Stalker

Silent as he creeps through the house, not a sound being made, unknowing, unaware that a fate is due to being made. Blade in hand he allows the darkness to sheath his very being. Laying awake in the darkness she rolls to her left, listening to the silence that creeps over the house. “I think I hear something", no maybe it's nothing. One step, two step, three... "I know I hear something," she says quietly to herself. Both feet thrown from the bed she grabs her robe, tripping clumsily in the d...

16 December 2014, 07:57 PM
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23 October 2014, 01:18 AM
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"Forever"

In the brightest hour of my darkest day I realized what is wrong with me Can't get over you. can't get through to you It's been a helter-skelter romance from the start Take these memories that are Haunting me Of a paper man cut into shreds by his own pair of scissors He'll never forgive her...he'll never forgive her... Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever Sitting by a fire on a lonely night Hanging over fro...

23 October 2014, 01:12 AM
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1st Meeting..

Today I went to my first AA meeting in support of a friend and realized something I thought about before..Ive never openly admitted I have an issue..never admitted to anyone that I drink to hide to the pain..drink to suppress memories of the past till tonight...i kinda broke down, but it was in a good way...I took the first step tonight admitting I have an issue out loud...now that it's out there It's time to focus on fixing myself...finally time to face demons I've hid from for so long...

22 October 2014, 03:32 AM
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This could be my last confession This could be my last defense I wish that we could learn our lesson I wish that we could make amends and turn the page As far as I remember It was a thing to forgive and forget You said that you would let go But I guess you didn’t mean what you said Now it’s time to surrender Because I don’t want to live with regret And nothing lasts forever As far as I remember

11 September 2014, 10:48 PM
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Doll

Slowly I'm destroying the memory of you, Each day I erase the pain you gave me, Erase the love I felt for you No longer can I be the one you loved, no longer can I be the one you hate, I loved you once, I used to be yours, but no longer, now I will become the bitter shell you claimed me to be so long ago The woman you knew once is long gone, the woman you wanted me to become is staring right back in the mirror, unrecognizable is this person, No fear, No love, No emotion, only an empty dol...

11 September 2014, 10:02 PM
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26 August 2014, 02:21 AM
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Secrets

I am the lady of the night, the one who gives love to many, but receives love from none. No one can understand, No one can accept. Love used to be so bright, but now it is fear, it is pain, now it is just a memory that feels like it never really existed...

23 August 2014, 05:26 AM
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Lady in waiting..

They come to play, with no desire to stay. They come one by one with secrets they leave at the door. With arms wide open she greets them with a smile and a kiss on the cheek but deep down inside she cries, wishing it all would get better. The pain remains silent,the hurt never shows on her face. The make-up never wears; the smile just diminishes. The light in her eyes were once so bright, but now not even the light from the stars could recreate the shine that was once there. She loves no one ...

23 August 2014, 05:23 AM
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Reasoning for a bad day

Me: God, can I ask You a question? God: Sure Me: Promise You won't get mad God: I promise Me: Why did You let so much stuff happen to me today? God: What do u mean? Me: Well, I woke up late God: Yes Me: My car took forever to start God: Okay Me: at lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait God: Huummm Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call God: All right Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home ~I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & re...

23 August 2014, 04:54 AM
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UGH!!!

I just want to scream and yell I was never naive. I was never so honest, that I couldnt hurt, how could you say that, how could you tell me that you wanted to show me the world? what the crockn shit is that? Seriously, I wasnt helpless, I wasnt some kid who just came into her own, I didnt want you because you were old, you tried to push me into something I wasn't ready for so much i couldn't help but walk away. I walked away because I thought I knew what was good for me. Not because I didn't...

30 July 2014, 08:46 AM
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20 July 2014, 11:52 PM
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Tuck and Roll.

I wonder if i run thru many peoples minds. Or if I'm just a blimp of a thought like " oh,yea she's still alive huh?" Sometimes I wonder if people talk about me. Or if they acknowledge my existence at all. I know if anyone ever read this they might want to have me committed for some of the thoughts I have. No one ever said I was perfect, but they all say I'm crazy.Its kinda crazy when I write in this though. I feel more like myself,more like I have control of the world and what I allow in it. ...

20 July 2014, 11:34 PM
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Selfish

Anyone who says Love isnt selfish has never truly experienced love. Last night the guy I'm talking to told me he could love me,but the one i've loved for as long as I can remember is coming back into my life. It may only be for a short time,but either way I can say for once and all that I laid in his arms. I know I'm being selfish by wanting to be with him while this other guy is in my life but, i've never wanted anything more. Its the curse of being an addict. We can always say "just a littl...

16 July 2014, 05:23 AM
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Dream come true.

Damn 15 years later and I still love him. Fuck, this feeling is so amazing but, terrifying. I've loved him since I was a baby and have wanted nothing more than to be with him, and now in about a week I'll finally have that chance. God is definitely playing a cruel joke on me. I dont even know what to say about any of this. Just to feel his touch,his kiss finally, its like a dream come true. Im soo excited its like I'm a school girl again. Damn,I'm nervous, but excited and still in love. He wa...

16 July 2014, 04:20 AM
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