all I had was Nathan. Obviously I acted like nothing was wrong, like a hard ass.we look for anything that we could. It was like some sort of apocalyptic world. There was some sort of disaster that caused everyone to...

08 February 2015, 08:37 PM
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January 19, 2015. Dangerous Animals.

the new semester and I was heading to my last class of the day. I was going through the plaza to get to my class when someone caught my attention. I didn't know him, but he looks so much like Zach. I knew it couldn't possibly be him when Zach joined us. We all sat in a booth. Talking and getting to know each other. Out the window there he was Devin. Leader of the punks, in his car with Chase and someone else. They crashed right in front of us, very slowly like a scene in a movie. We ran out t...

08 February 2015, 08:17 PM
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January 2,2015.Factory Family.

In the strangest way I got what I wanted. I became part of the Factory. Somewhere in Los Angeles being admitted into a building, the entire thing were studios. Here it was packed with your mod day creators. Musicians, singers, songwriters, models, actresses, actors, artists,skaters,photographers and filmmakers. People in the hallway discussing ideas,a guy in the elevator playing guitar. I was there because they lacked on artists. I was to be their Warhol. Everyone was in such a great mood. We...

08 February 2015, 08:00 PM
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The Parties. November 26, 2014.

It was our party. Devon and mine. It was a series of events. They went fast and it was all a blur. It felt like we were Jay Gatsby throwing this party. The lights we bright and varied in colors, the music loud and hypnotic, I felt like I was at my prime. I was hanging in the pool, drunken, in an expensive dress. I was talking to Dev, since we were the ones running the show. I laughed as he helped me out. My dress was drenched, I continued laughing. The night went on, lights, music, and people...

28 November 2014, 06:11 AM
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Lost in LA. November 2, 2014.

I was going down the escalator thinking, why was I even here? Here I was, a runaway in LA. I passed the movie theater and looked at the faces. I kept walking. Soon after I reached the shops. Walking alone I saw a group, a little older than I am, and the likes of Devon and his friends. Immediately I did something to attract them. They all took a liking to me, especially the boy who reminded me so much of Devon, and except the girl who was always near him. I was trying to be included as much as...

02 November 2014, 06:14 PM
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October 16, 2014. Sparks.

Looking out the window I saw Jackson. He was talking to our neighbor. I went outside feeling the cool chilling breeze. It seemed to have gotten windier as I walked towards him. He said farewell to our neighbor as I approached. Lightning struck, he smiled and asked me if I saw it. We counted the seconds until we heard the thunder. It soon began to rain. I remember how fresh it felt. How I just faced the dark gloomy sky and felt the rain fall down upon my face. Jackson held me close as the ligh...

17 October 2014, 02:33 AM
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