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I'm dead! No life, no cure! No thoughtful ideas can bring me back! I stand frozen and still, here in the same place I stood all my life. Here, not even the light is off, I hear people talking, saying that they know who I was, but not even I remember what was I. People use to think I had everything planned, maybe I had, but no way that made my life easier in anyway! Nothing could surprise me, dieing was a good way to get me! So maybe this is my luck, surprise, surprise, I'm still living in thi...

07 June 2015, 11:33 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581433716054

I almost lost it. I had lost it. But today it all came back to me with such a easy thing as a music. It took a music to remember how good it fells to have someplace to belong, some place where you fit in. And the best thing fell like you can achieve that place. People try to knock you down. Everyone is not trustworthy. I can't believe that I actually thought for a second that I could live like this. I may not courage to kill myself yet, but I know that I will have if I don't achieve nothing, ...

07 June 2015, 11:27 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581421171111

I missed this. Starting on a blank page just writing. It's not that you must have theme or musn't write about certain things. You are free to say the most stupid thing on earth, you are free to express yourself, to be rude, just let the person you are out of the cage. Society is in itself a problem, because society implies more than one person. And I will most certainly not lie about our nature, one of the biggest step we can give as human is to be able to admit the person we are to yourself....

13 January 2015, 05:45 PM
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If you live, if you die, it's all up to you. So whatever fight you got inside, you have to pull it out now!

13 August 2014, 06:42 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581407599111

You have to expect everything from life and you have to give it so much more. Sometimes it is hard to get throught this all, but I guess it is not just for me that it's hard. It is for everyone. Everyone has a hard time trying to hide the pain from this life and most of the times you just want to give up. But that's life not giving up, it's doing your best everyday. Freaking the hell out and the only thing that makes your life great is the feeling that you have so much more. I have so much mo...

09 August 2014, 04:45 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581405081551

All the way through life, we are sentenced to make choices. One of ours best wishes is to always make the right choices in life even when we're very old and experiment, we still fear making the wrong choices. Sometimes we hide our wrong decisions into lies, lying even for ourselfes trying to make our choices looking better than the other options, pointing up the qualities/ the goods of that choice. Somehow we are fullish by us in trying to think that it was the right thing to do. Curiously, ...

11 July 2014, 01:26 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581404855609

One quick thought came up on my mind! And if I hadn't Oxford or medical school? What would be of me? Seriously, I am worried I have lost my strength. I am worried that I am not who I thought I will turn up. Because I made up so much fake planning that somehow I realized that I couldn't dream more about I was up to in the future or else where none of good things would happen to me... Because I have made all good plans and dreams and hopes. But seriously none of that happened and I am worried t...

08 July 2014, 10:40 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581404826469

PERFECTION What are you? It's like everyone seeks you, but nobody know you. We use to say imperfections make us, however we love the perfect things about everyone and not the mistakes, because they always bother us soner or later and manage to ruin the perfect aspects of our uncertain life. Which is curious cause we say we love those things for not being perfect, but we end hating them more because we always thought that those things didn't mean anything to us. Sure, we love being different, ...

08 July 2014, 02:34 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581404205962

So I read the text and at first it seemed clear to me. It's about the things he missed but now... I thought a little harder and I come to the idea that maybe it was all around, maybe it was for me to know what I miss. Because I took him for granted at first and what that brought me: the desesparation for his attention. Not that I still look for him, because it's over for me. So the text is more about me than about him. On the other hand, I always pictured that I had screwed everything up, but...

01 July 2014, 10:12 AM
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Journal_pane_6609581404146594

Don't take her for granted

When she gives up on you, it's obvious. 1. She will not try to catch your attention. 2. She will not fight for you anymore. 3. She won't reply to your message as quickly anymore. 4. She won't try to keep the conversation going anymore. 5. She will not care anymore. 6. She no longer get jealous. 7. She will flirt and talk to other guys. 8. She no longer care if you care or not anymore. 9. She no longer goes to your profile and whine to people about how happy you are talking to other g...

30 June 2014, 05:43 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581404145333

I bet that you don't know who you are better than I know myself! And actually I don't know much about me. I know my body better than any one else still not sure about the whole me. Not sure if I am the right person or what style do I have. I guess I am me. And me, it's no better than what I picture of me! The real question is what is me? So I figured out that I shouldn't be upset for not knowing me, but for thinking I did, so maybe I'm still angry about me, but still unsure what is me. To sum...

30 June 2014, 05:22 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581403855058

Hello sunshine! Maybe it was all there in a part of your mind. You can't just wait for everything to appear from scratch. She was right is a matter of time, everything, but even if I keep fighting against the clock, it won't stop. So hello one more day in the land of the unknown, hello to the world of 7 billion people who don't even know who I am. The day is starting here, getting over in other random place in the universe and what I am supposed to do wait until sunset? I will have to get ov...

27 June 2014, 08:44 AM
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Journal_pane_6609581403640980

I just realized... 3 years, that's all it takes for me. I was ready to make my dream to true. It will never be like this, I will never ever need to hide from the shades or try to fall in love with the right guy. I was ready to make as much mistakes as possible but firstly to give my all and let me fall. I want to give my all but also to receive all the attention. But meanly to be who I am, not what some jerk make of you. They're duffies and I deserve another change to make people understand t...

24 June 2014, 09:16 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581403630952

Behind all the creepy things and junk that I have done along the way: this was the end. One more year, surely, one that I’ll never forget. But behind all the mistakes, I’ve never let myself down. Maybe it looked up like I was feeling bad but the truth is that I was there. Things happened, but I don’t regret all that stupid mistakes. Yes, I was right in some ways. It was a hell of a school year but I was just turn up side down I guess. And maybe I don’t have options surrounding me, maybe who I...

24 June 2014, 06:29 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581397850096

I was thoughless about what I was suppose to write now. I felt that I've change since the day I started writing this down but now I just don't know what are the subject that make me wanna write more, read more... So I find myself thinking of milions of new fresh subjects that I've never writen about like things that really matter to me not a stupid and unique mistake that hauntes me everytime I close my eyes. When I was young I woke myself from nightmares and just felt happy about living in t...

18 April 2014, 08:41 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581395428544

How can a single moment isolated from any particular time or fact in your life can manage to ruin everything... The question is rather there's a solution or not. If you are thinking that I am talking about death, the thing is that timelines are not made by days or months, but by years, the most important things in your mean less life got forgotten. Do you know why? Everything's shorten up to the point that the real things, not scientific or biologic or supposable things, are forgotten, the ...

21 March 2014, 07:02 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581393457823

Everybody talks... That could be the beginning of our story... Our short story, it started with me crying a river. Tears drought down my face... I would give up on me because of you. I loved you more than sugar, than drugs than me... I just forgot my city, my world... I forgot my language, my country. I forget that this isn't my city that you are just an hobby. I forgot who big I am for you. I love you...but I love me way more to put me through such pain. What really made you think I would ...

26 February 2014, 11:37 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581393441953

Loneliness is a lost feeling when you have words or texts that even though they are not read or heard set you free...

26 February 2014, 07:12 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581392741715

You lost me... I was in the night, you were the sun in the middle of the darkness. And I wanted you... wanted piece to piece... Wanted your heart, your soul... so I fighted, I was sick of fighting in life but I fighted one more time just to see the light than you lost me... Just faking that you care because I don't and this is our happy ever after, because there wasn't a hello for me to say goodbye. So this is our end or not... it's your turn to decide because I've already been a tiger all t...

18 February 2014, 04:42 PM
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Journal_pane_6609581391529258

I was lost, not literally, just lost... in the middle of no where and I felt dizzy. Dizzy of my seek life, I was deeper destroyed by my own feelings of freedom. My passion to see the sky and then I felt lost. I was myself, running away from me. Running away from this place that I hated and I still hate. I want to be that girl in the train, crying but feeling crazily free. Loved that feeling than I lost it all to a stranger... Come on, let me be free!

04 February 2014, 03:54 PM
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