long time no chat

yep. It's been a long time since I've posted here. Emotionally I've been up and down. Physically the same as well. Awaiting some medical answers and just went back on antidepressants after I went off them for a little bit. All the recent news posts have me teary eyed. ugh

29 March 2014, 11:08 PM
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Sun

Everybody wants the sun to come and cure their rough moods but suns need love too -George Watsky

04 January 2014, 07:05 PM
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sleep

and now to attempt a little more sleep. goodnight world.

04 January 2014, 08:00 AM
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Stars

"And even though I know how very far apart we are It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky"

04 January 2014, 07:58 AM
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Love.

Those I love, I love loyally. It takes an insurmountable thing to make me not feel that anymore. It does happen, yes. I have a couple people in my life that I love deeply, unconditionally and through anything. I would move mountains for them. I make sure they know that because at the end of it all we are just stories in the end. So let's make it a good one. (Doctor Who)

04 January 2014, 07:53 AM
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Tears

I've done quite a bit of crying today. Not all were in sadness as I am an emotional being. I'm saying goodbye to bad friendships, solidifying good ones, teaching my children that it's ok to feel the range of emotions that's part of the human experience. It's ok to cry, in sadness or joy. It's ok to mourn the end of things and celebrate new beginnings.

04 January 2014, 07:51 AM
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Mental Health

they've got lots of labels on me for this too. Asperger's Syndrome, Tourette's Syndrome, PTSD, Depression, Anxiety and Seasonal Affective Disorder. I refuse to allow these to define who I am, though I understand that if any were to be "cured" that it would change who I am as a person because they are a part of me organically. This doesn't mean I don't seek help to make things better for myself or those around me. I take medication, use stress reduction techniques, routines, music and educate ...

04 January 2014, 07:49 AM
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Physical Health

Anemia, Low vitamin D, Low vitamin B12. Tachycardia, increased eye pressure, shortness of breath, Vertigo, Insomnia, Fibromyalgia, Arthritis, back injury from a fall in 2007 that is permanent and includes bone chips, a bone spur, degenerated discs and a hernia in my back. a form of eczema that causes blisters on my hands at random times. Can you see why I'm overwhelmed? I'm only 35

04 January 2014, 07:45 AM
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Happy Belated New Year

It's been quite some time since I've written anything here. I've got so much to say and I think it'll help to get it out. I've undergone some major life changes. Some good (being more physically active, standing my ground, accepting myself, working on becoming more social) Others maybe aren't so good (physical health is not real great currently, friendships that have ended, and I've gave up on a few people) I'm not making resolutions. I asked my facebook friends to just love and let love. Eve...

04 January 2014, 07:41 AM
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so many thoughts

Yet so little I can say.

23 August 2013, 02:46 AM
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Aspie obsessions

I don't think I've had reason to mention this before but I have Autism Spectrum Disorder (Aspergers syndrome). I am currently obsessed with a two minute YouTube video. I used way too much data playing and replaying. Finally just downloaded it. It's calming and makes me happy. Welcome to my brain!

21 August 2013, 09:16 AM
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quiet

It's very quiet here. Most everyone is asleep. My sleep meds aren't working. So I'm lying here listening to Chameleon Circuit on my phone and stalking Facebook.

20 August 2013, 03:26 AM
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my pug

She's always here to snuggle when I wake up in the middle of every night.

19 August 2013, 07:26 AM
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50th

Less than 100 days until the Doctor Who anniversary special. 98 to be exact. But who's counting?? lol

18 August 2013, 01:54 PM
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medal

I got my 5k medal though I'm still working on completing it. It's awesome!! Still struggling with insomnia but slept well last night. Just got up at 3:30am for the day lol. I like the peace early mornings bring.

16 August 2013, 09:11 AM
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hi

I haven't posted in awhile so I figured I would check in. I attempted to climb Haystack mtn. I didn't quite make it, but I was close. The kids and Charles went to the top! I've started my cumulative 5k! Well off to sleep I go. Sweet dreams!

10 August 2013, 02:59 AM
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middle of the night blues

But I can't play harmonica for fear of waking others. At least I keep myself company lol

01 August 2013, 07:01 AM
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we are all...

We are all just trying to make it peacefully through this existence so why waste energy making others feel subpar? Instead focus that energy on helping others through this crazy ride.

31 July 2013, 07:13 AM
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stories

"We are all just stories in the end" But some stories are tragic, some are heartwarming, so cause so much pain just to the observer not to mention those involved in that story. What emotions will my story evoke, what will I leave behind? Wasted whispers or an overjoyed overture. I want to mean more than the life struggles that I strive to conquer. I want my story to bring others to many different emotional brinks. I want to be a good enough person that those around me can laugh, cry and yet ...

30 July 2013, 05:25 AM
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We are all just stories in the end

27 July 2013, 10:15 AM
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