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Memories

I remember how when she would hear music there would be a twitch of her lips. Slowly she would start smiling. Before you know it she would get up and strut her way into the open. Both her hands would be placed firmly on her hips. You would see her lean to the right then to the left, moving from side to side. Then she would imitate doing some type of yoga moves like squats. I guess it was almost like twerking, but a socially awkward form of twerking. Of course this only ever happened in the pr...

14 January 2015, 10:49 PM
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A Motherless Child

She was as lovely as a white dove. Pure and simple. Sometimes her feathers occasionally got ruffled. Some of the other family members like the pigeons and seagulls got into brawls. But she stood out like a white flag waving in the defeat seeking peace. She was treated wonderfully. Loved and cherished by many. Many looked at her loveliness in envy. However she never showed off she was classy and delicate. She was graceful and had a wonderful laugh that warmed people’s hearts. When she was grum...

14 January 2015, 10:47 PM
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Your Choice

Slow is patience, patience is building up to something greater, something greater is something special, something special is something worth waiting for, something that is worth waiting for is love, love is hard work, work is time and effort, time and effort will pay of, pay of is a happiness, happiness is what you will find, find is what we are all searching for, searching for is not giving up, not giving up is strength, strength is rewarding, rewarding is achievement, achievement is succes...

26 September 2014, 04:50 PM
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Be Mine

Take your hand and place it over my heart. My heart beats for you, it is you that it sings to. Will you hold it to cherish it, and love it unconditionally. True love, my fate, my chosen one, will you claim my heart. I want our hearts to beat as one, be in sync, breathe life into each other. Be my knight in shining armor, challenge the ones who rule me. I make a sacrifice, choose my own path, that entwines with yours, breaking away from set destination to another. My word is to love you, the o...

06 August 2014, 04:39 AM
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Love Again?

How many times will one think they have fallen in love in order to know this is the one. This is the one who will be my forever love? No more heart breaks? Well, not going to say I found Mr. Right but he is Mr. Possible. Doing things the right way, well I cant really say that because he has made me a bit deviant in some ways. But no worries I think I have this under control. Heart break? Nope not an option this time, no getting close well physically close until our first date. Again I will be...

24 July 2014, 04:47 PM
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That Day....

I still remember that day I found out my mom's cancer has come back to visit us. I was having lunch with my best friend, a girl who has been a big part of my life in which it floated by like a teenage dream. My phone rang and I saw it was my mother calling. I remember clearly saying "I do not want to pick up the phone in case it is bad news" I said this while joking around, and was in a really happy mood. Latter I decided to call her on my walk home. She told me it came back... and it came ba...

22 July 2014, 08:22 PM
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Cancer

So this is a topic which I have been avoiding talking about. Cancer... something no one really wants to talk about unless you (a) have it (b) you know someone with it (c) you are a doctor (d) you just really interested in learning about it. However the problem is all above excluding (a). My own mother has cancer, she has had it for about 8 months now. Just last year it was discovered and her tumor was removed. We thought we were the lucky ones, my mom got it removed, and it was not coming bac...

22 July 2014, 08:09 PM
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Loving Yourself

Many women now a days feel insecure about their body wait. I for one am guilty for the lack of confidence I have. Sometimes I find my self obsessing over my arms wondering if there to fat looking. I have no idea how I even got infatuated with this obsession. Right now I also find my self reading all these health articles. I have come to the conclusion that there will people who are no so obsessed, there okay with people who make an effort to be healthy but also know how to enjoy the luxuries ...

22 July 2014, 08:01 PM
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Your Out Of Your Mind

You try being gentle for once only to call out my inner demon, raging as all hell breaks loose. My fingers itch as they cry out to turn into claws in which I can shred you. The words spit out like flames hoping to burn you. Eyes turn wild as you stir the beast inside. I fume while I wrestle to break free from this cage inside me. I get chest pain as this sharp pain tries to tear my chest open and let this black waste spill out. With every controlled breath you make more head strong. Your touc...

16 June 2014, 09:19 PM
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Waking up

Hands are cold as ice, cries rock her body, tears fall like hail stones from the sky, each one shattering into a million pieces, her stomach eats her inside out, the heart slows down, as it is squeezed by iron fist, hands fly in a frenzy, tearing at her hair, ripping them raw from her head, the vein in her temple pulses throbbing, as her mind is suffocated by the lack of oxygen, her lungs ache as if she had the wind knocked out of her, blackness clouds her mind, the fog rolls in, and her body...

26 March 2014, 03:11 AM
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The Way

What is this journey that I am taking, where is it leading me, how did I get here, where do I go from here now, will God come down from the clouds, will he take my hand, lead me in the direction I should take, or will the clouds close up, will the sunlight be shielded from my eyes, will I find cold stones under my feet, the wind howling by ears, as the barren trees sway, will there be crystals on the ground, shinning a path for me, follow the moonlight, to find my self in a new world, will I ...

25 March 2014, 07:41 PM
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Soul Leaves Body

I stand here sand in my shoes, my hands limp by my side, the ocean lapping at my feet, my heart just about ready to dive, the roaring of the plane over me, everything shakes around me, my ears are roaring with the rush of blood, my soul leaps through me, darting out to escape, and I see her running with great strides, the water up to her knees, as she falls her arms propel her forward, her feet kick through the cold water, in a desperate race, she swims among the ragging ocean, through the da...

25 March 2014, 03:38 AM
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Take Me

Spread my legs apart, love me dear, take control, make me surrender, seduce me till all I see is the steam rolling of our bodies, grab me, hold me, never let me escape for air, drown me in your toxicity, kiss me, silence my cries, swallow my breath, breathe the same air I breathe, bury your self inside me, close all the gaps, cover every inch of my skin, light me on fire, burn me, mark me as your own, rock your body against mine, we can slow dance all night long, we can do the tango, you can ...

25 March 2014, 02:55 AM
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Meeting Mr Perfect

I didn't think I could ever wake up from this ice land in my mind, that was frozen over after a heart break. I thought there was no hope, until I met someone. Don't ask me how I met him because I will never say, but I did. He is charming, sweet, loving, passionate, and deals with his own demons that still haunt him till this day. But no one ever said Mr. Perfect has the perfect life, Mr. Perfect is our man of our dream because he is one you want to give all your love to. This man I have met, ...

25 March 2014, 02:14 AM
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Goodbye

You don't have to try running from each other. I read your eyes, you don't have to bother. Maybe we'll survive, if we don't discover one life ties to another. Cause the world won't turn, if the sun won't rise, and the stars won't burn, in a broken sky. And the wind won't surf, if the ocean's dry, and my heart won't work, if you say goodbye. I'd rather die, holding one another, your hand in mine. It's easy and it's not for understanding why the world is out of color, one life ties to another....

12 March 2014, 05:38 PM
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Crazy to be Crazy?

In the heat of the moment I just want to escape. Close my eyes and know the world is passing by. Facing fears is difficult, and letting them disappear seems intoxicating. Where is the anxiety when your living up your wildest dreams. Slip of your shoes and socks, why don't you run barefoot on the dark side. Embrace something that makes you feel crazy. Those things eating away at your mind will be somewhere far away in the mist. Take the chances you get, to live your life the way you want to, t...

02 March 2014, 12:38 AM
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Single And Loving It?

Sometimes you look at couples and you think aww thats so cute I wish that was me. But honestly, when all the crazy in your life builds up, some times you just want the world to be about you and only you. Sometimes it is difficult to open up to someone else. Other times, these feelings, these burdens, shouldn't be put on others even if someone wants to be there. At times being single, is a quest to discover you, what you want, what makes you happy. You don't need someone to say that to you, yo...

02 March 2014, 12:24 AM
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Feelings

Im not thinking, I am not thinking straight, Im not listening, I am being ignorant, I am not okay, and I know it, but some part of me wants to not be okay, use it as an excuse, so that I can run away, and part of me feels horribly misunderstood, I see people who are judging and people say its going to be okay, but it does not matter what you think, it only matters what I think and at the end of the day, it me who makes the decisions.

24 February 2014, 11:10 PM
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IM NOT OKAY

I destroy everything around me, I am tearing the walls down, breaking the bonds, smashing the memories to pieces, I am destroying me, I am hatting everything about me, I am angry at me, I hate me, I am running away from me, I am trying to disappear of the map, I cant place the finger on it, I am self destructing, I am intentionally hurting my self, its killing me. IM NOT OKAY

24 February 2014, 11:06 PM
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Shattered

Love cant hold up in time of heart break, disappointment, lack of satisfaction, and neglect. Love cant survive when it is repressed, cant be expressed, and suppressed. Love cant be ours if we are not ours to have, be kept, to own, to be each others. Love cant grow, when words aren't said, we cant communicate, secrets aren't shared, we turn to others, we flirt with others. Love cant be met, when we hide, we don't try, we don't search for each other. You pushed me away, you turned away, you loo...

24 February 2014, 06:37 AM
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